hey everybody..
i was looking around for some info on
psychosis and its likes..
and came unto this forum..
seems like a lot of u guys have pretty
good experiences (compared to me,
anyway...)..
so i might as well ask for opinions..
first.. a little background info.
i dunno where to start ...
about 2 years ago, i was getting really
good grades n was on top of everything and
felt normal..
but then suddenly, the grades dropped and
all went downhill..
I told myself the grades dropped cuz I was
under stress (exams and other issues), but
they%u2019re still not cuming back up..
Like I can put the effort in to study, but
not much goes in%u2026
And also, i couldnt talk properly...
actually this has been sumthing i have had
problem as long as i can remember.. i can
never say anything that i really want.. it
always comes out in rushed sentences that
dont make much sense..
ppl have told me that and i also noticed
it get worse within the last 2 years...
another major thing i am sure i have is
the multiple personality disorder..
when im with ppl i really really know and
am comfortable with (my siblings and
parents)... i have a relaxed and open
personality ..
but when i meet sum1 new for the first
time or don%u2019t know sum1 that well.. i
switch into this other mode.. where, not
only do i stop thinking, but i cannot
speak normally.. that is i speak fast and
say things without thinking.. when they
ask something, i cannot think about it.. i
just rush and give an answer (should it
make sense or not, I cannot think..)
this also happens when im around friends
..only 1 or 2 friends that i can really
open up but even then sumtimes i get into
this rushed non-thinking sentences...
and basically everybody i talk to.. when
im nervous i jump into this mode of no
thinking about what to say AT ALL....
the weirdest thing is, i have the most
random memory losses..
i am not talking about anything serious
like not remembering what happenned or
sumthing..
but more like if I hear a word and repeat
it say, 10 times.. about 40% of the time..
i'll forget it within 5 minutes...
other than that, theres other random
things..
like social activity%u2026 I don%u2019t
like being in others company.. I always
spend time alone..
some of my friends say ask why don%u2019t
u come with us%u2026 but I jus don%u2019t
feel like going.. as when I do.. I usually
say things without thinking and make a
fool of myself%u2026
and just for information..
I have never had a therapist.. or any kind
of thing like that..
So any idea whats going on??
I think it%u2019s the starting stages of
psychosis .. but I could be wrong.. though
I could be right as well..
And sorry for making it long..
