hey just decided to try these forums, an
talk to people who know what im going
through
...we all have to admit, bulimia is a
curse, something u wouldnt wish upon your
worst enemy-it starts off in control, then
it takes over your whole head.
my bulimia started when i was 12, i was
never overweight now i look back but with
my mum in the fitness industry it was hard
to accept myself compared to my mum.
It started in control-once a week, then
twice, then it was awsum, i was eating all
the foods i loved without gaining a kg.
when i got to high skool (so a year after
i started) a B/P episode would happen 5xs
a day, mostly at night, and when i was at
skool i would sit in class an obsess over
food, scab and steal food (like a druggy
with there drugs) it was all i culd think
of.when i got to skool on the bus, i would
walk str8 through it jump the fence n go
back home (mum wuld b at work) and eat
anything an everything.
i soon dropped out of skool, as i had no
space in my mind for anything, but
food-and weight self obsession issues...i
would evan eat things i didnt like. if
there was something there i couldnt relax
without eating it. every time i said to
myself, its the last time...no more, at
this stage i was being bulimic bout 13x a
day, so i was run down, swollen and sore,
evan that didnt stop me.
im now 17, trying to clear my act, i still
fall into my B/P but once a week-i once
went 6 weeks....i coulnt believe it, so
many times i bindged n had to fite that
thort of chucking up.
But to be honest i had doctors
medications, i dont know how anyone can
overcome bulimia without doctors
medications-i was put on anti depressants,
and dexamphetamines....so the thort of
food doesnt cross my mind when im on them,
not all doctors let you tho, and for girls
who have overcome it without medications,
hats off to you....your amazing, strong
willed and in control of urself, well
done, i dont know how u did it, evan on
medications i still fall back in my rutt.
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bibisim
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Posted: 11-11-07 19:13pm
Hey blond,
come on , u r young and nice, u shall do
recovery without medications. u cant be on
thm all the time, this is addiction.
i tell u this, u get recovered as soon as
u find a interest in life.
go to the nextbookstore and buy esotheric
books, the secret, law of attraction,
affirmations. just start reading them.
u r here on earth to make smone happy.
work in this direction.
I got through my bulimia being completely
anonimous, i even did not know there were
forums like that. do the recovery for
urself and a person u shall fall in love
with, at least.
