I Feel So *down*

Look noone should judge you about the weed. Everyone has their own poison but it is addicting!!!!! I repeat addiciting. No physically but mentally. My sisters have been smoking it for like 8 years now everyday like its cigarretes and cant stop. It takes away all ambition and motivation. It just makes people extremly lazy. At least thats what ive learned from my sisters. I never got into like them though. I never really cared for it too much cuz it gets me too paranoid lol, I prefer to drink but the only time I enjoy it is if im gonna get busy with my man lol cuz it enhances all your senses. For me it does anyway lol and the last time I smoked it was with my bf's bro, my man dosent smoke it, on my b-day which was nov 21st. I turned 20 and I got preggy a week later lol. As far as everything else goes, try and lay off of it for real. It really doesnt make you happy. Just emotionall. U think it makes you happy, it can ruin alot for you. Dont let it take control of you. You take control of the situation. You r beautiful and ur a great person. Dont let anyone make you feel otherwise. You'll be just fine. As time goes on you'll realize that! ~ erica.

Thank you erica. I know weed is bad but im so in love with it. It is menallty addicting. But I dont drink all I do is smoke weed and smoke ciggs. I know tommrrow I won't be able to smoke weed cuz #1 got no money and #2 is my mom has the day off and we are going out. My mom knows I smoke weed but she doesn't know I smoke it everyday. I smoke it right when I get up after school and b4 bed. Its bad cuz the people I hang out with smoke it alot. Expect christina me and her have only smoked weed once b4 toghther. Well I dont know what else to say so ill stop rabmling(sp?)

alison xoxo

Dont worry my sis was addicted to it for about.. 6 years now I think and I dont think I ever saw her not high for the past.. 3 years. I used to do it all the time but afterwards, I moved back home and couldnt afford it and slowly just quit. I know its hard cuz it does make u down and depressed.. I dont know why?? But when my sis found out she was preggers, she totally quit. Sometimes u just gtta find the right way to quit. I say first try and cut down. Limit ur stash.. Say u smoke about half a q a day, just try and cut down from that t only about 3 g's and next week.. 2and a half or 2 's.. Hopefully that'll help. At least its nt a big serious drug thats puttin ur health in harm I hope u feel better and if ur feelin depressed, put on one of those cheesy kids shows.. Whenever I got depressed i'd ut em on and id be so into b****ching about all the stupid caca I saw on the tv, I would forget about bein depressed hopefully u feel better soon

shauna

sorry im at my boyfriends house and his keyboard really sux so my typings pretty bad lol!

If I found out I was preggy I would quit smoking weed it would take me long for ciggs tho. I know its not a harmful drug it just kills brian cells( haha not a harmful drugs!!) it is really hard cuz the women I get it from lives right acorss the street. All my money goes towards it.

I know what u mean! Cigs are hard (im in my 6th month and im still havin problems with the whole smokin bit). But weed... I usually bought ti from a buncha diff peopel but most of em are in jail and one (my sis' ex fiance) actually pased away awhile ago (lung cancer) so my dealers sorta got cut off after awhile... But maybe.... Hmmm... Kinda tough trying to figure out how to quit weed but give it some time and u'll figure out how to do it. Theres so many diff ways that people do but theres only one that's suited best for u.... And besides, think of all the pretty stuff u can buy if u save all that money and ur definelt not ugly so dont worry about that at all!

Shauna

Before I was preggy I smoked weed everyday... I don't care what ppl say its alot better than drinking everyday.. Weed is not a bad drug yeah its a drug but the safest one out there. Yes it is addicting, I know from experience I mean if u really wanna quit than powert o you, but don't feel guilty about it... I hope this response doewsn't offend people I am just saying what I think! Well good luck and hit that caca for me!

I think smoking weed is (caps) way better than drinking. Cuz when you are drinking it makes you lose control and you dont think straight. It is 12pm here and I havent smoked any today!! Yay my mom is home thats why we are going out to the beach to walk around its soo nice outside!

Hey hun,
im sorry that you're feeling down. I completely understand what you mean about guys only interested in looks. Gahh..I understand that a lot. But you shouldnt let guys bring you down. They're not the most important thing in life. Whenever you feel down you should hangout with family and friends! They matter most. About your friend sonja..Or ex-friend, I think its horrible that she allowed some guy to get in the way of your friendship...Friends dont do that. :s and now for weed, I used to smoke too but id always go on weird trips while being on it so I quit. Smoking it is all up to you and no one will judge you for it. But it is an addiction...So many of my friends are becoming addicted to it and when I talk to them about it they get mad at me..Gahh..I hate that. Meh..All I can say is dont let it become an addiction..Really dont. Maybe smoke it once in awhile..When you go out partying? I hate when people get addicted to things :s well hope you're feeling much better
shannon
xoxox

Hey, I hate how guys are only in to looks is so doing it stupid if you ask me!!!! Its what inside counts like I understand you have to be attratied(sp?) to them. And about sonja she has done that to be before4 but I wasnt dating the guy its along story so here it is..

