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Life Is... (vent Vent Vent) Posted: 12-31-07 17:07pm
bleh!!
first off my period is still messed up, i
spotted for a week and a half and havnt
had anything for like a week, i took a hpt
(one of the dollar store ones) just to be
sure and it was negetive, i hate this, i
havent spotted in like 5 years until now,
the only time it happened was early on
when my body was still getting use to it,
i have no idea what is going on
second, my family is driving me insane, my
mum finally moved out while we were gone,
and she took a whole bunch of stuff, one
of the tables from my room, almost all our
movies, all our nintendo systems, some
games, and a bunch of other things, and to
top it all off now she acts like its such
an inconviniance to come over and see val,
she acts like im such a horrible person
and i only do what i want without thinking
of anyone else when all i do is think
about her feelings and what she wants, i
dont say anything about any of the
obnoxious things she does because i dont
want to hurt her feelings, and my brother
is here for a month before he goes to
japan for at least 3 years and he can be
super nice but he still thinks im the
little kid i use to be when im not
third, vals been having problems, she is
getting very clingy and i dont know how to
stop that, she doesnt have her meds right
now so her reflux is getting really bad,
she keeps trying to walk but she cant yet
so shes always hurting herself, trevor has
his bad days like always
my life feels like it is spinning out of
control, i feel like im suffacating
bleh i just dont know what to do
sorry i know this probably doesnt mean
anything to anyone, and its ok, i just
needed to get it out
~alicia~
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jessesgirl
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Posted: 12-31-07 17:12pm
Sorry to hear that things are crappy right
now. I completely understand what you're
saying about Val. Ava's always been very,
very clingy and right now it's 100 times
worse. It's been worse for about a month
now. She's always on me or holding my
leg. She never wants to watch tv or play
by herself. She doesn't want her dad when
I'm around. It's always momma, momma,
momma and sometimes I just want to scream.
It's flattering, but I'm sick of it. I
wish I had just a 10 minute break a day
while she's awake that she'd do her own
thing.
I know how you feel.
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O0o0h_baby
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Joined: 12 Dec 2007 Posts: 674 Location: Northern California,
Posted: 12-31-07 17:54pm
I think everyone goes through their own
versions of these things, some days my
daughter is so far up my butt I dont know
where I end and she begins and I love my
kids more than anything but some days it
makes me want to close my head in a door.
My mother and I have issues also, not the
same as yours, but issues still. I'm a
different type of mother than she was, or
she thinks so anyway, and in her head that
makes me wrong. I cant change that, when I
lived across the street from her, it was
constant fighting about what she thought I
should be doing. Now we live about 20
miles apart and its way better, we talk on
the phone a few times a week, and its
nice.
Things can always get worse, I tell myself
all the time that it will never be worse
(god forbid) than the night my home burned
down, but as sure as they can get worse,
they ALWAYS get better ^^
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Idony
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Posted: 12-31-07 17:54pm
ugh so you mean this could last for a long
while man that sucks bleh
~alicia~
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O0o0h_baby
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Joined: 12 Dec 2007 Posts: 674 Location: Northern California,
Posted: 12-31-07 18:06pm
This is gonna sound so gay /sigh lol but
life is a long road full of ups and downs.
Here's what my dad used to tell me, and it
still makes me giggle O.O As you were
sliding down the banister of life,
remember this as the time you got the
splinter in your ar$e.
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Idony
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Posted: 12-31-07 18:15pm
thanks, i know it can always get worse,
but it just seems like things are never
gonna get better, i mean i know they will,
they have to right? its just how it seems
right now
~alicia~
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O0o0h_baby
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Joined: 12 Dec 2007 Posts: 674 Location: Northern California,
Posted: 12-31-07 18:29pm
Oh do I understand, I feel that way alot
myself, I guess its just part of growing
up, and i'm still going through it at 29.
When I am especially down, I try and list
the things I am thankful for, it's clique
but it makes me feel better.
I'll share this with you, and everyone
else who reads this now. I've said before
that i've taken anti depressants for most
of my life. I don't function without them,
it goes in a downward sprial. I have a
disorder that makes me think that the
answer to any problem, is to kill
yourself. I do know how stupid this
sounds, and for a long time i've been VERY
ashamed of it, I'm learning to get over
that. Very simple things like not liking
how my hair looked could set this off, and
in saying it outloud I know that its
totally stupid, but I cant help how my
mind processes things.
Everyday that we live, and breathe, and
wake up in the morning, everytime we feel
loved by our children or or family or
friends is a reason to be happy. Life is
beautiful. Smile even if you don't want to
once in a while.
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yellow ribbon
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Joined: 07 Dec 2005 Posts: 5554 Location: FL
Posted: 12-31-07 20:22pm
geez your ma is B Alicia. Yd she take your
nintendoes n stuff? I would so go get it
but id bet she hawked it. you really gotta
stand your ground with her or shes always
gunna treat you poorly. you guys really
just need to PCS far away from her.
as far as Val goes, get use to it Liam
will b 2 in March n he whines all the time
for me to hold him. he weighs at least 26
lbs. yesterday n target he was just
following me around screaming mama while
ppl looked at me funny.
im here to listen but i cant say ill be
nice lol your mom angers me
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jessesgirl
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Posted: 12-31-07 21:41pm
O0o0h_baby
wrote:
Oh do I understand, I feel
that way alot myself, I guess its just
part of growing up, and i'm still going
through it at 29. When I am especially
down, I try and list the things I am
thankful for, it's clique but it makes me
feel better.
I'll share this with you, and everyone
else who reads this now. I've said before
that i've taken anti depressants for most
of my life. I don't function without them,
it goes in a downward sprial. I have a
disorder that makes me think that the
answer to any problem, is to kill
yourself. I do know how stupid this
sounds, and for a long time i've been VERY
ashamed of it, I'm learning to get over
that. Very simple things like not liking
how my hair looked could set this off, and
in saying it outloud I know that its
totally stupid, but I cant help how my
mind processes things.
Everyday that we live, and breathe, and
wake up in the morning, everytime we feel
loved by our children or or family or
friends is a reason to be happy. Life is
beautiful. Smile even if you don't want to
once in a
while.
This made me cry. I've been going through
alot with Ava and I've been on the verge
of breaking down all day.
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Idony
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Posted: 12-31-07 22:07pm
wow baby (sorry i dont know your name yet
it really takes me forever) that sounds
really rough, im sorta like that but its
just from my childhood, its not a
condition or anything
dani, she took my nintendos because
apparently she needs them more and my
brother wanted them, apperently he uses
them and i dont (i dont use them because i
dont have time to hook them up and no one
will help me out) i would love to leave
but she would probably follow, she doesnt
do well on her own, and i would feel bad
cause i would have abandoned her....oh
geez i hope her clingyness doesnt last
that long, im hopeing its just because
shes not use to trevor yet, i can dream
cant i lol
