arcadia
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Can't Do It Anymore.
Posted: 01-07-08 17:57pm
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Hey guys.
I just wanted to apologive for not being
around much.
Things have been extremely hard for me
lately.
I don't really want to talk about it.
& Contrary to popular belief, I am
not
drinking too much or turning to substance
abuse.
I'm so extremely depressed.
I don't want to eat, I don't want to get
up
in the morning, yet I don't want to
sleep.
I can't concentrate on anything at all.
I don't want to do anything at all.
I've been holding it together for Gabe,
because I love him so much more than
anything.
But even staying strong for him is so
hard, now.
I just keep thinking about how I don't
want to live, anymore.
My anxiety is through the roof.
I literally have bitten a hole in my lip.
& Keep biting & biting at it.
I'm in a constant state of paranoia.
It's just gotten really out of hand.
But, I'm getting help.
I've been putting off doing this for
years.
But I've made an appointment.
Hopefully soon I can feel & act like
myself again.
Something I haven't been able to do since
I was probably... about 13.
I just wanted to say I love you guys.
Thanks for always being here for me.
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O0o0h_baby
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Dec 2007
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Location: Northern California,
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:00pm
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I'm so sorry you're going through this. I
know exactly how this feels, I am this way
myself if I don't take my medication for
depression. See the Dr. and get help, it
can be so much better.
~ Misty
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AyaMiyaki
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:01pm
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Krissy 
I'm so glad you're getting help. You've
been through a lot, and there's only so
much a person can handle on their own.
Gabe is lucky to have such a strong
mother, but he needs a mother who's OKAY,
not one who's falling apart trying to be a
rock for him. It's such a great thing that
you're turning to professionals.
You know we're here for you. You'll be
okay, hon.
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Eyes Wide Shut
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Joined: 04 Jan 2006
Posts: 7893
Location: *UPTOWN*NEW ORLEANS*, La
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:01pm
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OH man Krissy!!!
Hopefully the person you see is helpful to
you!!!
I miss you so much!!!
Kiss Gabe for me & Oni & the baby
in the belly!!
Sarah
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arcadia
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:02pm
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Thanks, Laura.
It was really hard for me to type this
& hit submit.
I have a real problem with admitting that
I truly need help.
But I'm going to get it, finally.
I've been pretending to be okay.
But I'm not.
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arcadia
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:03pm
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& Thank you, Sarah. I'll give him a
kiss.
Give Oni a snuggle & pat your bebe
belly for meh.
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HcoBrunette06
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:05pm
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Kristina, I love you so much. You're one
of my BEST friends and I think you're the
most amazing, strong, caring person/mother
in the world. No matter what you do, I'm
here for you! I'm glad you're getting
help, itll make you feel like a better
mommy & you need to feel like the
great person that you are.
I love you babe!
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arcadia
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:54pm
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Thank you, Terra. I love you so very
much.
You always know how to make me smile.
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tinkinpink84
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Posted: 01-07-08 18:55pm
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Aww im so sorry your going through this,
ive been there done that, i was miserable
for a long time, and it wasnt until i got
help for my eating disorder that i got
help for my depresion as well. and it all
really helps, talking and medication if
you need it. SOo glad u were able to ype
this out and hit submit! We are al here
for you, u can always pm me or message me
on myspace if u ever need to talk, ive
sorta been ther done that and i prob
wouldnt be here today if it werent for my
kids. You just gota stay strong for gabe
nd get he help you need and deserve
:hugs::
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moldedbymercy88
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
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Posted: 01-07-08 19:01pm
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I'm so sorry you going through this. My
prayers are with you. I'm glad you are
seeking help. I hope you find the right
person to help you. You deserve to be
happy, and I honestly believe you will be
soon. Until then, we will all help you
through this. 
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young Girl
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Joined: 21 Jun 2007
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Location: everythings better in, texas USA
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Posted: 01-07-08 19:46pm
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hey krissy! seriously youre amazeing  dont ever
forget that ok
youve got talent
your beatuiful
you have a wonderful son
i know its hard to actually take the step
to get help. but after you start to feel
better you will be glad you did. listen to
your doctor and try to get as much support
as you can from family and friends. we
sure do all support you 100% whatever may
happen. even though you dont want to do
things sometimes you have to. because its
the right thing to do
im proud of
you
and you know im here ANYTIME
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Sandbox Party
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Joined: 25 Jul 2006
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Posted: 01-07-08 19:57pm
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Krissy.. theres nothing i can say that the
other girls havent.
I'm beyond proud of you for holding it
together for Gabe, but girl start holding
it together for yourself.. you are totally
worth it!
The next few weeks are gunna be hard but
they WILL get better i PROMISE.
and you know im like, an hour and a half
away.. just call me and we'll do lunch,
play date... girls day out. ^_^
I luff you Krissy-poop.
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-Tanya-
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Posted: 01-07-08 20:29pm
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Krissy we all love you. You have a hard
life so feeling like this isn't
unexpected. I'm sorry things aren't how
you would like them to be, and I'm really
really proud of you for getting help.
You can always always talk to us. Love
you pal!
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Zanny
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Posted: 01-07-08 21:02pm
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Oh Krissy I'm so sorry you're feeling like
this. I love you & we'll always be
here for you whenever you need to talk.
Good on you for getting help.. Gabe needs
his mummy to be happy & healthy! I'm
proud of you for taking such a big step
towards feeling better =)
Big hugs hun <3
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arcadia
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Posted: 01-07-08 21:38pm
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Thank you guys so much, seriously.
All your words have made me feel a lot
better.
& Sandy, all I can do for now is do it
for Gabe..
Because I really don't feel like I'm worth
anything.
That's one reason I've gotta get help.
It'll be disasterous if I continue like
this.
I feel like I deserve any horrible thing
to happen to me.
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yellow ribbon
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Joined: 07 Dec 2005
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Location: FL
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Posted: 01-07-08 22:10pm
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Krissy i hope you can get the help you
need to be as happy as you deserve! i dont
doubt youve been having a hard time cuz
from just the small stuff youve told us
theres enough to break a person. bug hugs
to you sweetie!
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jessesgirl
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Posted: 01-07-08 22:12pm
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I hope you get the help you need.
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kaerbear
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Joined: 10 Apr 2007
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Posted: 01-07-08 22:39pm
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it takes wisdom to realise when you need
help and courage to seek it out. i hope
you find what you need and feel better
soon.
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Becky
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Posted: 01-08-08 10:26am
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I don't really know what to say Krissy. I
can only say that I know what it feels
like to be down. I am suffering from it
myself.
Hopefully things will look up for you
soon. Thinking of you hun
~~HUGS~~
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rosejackson
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Posted: 01-08-08 15:12pm
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i'm so sorry you're going through this. i
hope you can get the help you need to be
yourself again
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