Time to Put You Depression In Storage Posted: 11-19-07 02:02am
I would like to wish each and every one of
you a Happy Thanksgiving. Take of that
depression and put it away in a lock safe
forever and enjoy yourselves. Eat, do'nt
drink but be merry! This is the most
inspirational time of the season and you
should not let your depression spoil it
for you.
Happy Holidays Everyone!
Cheers!
Carrie
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marvel
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Posted: 11-19-07 13:48pm
Even though I had my Thanksgiving a month
ago... HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
And MsSky? Changing to MsCarrie?
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CarolDiane
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Hey Marvel Posted: 11-19-07 13:56pm
How ya do'in dude. Well I hopefully it was
a good Thanksgiving for ya.
Yeah, I asked Admin to change my username.
I thought it best to go by my real nic
name instead. You will understand soon.
Hugs,
Carrie
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Mike East Texas
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I Love the Holidays Posted: 11-19-07 20:13pm
I like to watch movies like Gremlins
1&2. They had a Christmas theme. I
always wanted to watch Evil Santa. What's
a downer is movies like It's a Beautiful
Life. I want to see a movie about evil
elves, or Rain Deer Gone Wild. My
Favorite Christmas Comedy is Scrouged. It
was pretty dark. Another good Comedy was
Christmas Vacation. That had everything
going wrong.
Does anyone else have a holiday pleasure,
or suggestion?
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Georgia59
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Posted: 11-20-07 18:10pm
My christmas pleasure- I like to reflect
on nature and the snow that covers
everything and the birth waiting to happen
underneath it.
I'm not a fan of traditional christmas,
christmas movies and the like.
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Mike East Texas
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Snow Posted: 11-20-07 19:29pm
I use to live in the mountains with my two
kids. After a big snow, I would put
chains on my car, and go for a drive with
my kids. It was like the modern day
version of the sleigh ride. You have to
drive very slow in those conditions. The
only way I knew I was on the road is to
stay in the center of the tree lines. All
the pines would be so heavy with snow, the
limbs would be drupping. I would ask my
kids "Well, how does it feel to be in a
living Christmass Card?".
That is all gone, now. My house is now in
the swamps. Everything that was dear is
gone.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 11-20-07 19:34pm
Georgia59
wrote:
My christmas pleasure- I
like to reflect on nature and the snow
that covers everything and the birth
waiting to happen underneath it.
I'm not a fan of traditional christmas,
christmas movies and the like.
I am the same way. But, now that I have
two G-Boys, Grandma has to put up a tree
and a stocking for Brenden and Conner.
Plus a few little gifts under the tree.
They are my reason for Christmas,
otherwise I would be happy just staying
home watching the Si-Fi channnel.
Carrie
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Mike East Texas
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Ms Carrie Posted: 11-21-07 02:30am
I envy you. I seem to have no reason for
the season. Unless I become a wikken and
say BLESSED BE
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CarolDiane
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Mike Posted: 11-21-07 06:57am
It burdens my heart to see you do down. I
wish there was something I could say or do
to make it all go away.
Is there no help from the state or county
that you can apply for? Many counties will
give you a food or cash card, even a place
to stay. You just need to research it.
There are alot of things out there that
some are not aware of. You should be able
to qualify for some if not most of them.
I know what a hard time you are going
through right now. I just wish there was
some way I could help.
Carrie
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Mike East Texas
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Dear Mscarrie Posted: 11-21-07 20:58pm
I am the working destitute. I work almost
all the time. I am almost never at home.
I bought a run down shack in the swamps.
My daughter, and son inlaw were supposed
to help me fix it up. Let see, I bought a
3 bdr home for 30K gives you an idea of
the quality of the house. I tried
everything I could to make the place a
home. My son inlaw got abusive, and my
daughter with my grand daughter went to a
homeless shelter. I don't know where. She
is almost 9 months pregnant with his kid.
He is the only one liveing in my house.
He won't get a job, and all he does is
trash the place.
He says he is going to leave. If he is
determind not to do there right thing,
then he should. He is waiting for his
folks to send him the money to go. So, he
says. I may have to have him kicked out.
I would hate to do that to the father of
my grandson.
Because, I work all the time, I qualify
for nothing. This forum has been the best
for me in a long time. I know I sound
negative. But, everything I have ever
been positive about has bit me on the 'SS.
And, thanks for your help. I appreciate
it.
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marvel
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Posted: 11-22-07 01:03am
I'm glad you've found ehealth!!!
It is something positive that will
definitely NOT bite you in the 'SS.
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Mike East Texas
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Whhoo Wee! Posted: 11-22-07 02:41am
Sometimes, late, like, this, responses
move kind of slow. I can only respond at
night. So, I said what the heck. If you
use two depression forums instead of one,
I'll get better twice as fast. Was I
wrong, (another one of those little things
I get optomistic about).
They are a mad house over there. I
understand give people a little freedom.
The moderation was either non existant or
the maniacs were in charge of the asylum.
Their intials were D.S. There were people
leaving by the droves from the abuse. I
am glad that's not happening here. I have
had too much of that in my life. This is
the place to be. This has helped me. I
feel I have helped others. You can't do
anything for anybody over there.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 11-22-07 03:50am
Well Mike, The way I feel about it is that
you are letting out your feelings. And
that alone is a release of you depression.