Ok well last year on may long weekend we went to her friends melanies parties and I meet this guy jeff I thought he was so cute and I told sonja about him and shes like oh yea I like this guy nick so it was all good..Well that nite I got p*ssed drunk and I slepted with him **i wish I didnt tho** and the next moring I went home and that nite I went back there and sonja was all over him!! I was so mad so we talked and shes like I like him..So we (caps) promised eachother that we wont go after him. Well later that nite I was talking to peeps and I noticed sonja and jeff werent there..There were in melanies room!!! They locked the door I was soo mad..**when I drink I get very voilnet** I was banging on the door screaming for her to get out of there and she didnt. Finally melanie tried to calm me down but I punched her I didnt mean to tho!! Finally when they opened the door I b*tched at sonja for along time than her and jeff ran off to go for a walk. Well for a week we didnt talk than we finally talked and we promised again we wouldnt have anything to do with him. Well about 1 week later she meets this guy "scott" and shes so happy and tells me everything about him how they had sex everything this went on for about 2 months I had a feeling she was seeing him but she said I didnt trust her blah blah blah. Anyways I was at her house in june she was in the shower I just had to read her dairy and I was right she was seeing him!! I was so mad when she came out of the shower I b*cthed at her for along time. I know it was wrong of me too look at her diary but I knew she was leing. And in her diary it said I was a b*tch and I was fat and tons of more sh*t about me. We didnt talk for like a month I went away for july and when I got home we came friends again. But I still didnt trust her at all!!**and jeff said he didnt like me cuz my boobs are too big and I was 15 at the time and sonja told him she was 17 when she was only 16. So when jeff was outta the picture we were really close again but when I found a guy I like she (caps) always tried to get with him. Totally p*ssed me off! So when her and derek started dating in december and I found out that was it I cant have her as my friend someone who I can not trust at all. And the thing is she has a 17 month old girl mya I loved her sooo much I havent seen her since christimas day. Well sonja use to go out everynite and leave mya by herself **she was sleeping** and sonja would go out for the whole weekend and leave mya with her parents her parents had no idea where she was. She is an acloilic(sp?)

now sonja and derek have been dating for about 3 months now after the first doing it week she was totally in "love" with him. About a month and a half ago she moved in with him!! And he already asked her to married him!! Come on shes 17 and hes like 20?

And what gets me even more p*ssed is derek calls my house and tells my mom im a sl*t I sleep with tons of guys for money so I can get e..I havent done any other drugs expect weed in 2 freaking years!!! And he was calling my mom a b*tch and stuff. So my mom hung up and he called back and was yelling at her for hanging up on him..Well he calls about every week and saying I was suppose to meet him "rob" at a hotel and 5 mins later he calls again and says I was suppose to meet another guy at another hotel!! Like come on my mom knows (caps) everything about me!! And he leaves messages saying im a fat cow thats ugly and I should die and sh*t. Two nites ago he called at 12:15 in the doing it moring!! My mom picks up and he hung up. Finally I told my mom not to answer and he lefted a message trying to act like a black guy..**i like this black guy named neil and he likes me I have no clue how he found out about him cuz I havent talked to sonja in like 2 months. He was going on saying he had fun in the hotel and thanx for bring him to my house. Like come on buddie get a life!!!! And hes such a fool hes tiny too only like 5"8 and 140 I could take him on and his a$$ would get beat so bad!! So my neaoiubour(sp?) debbie and jim they know people and there are gonna call him up and tell him never to call me again or he will reget it. Me and my mom are going to the cops with the stuff he said cuz he is harassing me. He thinks that why me and sonja arent friends anymore is cuz of him but it aint. It is cuz she lied about it. If she came and we talked about it I would be totally cool with it cuz me and derek had nothing I didnt even really like him.

Omg this is soo long I am so sorry!! That feels so much better to get off my chest.

And as for weed I havent smoked any and its 5:08 pm and I am craving it so bad I am shaking I want it so bad!! And I dont go out and party its not my kind of thing I use to drink alot and party and alot not no more tho the last time I got drunk was in october!!

Alison xoxo

I don't know if this is appropriate or not, but this reminds me of a song called "the reason" by hoobastank. You should listen to it if you haven't heard it.


Blu

I have never heard of that song I wish I had speckers(sp?) so I could download it!!

Ahhh that sucks!!!


Blu