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Need Someone to Talk To.... Posted: 10-14-07 21:31pm


Well lately i've just felt like i don't even care about anything anymore. My life feels like i'll never feel good again. I always feel extremely sick to my stomach because of anxiety,acid reflux. I just hate how i feel and i am in the mindset that it will never get better. Does anyone have or ever had this problem? The only thing that keeps me going is my friends and my mom who is there supporting me everyday telling me that we are gonna get me through this together.

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Hey.. Posted: 10-14-07 22:41pm


I know how you feel. I am 33 years old and have been dealing with feelings of anxiety for the last 3 1/2 years. I have seen so many doctors regarding my "heart attack" symptoms it makes me question my own sanity. When I feel good I almost convince myself that this is it... I am finally over the hump. Then... I start to stress about actually being "over" the hump so much that it causes the same stinking loop of anxiety to return. I get pain in my chest, rapid heart rate.. etc.. Then off to see a Doctor, get an EKG done and of course... nothing is wrong with the heart. They give me meds for reflux and send me on my way. Sad thing is this used to work for me for a short while. now... I have somehow convinced myself that the Doctors must have missed something... I am gonna drop of a heart attack any minute now... even right after I leave the E.R.! I am not sure what to do anymore... I feel alone. My wife has tried to stay supportive.. but I tell ya after 3 1/2 years of the same roller coaster.. it's wearing her thin. She doesn't say it, but I can see it in her eyes. Heck.. I could just be paranoid about this too... I am trying my best to hide these feelings from everyone but that only works until the panic sets in. Actually, I think it's self induced ... worry about hiding the anxiety so much it sets off a panic attack. I do know with absolute certainty.. I would do just about anything to feel normal again. Be able to show my wife that I am not really crazy... how sweet that would be... I just want all this garbage to stop....

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I'm With Ya's Posted: 10-15-07 00:05am


Anxiety is really hard to get a handle on. I truly believe that the fast pace world and the way it is now has a great potential in inducing anxiety. People expect more out of you, gotta be afraid to drive with such crazies out there. Way to much pressure that we have to deal with day to day. What I have found, is to avoid those situations. I had to leave my last hospital job working 3 12 hour shifts because of stress. Left a nice chunck of change too when I left. Sometimes, avoiding these "Tiggers" might not seem like it can be done. But, it not only can, it has to. Only time I would have to say differently is when school is concerned. We have to go to school, or be home schooled. In this case, I would have to say that counseling would be the best start. AlexXD, It almost sounds like you getting very depressed. From what you have posted, if you already have anxiety, you are starting to add depression to that now. Another piece of a puzzle that goes with anxiety. Carrie

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Bad Morning Posted: 10-15-07 10:00am


Today i woke up and was worried about school, Now we are getting me into more than ever, School threatening to send a officer, Court and other things. I feel as if i am going to vomit i am so worried, Dry heaved already. It's 10:14 am. I'm so sad and down, I hate how my life is turning out. I'm never gonna change. And my counselors are coming at 5:30 pm. I just want to stay home but my mom won't let me. I just don't know where to turn anymore.

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Keep It Cool Alex Posted: 10-15-07 15:01pm


Now get yourself together and stay calm. You are the one that can control this and no one else. You need to straighten yourself out. You and only you are doing this to yourself. I hate to sound mean but, sometimes an advisor must get aggressive to get anything into someone's brain. Now you need to stop all this BS and stop driving yourself over the edge. You can do it and I know you can. Either you are happy the way you are or your just not interested in getting better. I warned you what happens if they send you away. I will pull no punches on this board. I speak the truth and I told you in PM what was going to happen if this continued. Now Alex you can stop this from happening. I just have this funny feeling that there is more to this then you are telling me or the members. You need to bring it all out so we can help you through this. It's the only way. We need ALL of the puzzle and not just a few pieces and try and put it together. Now start being honest and tell me really what is going on and why you are the one that is getting in all this trouble. Hugs And this is called "Tough Love' Carrie

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Bumping This Up Posted: 10-17-07 20:08pm


Worried about Alex. Have not heard from you. Hope you are not angry with me. Sometimes you can't paint a picture of roses anymore and you need to get a different brush and start painting the real world. If you are reading this, I just want to say that I am worried about you and I do care. You have a lifetime ahead of you and I don't want you to screw it up for yourself. You age is the hardest sometimes to get through. I went through the similar senario when I was a teen. Never fit into the peer group. But, I am better for that today. Oh, I was no angel for sure but, I believe by staying out of curtain circustances, I did myself a favor. I hope you are doing alright. I tend to worry more about others than I worry about myself. Guess that is why I choose to go into mental health for awhile in the first place and work in the health care field for so long. I do care about others. Bug Hugs and hope to hear from ya soon, Carrie

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Feeling Generally Good Posted: 10-17-07 23:54pm


Well today was fairly a good day, I went. I am now seeing a therapist and this was the first day, We talked about things we can try to accomplish to stop this beast of anxiety. And i also learned a little more about my symptoms.