You have a large burden on yourself and I
know it looks like there is no end to it.
Everyone needs to let it out. In some ways
it is a turning point in ones life. Maybe
even if it only makes you feel better.
Hardship is not easy. I am going through a
very hard time in my life right now too.
And some days it is very hard for me to
look at anything with a positive thought.
I will give you an example that is
happening right now. Back in 2003 (on
Thanksgiving Day) my family (mom and
sister) were sitting at the table just
chatting. Sis and I never really did get
along. She was having some problems with
her youngest son. She started yelling at
me why I was not getting involved in the
caos and I had a mouth fool of breakfast
and could not answer. Well she went into a
lunatic state and got me so upset that my
blood pressure went up sky high. All of a
sudden I had the headache like I have
never in my life experienced. On a scale
from 1-10 it was a 50. I must have gotton
up from the table and passed out cold. I
don't remember that but I got back up with
the pain and went outside to hang some
wash. By then I was throwing up
horrificly. We call 911 and the ER did a
CT scan of my brain to find that I had
bursted a blood vessel and was having a
brain hemorage. I was in ICU for 7 days.
Thank goodness the bleeding stopped by
itself. To make a long story short, I had
a stroke! A stroke that has two endings.
You either end up a vegetable or you die.
I am a very lucky person to still be
around. My point in this, is that today
(Thanksgiving Day) I have to go over to my
mom and sister for lunch. I am already
having a major panic attack thinking about
it. BTW: I did finally move out. But, I am
so scared about being there on the same
day that tragic event happened. I will
never forgive her for that. Now you think
for one moment that I am going to enjoy my
2007 Thanksgiving dinner. Think again. I
am taking one Klonopin with my morning
meds as usual and then taking a Xanex
before I leave the house.
Happy Thankgiving everyone. Hope yours is
going to be better then mine.
Carrie
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Mike East Texas
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a Movie. Posted: 11-22-07 04:21am
I don't remember the name. It was a
comedy. I think it had Diane Keeten in it.
It was about a family holiday get
together where everybody hated each other
but would put on their phony acts. I
Think it was Diane Keeten showed up drunk,
and tried to stay that way trough out the
party. I think it was something like
holiday reunion. Maybe you just need to
take plenty of holiday cheer with ya. You
know the kind that I mean. Just for the
holiday of course.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 11-22-07 07:36am
I am going for my mother's sake. She has
mid to end stage lung cancer and I never
know when this will be her last holiday.
If not for her, I would rather spend it
alone watching the Macy Day parade like it
did as a kid growing up in Manhattan for
18 years.
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Mike East Texas
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Humbled Mike Posted: 11-26-07 21:11pm
I went to Wal-Mart early this morning. I
found everything chearful. I heard
christmas music playing. I looked at the
toys, the lights, the goodies. I was
thinking how nice everything was. I was
thinking,"The holidays won't bother me one
bit. Heck, I have missed dozens of
holidays". The it hit me. It was like a
punch in the gut. I had to sit for a bit.
Then, I went out to my pick-up. The
problem wasn't missing these holidays. It
was missing most of the holidays in my
life. It was all the lonelyness I have
ever experinced on all the other missed
holidays combined. The realization of a
life time of unhappiness. The memory of
15yrs ago, I had a bottle of vodka for
Christmas cheer, while my family was
elsewhere celebrating. I realized that I
have always been someone else's slave, and
the slavery will continue. I sorry folks.
This is BAD! (There is no emoticon that
can convey the level of my feeling)
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Mike Posted: 11-26-07 21:22pm
I am so sorry that everything you look at
or hear or smell or taste, has a negitive
outcome to it. I wish you were able to be
more positive. I think you would be able
to achieve more if you could find a little
bit of positive in you life. I know, that
is asking way to much. But, I can still
think it can't I?
Carrie
P.S. My Thanksgiving Day was far from a
comedy.
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Mike East Texas
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Advice Posted: 11-26-07 21:47pm
You didn't take the advice of showing up
drunk, and staying that way till it was
over.
Now, I can't wait till this job is over.
So, I can get drunk, and stay drunk 'till
I go back to work again. The Big whisky
bottle in the motel room, is my positive
fantasy. I don't drink. But, it feels
like it's high time to start. I really
wouldn't take much to snoker me, nowdays.
I probably no longer need the big bottle.
The medium bottle would probably over
kill,(no threats intended, just a figure
of speach for being more than adiquate).
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 11-26-07 22:37pm
I don't drink Mike. On way to many
medications. Or I would be enjoying my red
wine. Not Mad Dog either! Or a nice glass
of asti would even be better.
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Mike East Texas
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Holiday Cheer Posted: 11-27-07 00:15am
I don't drink either. But, the sounding
more like a positive experience, all the
time.
I take meds too. I take 4 for my
arthritis. I take 4 for my heart. I take
two for my T2 diabetes. I take 1 for my
blood pressure. I take 1 for my thyroid
and 20mg Lexapro for depression.
Right now! I think a good, big, bottle of
Jim Beam could out perform all that junk.
Brave ulysses, hears the sirens call. I
have too much of a cursid work ethic to do
that while I am here at work. Maybe, I'll
feel different, when my days off come
around.
No I can't! I'll be too busy catching up
on personal business to do that. I am so
cursed, I can't even curse myself.
