Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Help? Posted: 04-15-04 06:59am
Hey everyone. As some of u might know,
ive struggled with an e/d for a few years.
Only the last 2 years were serious tho
(both anorexia and bulimia) anyhow..
When I found out I was pregnant I was more
so dealing with bulimia. .Well I quit as
soon as I found out, minus a few mistakes
but only like 4 times in the beggining.
Anyhow. .The past week or 2 ive been
havin a hard time.. I havent thrown up
or anything. .But I feel awful and I am
so paranoid about gaining tooo much and I
get really upset if I eat something 'bad'
.. I cried about it on easter (sounds
like a baby, I know) but its just so hard
for me and I feel huge.. Its hard goin
from havin an e/d and bein tiny to all the
sudden gettin preg and gaining no matter
what u eat. .I feel like I lost control
tho, even if I say 'ok I wont eat this
today (like candy) then I do anyhow. .
. Yesterday, b4 bed I ate a whole bunch
of bad stuff, this doesnt happen very much
anymore, but its my ttypical old eating
disorder behavior where I would binge and
then purge it b4 sleep.. (sorry if u
think its gross but some may understand).
. Well I went in to the bathroom. .To
throw up. .And I just sat in there and
cried.. Thankfully ididnt do it, I just
dont wanna get started for my babys sake
not my own... But I just feel like im
slipping, and now ifeel like im once again
becoming obsessed about what I eat, and
worrying too much about eating too much.
What do u think I should do? My mom
suggested I start seein a councler
again..But at the same time.. I wont let
myself get bad or anything cuz of the
baby. .But ijust feel bad myself.
Thanks, sorry so long.
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Scarf
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Feb 2004 Posts: 1062 Location: Ontario, Canada
Posted: 04-15-04 07:12am
Hey hun,
i dont know much about eating disorders so
im not sure if my advice will help at all.
Im glad that your old habbits havent
picked up for the babies sake and for your
own. Its a dangerous disease...But you
know that. You could go back to
counscelling (sp?) even if you're not
throwing up. It can help you mentally
deal with this. Another suggestion could
be going to a nutritionist (sp?). I know
it sounds weird..Just hear me out.
Alright, you can see a nutrionist and get
all the information you need about healthy
foods etc and than get him/her to help you
make meal plans. Treat these meal plans
sort of as a strict diet (although its not
dieting at all..) if you eat only whats on
the plans, it should stop you from giving
in to junk foods etc. And if you want, on
the meal plans add enough food on it until
you think "gosh, I dont think id be able
to eat all that!" and just eat what you
can. It should help you feel good about
yourself. The quantity of which you eat
isnt linked too much to weight gain as the
quality (which is fats, sugar, etc.) each
meal plan should have: breakfast, snack,
lunch, snack, dinner, snack. Follow the
food guide with the recommended amount of
dairy, fruits & veggies, meats &
alternative, grain, and other. If you
want, I can help you. Im in hospitality
class and we've worked on food guides,
etc. I hope this helps..Even a little.
Good luck and much love,
shannon xoxox
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HomecomingQueen2003
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Dec 2003 Posts: 936 Location: Phoenix, AZ
Posted: 04-15-04 07:14am
Kari I know you are feeling very
vulnerable right now. You made such a
huge step today by stopping yourself. You
just need to keep that mind set that you
are going to gain no matter if you eat or
not, so you might as well eat for your
baby boy! Keep up with a regular exercise
routine. You are eating very healthy, and
pregnancy cravings are going to be a
little over powering sometimes to resist.
However if you find yourself wanting a
chocolate shake, try a banana strawberry
instead and if that doesn’t help, then
have a bit of chocolate! You have made it
thus far with a huge struggle but very
little slipping. Your son is very lucky
that you got sooo strong so fast! That
just shows that you can do anything you
set your mind to! Don’t forget what you
are fighting for, not for yourself, but
for your son. I know he means the world
to you, so just remind yourself of that
everyday.
Megan
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bellax0femmina
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Apr 2004 Posts: 823 Location: New Jersey
Posted: 04-15-04 07:20am
Aw kari, I totally understand. I
struggled with anorexia for awhile and
would not have been as strong as you ..
To quit so fast. You know what I think
would help? Putting some of your
ultrasound pics in the bathroom, that way
youre reminded of why you stopped in the
first place. Your baby is lucky to have
such a strong mom! Good luck hun and stay
strong!!
<3
gaby
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 04-15-04 07:29am
Last edited by insurancegirl on 10-18-04 10:32am; edited 1 time in total
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 04-15-04 07:31am
Hey girls thank you so much for replying
it really means alot. . I am going to
try to stick to a healthy meal plan like
idid when I was released from the
hospital. . If I dont feel like I can
cope with this without stressing myself to
death im going to talk to a eating
therapist again. I have a docs appt
tomorrow for the baby so I might mention
it to him and see what he thinks. Thanks
everyone!
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kitty_55
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Aug 2003 Posts: 1473 Location: Canada
Posted: 04-15-04 08:06am
Kari dont think ur getting huge!! Ur
preggy u cant be skinney while ur preggy!
I think eat good all week than have one
day when u can eat whatever u want!! I
have never had an e/d b4 but I do sturrgle
with my weight..I feel like im so fat but
im not I have such a werid body shape
thats why and plus I am only 4"11 if I was
taller I would be skinney...
Kari,
i don't have much expierence with this
type of thing. None of my close friends
ever really had a e/d. All I can say is
that you have no choice but to remember.
What you eat, you eat for your child. You
have to eat. You have no choice.... Keep
being strong. You can do it. I know you
can!
Love,
chanda
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BbyBlu0602
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Feb 2004 Posts: 822 Location: Virginia
Posted: 04-15-04 12:05pm
I know how you feel kari, and i'm here for
ya if you wanna talk. I wouldn't worry
about what you're eating right now too
much, because that little baby in your
tummy is the most important thing in your
life and will be no matter what you eat or
how you look. Once that baby is born, it
will be all you care about. It's like an
overwhelming love. Don't feel bad about
gaining wait, you're supposed to when
you're pregnant . There's no way
to stop it. I actually used my pregnancy
as an excuse to eat as much as I wanted of
whatever I wanted! Lol. It was
good!!!
. There's no way
to stop it. I actually used my pregnancy
as an excuse to eat as much as I wanted of
whatever I wanted! Lol. It was
good!!!