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Awesome! Posted: 10-18-07 00:12am


Great to hear from ya! You are headed in the right direction now. Anxiety is a real beast Alex and it is not fun, I know that. But, as I said before. I have confindence in you and know that you can beat this. That was the only down side to working in mental health Alex. I cared about my patients. Maybe to much. Even use to bring some of my teens home with me in thought. There were some I had to worry if they would even be there the next day when I went back to work. I worry alot about suicidle though tendencies. Maybe becuase I've been there too. Thanks for the reply and don't stay away and worry me like that anymore. I know things well go well now for you. Counslors are there to help you and be there when you need them. Listen to what they have to say. That is why they are counslors. You are going to have a wonderful life ahead of you. Carrie

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Posted: 10-18-07 12:32pm


Yay!!!

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Posted: 10-18-07 19:51pm


Yea. I am kinda just trying to get my humor and personality back, It's not an easy battle but it sure ain't impossible. With love and courage i can get through this. When i feel sick to my stomach my therapist said to just think about how bad it can get, And try and make yourself sick. Wierd but it works and usually makes me feel better. And i learned a few breathing technichs.

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Posted: 10-19-07 00:23am


We got the love and so does your loving family who love you very much. And YOU have the courage! Now go for it guy. BRAVO, Alex! And don't forget, ya go members here that want to help you to. I would love to see your sense of humor come back. Bet you can be a real comedian. Carrie

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Still Harder Than I Think Posted: 10-21-07 23:49pm


I may be starting the road to recovery but i always still feel sick, And i know i'm not physically sick, Because i haven't been in contact with any sick people, Or i haven't eaten and bad food, So why would i always feel like vomiting? The subconcious thoughts of school? I'm not sure, But this would be easier if i would not feel like vomiting 24/7.

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Posted: 10-22-07 04:18am


What you are going through is normal Alex. You are sick to your stomack from (believe it or not) recovery. You are going through withdrawl, only without a drug dear friend. You will do just fine, trust me. As time goes on this will get easier and easier and on morning your going to wake up and say to yourself " I don't feel like vomiting today!" Now that is the day you should be looking forward to. Then you have total release Alex. So, just bring a vomit basin with you and keep you chin up. YOU are going to make it! Hugs, Carrie

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Posted: 10-22-07 18:18pm


But it is still awkward that these symptoms occur when i am at home and calm, They have been going for weeks but i still haven't even vomited.

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Posted: 10-22-07 20:33pm


Are you on any medication alex?

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Posted: 10-22-07 20:39pm

Georgia59 wrote:

Are you on any medication alex?

No, I'm trying to stay away from all of that. I would really never let myself get to a point where i really need meds, But i do take Zantac 75 for my acid reflux. but that's pretty much it.

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Hi Alex Posted: 10-22-07 20:58pm


Well, I am reading kinda inside your posts now and beilieve it or not your sounding calmer then before. Something is changing Alex. You may not realize it, but I am reading into it in your posting. Are you starting to feel a little better at least? I do blame you for trying to stay away from meds. But, just realize they are there if you truly need them and no need to be ashamed of it. Most of us are on something. No one more then I wish I didn't have to take anything. But, sometimes my anxiety get so out of control, If I did not have my Klonopin, I would probably be at some funny farm from a nerves break down. I have severe anxiety and panic disorder Alex and had for about 4 years now. On top of the I am on Lexepro for depression. So you see, I am in the same boat. Only I choose to work with my medication anyway I can. I do meditation relaxation and listen to New Age music all day on the TV when I am home. Even if I am cooking it is on. Just wanted you to know that I too am fighting this illness. And I know it ain't fun. You mentioned that this goes on mostly when you are home? Something going on at home you would like to tell me about? Maybe I can be of some help there. What are your parents like Alex? Do they verbally abuse you or something? Let it out guy. Only way your gonna feel better. Hugs, Carrie

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Posted: 10-22-07 21:10pm


My parents are not mean at all, Except for the occasional tough love. They support me in getting better, But yet they still can't understand what i am going through. And when i panic about school, I panic so much but when i am there the nausea goes to a very "mild" level and i usually go throughout the day without "Really" noticing it. Then when i get home i think about it alot? Maybe the nausea could be from the acid indigestion i have mixed with my bad diet.(Junk food). I have options for good food choices and i've heard that a good diet really helps brain chemical balance or something? but none the less, I really don't see what is bothering me at home, Maybe knowing i have to go to school the next day? And also. When i take Zantac 75, It removes 75% of nausea and acid indigestion but i get really really gassy, Belching and passing gas. I don't know if that's a side effect or what. ~Alex

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Good Point Alex! Posted: 10-22-07 21:51pm


Have you ever been checked for acid reflux. It is one step worse the just acid. You can feel the acid going all the way up to your throat sometimes and even have some chest pain with it. That would have a chance of giving you that nausea effect. Well, when you are home, it gives you more down time to worry about the next day. Night anxiety is very normal and most have it. Only because you mind has time then to think of the "what if's". Alex, I know that you are trying to do this without medication but, sometime we just can't do it. And I can understand you parents not understanding how you feel. The only person that knows how it really feels is the person going through this horrible illness and what it does to our lives. Have you sat down and talked to them about it? I mean really calmly sit down and talked. Not a good time when you are freaking out. I wish there was more I could say or do to help you through this Alex, I really do. But , when it all comes down, it is only you that came overcome this. More Hugs, Mother Carrie LOL

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Posted: 10-22-07 22:11pm


Yea i always have the what if of, "What if i vomit?"