depressed and need to talk Posted: 01-16-08 18:32pm
hi, im 19, and lately its been very well,
i dont want to live anymore. i dont
understand why, i have too many things
going on, my parents are deceased, and i
really have no one to go to, my family
is/are not supportive, i sometimes just
dont know what to do, i work, i go to
college, and i cant seem to pay my bills,
i sometimes wonder where i would live, if
i couldnt pay my bills. my friends i no
longer even see anymore, because all i
ever do now, is stay in my apartment by
myself all the time. everytime i go over
to my sisters house, she is always telling
me about how bad of a job i am doing, and
how i dont care about anything. i am
trying very hard, and it seems like i can
never please anyone, i am always broke, i
try to save money, but i am already behind
on bills, as i live on my own. i just dont
know what to do, my oldest sister, said
she would help me buy a new car, if i can
save some money. i am really stressed and
depressed, i need a new car badly, the one
i am driving is not safe at all, i even
try to tell her that i dont know how i am
going to be able to save money. so i go
over to my younger sisters house today,
and he starts yelling at me about how i am
not trying hard enough to save money, i
keep telling her i am trying my best to
save money but it is very hard to, she
seems to not know anything about me, she
is a home mom, who has never worked in her
life before, sometimes i just feel like
she needs more help then i do
i just dont know what to do, i have
thought about how things would be like if
i wasnt alive, i dont think i would do
something like that, but its the thoughts
that keeps haunting my mind. i know living
on my own since i was 18 can be very hard,
i have been on my own for almost 2 years
now. i have to learn things the hard way,
because i dont have parents to tell me
things like, for instance that my car
needs a inspection each year. after
getting a ticket, i learn. i hate my life,
why cant it just be normal, i grew up with
no parents, i move every other few months,
i never had steady friends, i didnt have a
normal life. i feel like i have missed out
soo much on life. i am trying so hard, and
it seems like im am heading no where, its
almost pointless for me to keep trying,
atleast that is how it feels. i dont think
i can keep living like this much longer
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MMAFighter
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Sep 2007 Posts: 359 Location: WA, USA
Posted: 01-16-08 21:09pm
Dude, that must suck. You grew up w/o ur
parents? Gosh, my parents just never
really liked me and werent' real parent
figures. You've never had steady friends?
I haven't really either, but its not as
bad 4 me cuz I dont move around all the
time, its more like I cant really connect
w/ all the rich, upper-class kids around
where I live. Ur sister doesn't
appreciate how hard you try? Gosh, that
must suck. Ppl dont appreciate me very
much either, my classmates, my swim coach,
my sister, my teachers, etc. Dude, here's
my advice, seriously, see a counselor.
Even if the counselor can't become ur
steady friend, u can at least have some
one to talk to, and u seriously need to
let all those feelings of urs out. And
also, try for what u want until ur last
breath cuz seriously, sometimes miracles
can happen. Lookin back, if i didnt
believe in the possibility of a miracle, I
probably wouldnt be here today. Hope this
helps, and hopefully my post made this
post one of the popular posts on the front
page and more ppl comment on it, lol
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gingerelizabeth
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jan 2008 Posts: 79
Posted: 01-16-08 21:22pm
hey!
it sounds like you are extremely busy. and
i dont blame you for feeling alone.
what helps me when i see no way out is
knowing that im not the only person
feeling this way, and even on your darkest
day there is always a way out.
you are a strong person for all that you
have already gone through, and at the end
of all this you will become stronger.
i lost my dad at 13 and my mom is pretty
off the wall so i have always felt alone
and misunderstood. but what you have to do
is take your past and help others who are
going through what you are and i guarantee
you will lose those thoughts.
but you might want to go speak to a
counselor just to have someone to talk to
and help explain why you are feeling the
way you are and give you tips on how to
get out
i wish you all the best and feel free to
message me if you would like.
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idntwanabhere
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Jun 2008 Posts: 1 Location: San Antonio, Texas USA
My life sux! Posted: 06-06-08 13:27pm
:S Life Sux!!! I have no family, my dad
gave up hi parental rights when i was a
little girl and my mom hates me ever since
i was born. Some say she tried to kill me
when i was 2 months old I ended up in
Galveston hospital for almost a year with
a fractured skull. She (mom) told me 2 my
face that she regretted taking me 2 the
hospital that she should have left me
there on the floor bleeding to death....I
have been abused for 31 yrs. I have been
married for 15 yrs. (since I was 18 yrs.
and i'm 33 now) I have 4 kids and my 2
older kids chose their dad over me. Got
divorced 10/23/07 and met a guy that told
me he would never hurt me... But he is
hurting me. He sits on the computer
looking at porn websites, watches porn
DVDs at work, looks at women and it makes
me feel so ugly. He goes out every night
and drinks. And he says he will go out
every night because he can!! He talked to
me about marriage and now he tells me "I
am not going to get married ever" I have
no family and no where 2 go because of
him. I got fired on 01/08/08 for stupid
reason that isnt my fault and my BF told
me 2 move in with him blah blah blah...Too
much BS
And now I feel worthless and ugly all
over again. I hate my life!!
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