It's Piling Up And Piling On. Posted: 12-04-07 17:41pm
I'm 19, I haven't started any new
anti-depressants after effexor even though
I was supposed to. It just kind of
dwindled. I didn't think I would need it
because I was doing so well.
Lately however, I'm feeling so put down. I
have two jobs and I have a portfolio to
hand in around the end of December for a
program at a college I've applied to. It's
so hard to get up in the morning. I feel
so pressured. I've started to cry when I'm
at home.
The main issue I guess is that I haven't
started my period yet. It's really
affecting me. I tell myself that it's
because of stress or the sudden drop in
temperature. But at the back of my mind I
tell myself I might be pregnant. Sometimes
I tell myself that I'm most likely
pregnant. But I've been using birth
control, I have been religious about
taking my pills and my boyfriend and I
always use a condom. Always.
It's like...A .1 percent chance of
pregnancy even after all that. HOW THE
HECK can I get into that percentage. I
feel so helpless. I feel so pathetic
crying in front of the computer. Trying to
tell myself that what I'm going through is
just being blown out of proportion. I'm
trying to keep myself grounded.
I've told my mom about my period not
coming, how it's been a week and 3 days.
She doesn't seem that concerned...She just
says "i wouldn't wait, I'd get it checked
out" and then leaves the room. Who do I
turn to? My boyfriend is there for me...He
has told me so. I told him about my period
not coming. I can tell in his voice that
he doesn't know what to do. Hell, I don't
know what to do. I've made an appointment
with my doctor this friday at 2pm and that
seems so far away. I still feel like I'm
going through this all by myself. I catch
myself thinking about it so much. What
would happen if I really was pregnant.
What the hell would I do!? I'm ruining my
boyfriend's life. Yes, it takes two to get
pregnant but I feel like...I don't know.
He's got a project in Winnipeg that he's
probably going to start this winter. 4
days a week maybe more. What will his
parents think of me? Ruining his career
opportunities. What will people think!? I
don't think I can do it. I'm doing it
scared. I'm so so scared, people. I'm
ruining my own life. This depression
doesn't help.
I dont' even know if I'm pregnant or not.
This is all just blowing up in my face. I
can't. I'm so alone. I don't know what
else to do.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 12-04-07 17:57pm
Yes, stress will stop your period.
Sometimes skip one altogether. My advice
is to keep yourself calm and don't get
yourself all upset over seomthing that may
not be.
As far as your depression goes, well only
you can help that. Do some meditation when
you are home. Go to a safe place, turn
down the lights and relax and listen to
some soothing music. Think of good things
like moutains, streams, a nice summer rain
etc. You will then realize what benefit
you can get out of yoga or meditation. It
really is a great thing.
I wish you the best and wait about two
weeks and take a pregnancy test. Or a
little longer perhaps.
Carrie
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SmartyShirt
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Posted: 12-04-07 20:17pm
remember gurl the best way to provet
period and pregnancy in obstenense
peace and represent
s.s.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 12-04-07 22:23pm
Oh honey.
If you're a week past your period you can
take a test. I'd do it now just so you
know what you are up against.
Let us know how it turns out.
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JackJill
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Posted: 12-06-07 20:16pm
Smarty, I'm well aware of that fact.
And he came over tonight and we talked a
bit about it. We're both nervous. He's
hiding it well though but his hands give
him away. They're all clammy. I'm sick I'm
so nervous.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 12-07-07 13:32pm
Take a test! The sooner you take it, the
sooner you'll be able to do something
about it. And hey, you already know this-
chances are, you're not pregnant! It's
just stress or something!!
And maybe start the conversation about
what you would plan to do if the test
comes back positive- keep the baby,
abortion, adoption.... It's a good thing
to know before you are flooded with the
emotions.
This is a really hard talk to have, too.
Best of luck.
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JackJill
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Posted: 12-07-07 15:23pm
I had my test today with the docotor.
She asked me what I was hoping for. I said
that I wasn't pregnant. They got me to pee
in a cup and then the assistant came in
and dipped a stick into my pee cup. A line
showed up in a couple seconds and then she
left me to stare at it. It was one
vertical line. I tried to think of what it
might mean. If I looked at it vertically
then it meant negative and my heart
soared. but she had placed it
horizontally. And then I wondered why it
had to be so difficult to figure out. So
then I started to think about what would
happen if I was pregnant....and then
everything kind of went fuzzy.
My doctor came in and looked at me and my
wet eyes and then the test and she said
"well it looks here like you're not
pregnant" -
And I burst into tears.
I felt so relieved and I gave her the gist
about the stress and she said she
understood. Amid the sniffles she told me
about how I was going to get soem
bloodwork done to A) make sure I'm not
pregnant, and B) Make sure my hormones are
okay because my last period (before the
skipped one) lasted two weeks and was
nothing but spotting.
She told me that if there was something
she would call me within 1-2 days. If I
didn't hear anything from her, then it was
good news.
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JackJill
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Hooray Posted: 12-10-07 13:39pm
Thanks for the support Georgia and co.
Things are starting to slow down now. I'm
feeling better.
*hug*
