Hollyberries
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Joined: 20 Jun 2007
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Location: Lead, sd usa
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Fyi
Posted: 01-08-08 21:17pm
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I just wanted to post that i'm trying to
get around to posting about why i left, a
and about my depression. I can't seem to
get a free min. I'll try and get around to
it tonight, or tomorrow. But for anyone
that gives a poop I'm ok 
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CaNdItAs CrAzY LaNd
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Location: like anyone cares, phhht
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Posted: 01-08-08 21:18pm
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i hope your getting help hun if you need
anything pm me ok and yes we care
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Eyes Wide Shut
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Jan 2006
Posts: 7892
Location: *UPTOWN*NEW ORLEANS*, La
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Posted: 01-08-08 21:19pm
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This post pretty much sums it up for us!!
PPD is no joke. We were all just worried
about you!!
Sarah
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fairytale007
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Jul 2007
Posts: 1379
Location: Denver, CO USA
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Posted: 01-08-08 21:19pm
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Of course we all care! Hope everything is
going okay with you.
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tdr
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Joined: 05 Oct 2006
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Location: Somewhere else...not here., PA USA
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Posted: 01-08-08 21:21pm
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Holly, we were all so freakin worried when
you left. It was honestly out of the blue
and I'm sure I'm not the only one it
scared.
PM me any time, for anything.
And for the record, I'm glad you're okay.
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OctoberBaby06
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Dec 2006
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Location: , US
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Posted: 01-08-08 21:56pm
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I'm glad you're okay! We were all pretty
worried!
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yellow ribbon
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Dec 2005
Posts: 5554
Location: FL
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Posted: 01-08-08 22:55pm
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i understand someone else told me, i think
sandy but my prego brain cant remember.
Holly i love you ok?! dont leave me
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Sandbox Party
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jul 2006
Posts: 7276
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Posted: 01-08-08 23:31pm
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I love me some
Holly.
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monkeygirl22
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Posted: 01-09-08 00:55am
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We're all here for you if you need
anything.
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rosejackson
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Posted: 01-09-08 07:38am
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i'm glad you're okay. i hope you're
getting the help you need
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pixma
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Aug 2005
Posts: 1015
Location: NSW Australia
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Posted: 01-09-08 08:13am
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i hope everything works out for you
holly!!
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mamaTT
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jan 2007
Posts: 2009
Location: Illinois, USA
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Posted: 01-09-08 09:41am
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I hope you are feeling better. We miss
you!
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Bridget
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Posted: 01-09-08 09:49am
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i give a poop! your abrupt departure
worried and confused a lot of us!
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Hollyberries
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jun 2007
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Location: Lead, sd usa
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Posted: 01-09-08 10:39am
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Thank you ladies. This does bring a smile
to my sad face 
I just want to start by saying i don't
think i have PPD. But i don't know. I
don't know much about it to be honest with
you. But i am quite depressed. It has
gotten a bit better, but i felt a bit left
out, or alone when i posted my post about
my fiance, and taking Sophia to the
babysitters. Only 2 people responded, and
i really needed someone to talk to, or
just respond, and no one did. I felt
awful. And maybe i'm being selfish, or
dumb, but i'm sorry. I honestly don't have
any friends, or friends here in my town.
My nearest friend is 45 mins away, and
with not having much money for gas, and
traveling with a newborn it's just not
something i can do right now. She has 3
kids of her own so it's hard for her too.
So i come here for someone to talk to, and
didn't have it. I'm sorry again.
But to explain my depression. Bills and
money like everyone else. All these bills,
and no money.. This last week it's been
disconnect notices, and nagging phone
calls. Sometimes one after another. I just
couldn't bring myself to go right back to
work. I thought we would be ok, but turns
out we're not. These suckers just don't
understand. But my fiance got his W-2 so
we will be getting his return sometime
next week. We did it fast return so i
could pay some of this sh*t so i can get
this guys off my back. So that part WILL
get better. Thank god.
I was worried about my moms test she had
yesterday. I posted about it a while back.
About the TB.. Well turns out she does
have a spot on her lung, but it's so small
that they can't tell what it is, or if
it's something to worry about. The doctor
suggested to get a follow up in 3-6 months
to see if it grows, or if they need to
take a sample of it. So sorta good news
there, but still have to wait 3-6 months
to find out. I really didn't know if i
could handle the worst with that situation
right now. That would have probable took
me over the edge.
It's almost making physically ill to think
that i have to go back to work tomorrow,
and take Sophia to the babysitters. I've
been crying all morning. I hate it so
much. If i only knew we would have his
income tax back this soon i could have
taken a extra couple weeks, or not month.
