Just relax and wait until you are ready.
Since he is not pushing, he will wait.
Maybe you will never want it, who knows.
I personally do not like it. I mean,
every once in a blue moon if I am feeling
spunky I don't mind, but in general it
just doesn't do it for me.
But I remember the first time I had it
done. It freaked me out big time. The
only reason I "let" him do it, was because
he was really really pushy and I felt I
didn't have a choice. It was gross. He
had not idea what he was doing. (most
don't.)
but, just so that you know, in general,
the more they brag about how good they are
at it the worse they are. It is the ones
who don't brag who usually are really
good.
but, anyway, just don't pressure yourself.
Someday you will let him, and who knows
you may even like it.