I don't wanna go back. I almost want to
just quit so i don't have to go in. And go
look for another job in 2 or 3 weeks. You
see WAY to much of the shaken baby on tv,
news, or internet, and i would never be
able to live with myself if something like
that happened to Sophia. Chaynne said she
would watch her at all times. I know she
will take care of her little sister. And
tell me if something is happening there
that shouldn't. But my fiance has day
shifts for the next month so that will
help a bit. He will pick her up at around
6-7 so they will only be there for 3 or 4
hours at the most.
A lot of this has brought back my anxiety,
and panic attacks in full force. They are
horrible. I need to be seen for that if
anything. But the pills are like 80$ for
20. Not even a full month. I don't know if
we can handle that. But i think i will
tell her at my 6 week check up. I go in
next week i think.
And for the last part...........i'm a
freaking health question and started
smoking. I only have 3 a day, but it's
chilled me out when i get to stressed, or
frustrated. It would have been a year with
out smoking on the 29th of dec for me. But
i'm stupid....*sigh*...
Well there it is. I'm back. But i just
needed to get that off my chest. I've been
trying hard to explain, but i have never
had time. I hope no one hates me, and i'm
sorry for just leaving like that. I love
you guys. You make my life a lot better!
 
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browngirl
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Oct 2007
Posts: 189
Location: Oklahoma City, Ok USA
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Posted: 01-09-08 10:46am
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Im sorry that things are so hard.
I know how you feel about the money thing.
I have started making DH not spend money
on himself so that we have some in savings
when baby comes because I am already
stressing about it at 12 weeks pregnant.
I hope everything gets better for you
soon.
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Eyes Wide Shut
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Jan 2006
Posts: 7892
Location: *UPTOWN*NEW ORLEANS*, La
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Posted: 01-09-08 10:52am
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Oh Holly, I'm sooo sorry!!! I think, when
it comes to posts, a lot of people won't
post if they don't feel they have
something in common with it, ya know?
It's hard to feel unwanted and unloved,
ESP when you NEED people to talk/vent to!!
I'm so sorry that we made you feel this
way!!!!
When it comes to money, man, I think we
ALL know what you're struggling with!! I
know I do! Esp this month!!
Thank GOD Baron gets paid this week, cuz I
don't know WHAT we'd do!!
I can TOTALLY relate to you on that
issue!!
It's insane how uncaring the bill
collectors can be! And they can call you
at allll hours of the night!!! I had that
happen to me when I didn't get my
Dillard's bill a couple of months ago! And
I don't answer the phone if I don't
recognize the number. And of course, they
don't leave a message, they just call
& call & call & call!!!
I hope things start to look up for you!!
It can be really hard to deal with ANY
kind of stress right after having a baby.
The smallest things can seem like a
mountain. But we've all been THERE too!!
You can always PM me if you need to chat
about ANYTHING!!
Sarah
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Bridget
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Posted: 01-09-08 10:56am
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of course nobody hates you! i'm so sorry
you're feeling so down. do you have
insurance? i'm just wondering why the meds
would be so expensive. you could mention
that to your doctor and they might be able
to hook you up with some samples for the
time being. a long time ago i was broke
and my doctor gave me a 2 month supply of
meds for free, it was just sample packs.
as for money, i hear you. we had to unplug
our phone for 2 weeks because we were
literally getting 30 calls a day, they
would start at 7am and call right up until
10pm. it was stressful and we had no money
to give them anyway, so we just left the
phone unplugged. money sucks and that's
all there is to it. i hope you'll get back
on top with the tax return. we had to take
a loan out of nick's 401k and everything
seems so much better now that that's been
taken care of. money is stressful! you'll
probably feel loads better once you get
some of those bills taken care of. it's so
easy to fall behind, and so hard to get
back on top.
that's so sweet that chyanne will be
looking out for her baby sister. i'm sure
they'll be fine with the sitter, but i
understand why you're upset. at least
they'll only be there for a few hours.
i'll be thinking of your mom and hoping
for the best! so at the follow up if the
spot hasn't grown are they just going to
assume it's nothing?
i hope you'll stick around. we really were
concerned when you left. we're always here
for you and it's good to have a place to
vent!
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Hollyberries
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Location: Lead, sd usa
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Posted: 01-09-08 11:14am
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i'll be thinking of your mom and hoping
for the best! so at the follow up if the
spot hasn't grown are they just going to
assume it's nothing?
I guess so lol. I'm not sure. She said
that sometimes trauma can cause these
things. And she's gone through a lot of
that with my dad many years ago. So we'll
just wait and see.
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Sandbox Party
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jul 2006
Posts: 7276
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Posted: 01-09-08 12:26pm
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thats right you better come back to
us.
mhm.
If I said you had a beautiful body would
you hold it against me?
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yellow ribbon
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Dec 2005
Posts: 5554
Location: FL
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Posted: 01-09-08 17:33pm
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what pills were you taking? I wonder if
they have a generic brand on that walmart
$4 perscription thing.
Money problems can really suck. I wish
you had someone you trusted that could
watch Sophia so she wouldnt have to go to
a babysitters and cause you so much
stress.
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