These past few days have been really hard
Mson. Friday, my water heater in my house
had to be replaced. Water in the pan
below and rust coming from the attachment
at the top. $900.00.
Then, the men came out to remove the four
windows in my kitchen that had let in
water and caused black mold and termites
in my beautiful new home, only six years
old. They have the windows back in now.
Also, today when they were here I was out
changing the water stations and there was
this major water coming out. Called Farm
Supply water division and thank God they
can fix it.
Went into the garage and there is this
water leaking from my freezer. It appeared
the freezer had simply died. Called and
ordered a new one as painful and hard as
it will be to pay for it. But have lots
of food in the freezer. Chris and his
helper could not get power to the
freezer.
So, went down to get the mail and drove my
car back into the garage. Now the freezer
is on. Called and cancelled the new one.
On top of everything last Friday was
working in the roses and saw some black
ants on my arm. One must have stung me
because it is really red and sore and am
running a fever. I have been getting
innoculations for bee and ant stings for
two years now.
Then last night cooking some oil splashed
onto my left arm. The sting and the burn,
both on the left side, the emotional
side.
I have to look at where all this is coming
from. I have always felt Lee's new GF is
on the dark side. Please keep praying for
me Mson and Homer.
I have already hired the new manager
beginning June 1st. Right now, I did pay
him for this month and I am waiting for
him to complete work on the vineyards
which they failed to do. Also expect from
him some Tempranillo plants for the
nursery. Putting in 3,175 Tempranillo, it
is normal to have a nursery of 10% of
that. Right now I have two plants and
already need three to plant let alone what
will happen. He says No I have to pay for
them. Lee is the one who will have to pay
for his abuse of good customers let alone
someone who cared for him. Because, I no
longer want him in my sight again let
alone to trust him to take care of my
property.
I will write a letter of termination. It
is best because he puts a lot of pressure
on me to not "fire his guys, but really it
is firing him and he wants to maintain
control of my vineyards."
Thank you for your prayer Sweetheart. You
are such a dear person. See, your Mother
does love you. She must suffer greatly
for all that happened to you and at her
own hands.
Love to you Always,
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 05-20-08 22:09pm
Have you seen Homerx? I wonder what is
going on in his sexy mind.
I am sorry to hear that you have been
going through so much. You are strong
Bobbie because you cannot be tempted to
what you cannot bear. Glad you found out
you did not need a new freezer after all.
Do you believe in a spirit world where the
spirit goes? I believe in that. I hear
sometimes they do things like turn the
freezer off. Maybe it is Walter. God
bless His soul. Keep him in the picture.
He is your invisible friend Bobbie.
You told me to say it straight. I thought
about that for a few days. Hesitation is
my main problem. But now that you have
helped me identify the problem, I will
press on and soon it will not be a problem
saying exactly what I think. I am glad I
know you.
What's you horoscope again? I mean
please.
Did a full day of work today. Extra $$ to
spend tomorrow on the anniversary. It's
our third Bobbie. We are in the same boat
him and I. Imagine my Mami in Kenya
thinking of getting us to Austria where
she seems to think there is more money. I
am here to recover not to make money. If
the money comes, well and good but first I
have to take care of my health. My Mami
doesn't know that. Or she refuses to know
that. And I am not lazy. I am disabled.
And yet I work because we cannot live on
disability pension alone.
In my heart I know after I go to school, I
will get a fine job but I have to wait for
my papers before going to school. I need
a school loan. My Mami want that case
scenario here and now. She doesn't
understand that I mourned Jessy for 10
years and she doesn't comprehend that I
have been fighting immigration all this
time. I still manage to speak in schools
and work at the club
She was asking which steps have we taken.
I have ehealth forums. I have friends
there like you, Homerx (miss him) and
Hart47 and others. That to me is a step
forward. We have decluttered. Big step
forward. What did she want me to tell
her?
Gandalf the cat just jumped up on my laps
and wants to play. I used to hate her
when I was depressed. I thought she was
ugly. I hated doing her kitty litter. I
used to clean cat poo from under the sofas
when I was a child and even older. I
hated it.
For a long time the cat never sat on my
lap but when I got my temporal resident
permit, in 2007, she started jumping on
my lap as I realised she is not ugly and
that she is here for a reason. I must
have had a lot of negative energy that the
cat noticed. Then I had to think about my
husband and what that energy made him
feel. If it were not for Gandalf the cat,
I might never have learned the lesson of
how we affect others with our attitude and
thoughts.
Anyway Bobbie, you should write that
termination letter soon and send it to his
P O Box or give him mbae hand and send to
the P O Box. I don't know. When were you
planning on giving it to him? How much
notice must he get? All the best Bobbie,
very proud of you and we will survive.
I, too, believe that our spirits live on.
And, it is only the good we do in this
world that will let us leave this place
and not have any need to hang around on
this plain which honestly can be only a
fraction of what we can expect to be in
that glorious place when we are in the
presence of God and our families who love
and wait for us.
Walter so loved his dear mother. I used
to say towards the end of his life,
Grandma is here waiting for you to join
her. He said, yes he knew that was true.
It was only when Mark and I were gone to
Italy that she did come for him. To me
that is beautiful because they loved each
other so much. She was there the night
Mark was born. She always loved me
completely and unconditionally.
You belong to Canada, Mson. They have
loved you, sponsored you, supported your
health with your medications. You belong
to your beloved Canada. Austria can claim
others, but not you Mson.
Canada is your home now, my dear. You are
in Victoria? Not that impossible that
someday I can drive up to visit you and
BF. Get those gas prices down and somehow
relieve myself from the daily watering
schedule.
Lee knows of my inability to do this
watering schedule every day. No matter
how he does the math, it still comes up to
me watering 12 hours a day, six days a
week. Where does that change from now?
He just wanted the money and now I will
survive.
I am not sure your Grandpa gave the
message to your Mom, but, as I told you
before, she has gotten the message from
the Lord. Be it in a dream or through her
heart, she hears you.
Take care.
Love,
Your sister in Christ,
Bobbie
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Mson Posted: 05-20-08 22:48pm
Double Aquarius, that is my blessing.
And, I totally love cats. We had this cat
born in our garage of a feral mother.
Mark had just begun to recover from a
broken back and we tore that garage apart
until we found the baby kitten. Mark
named him Victor and he would never go to
anyone but Walter, Mark or me.
Sometimes he would jump up when I was
resting and lay upon my heart. It is also
called the solar plexis.
Even after Victor died, he came back a few
times in my dreams to lay upon my heart.
So the connection with love is very, very
strong Mson, even with the animals that we
love.
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Posted: 05-21-08 09:13am
good morning
ladies! Man o man, I slept
like a rock. i was exhausted.
Mson, camping...ug! I know it can be fun
and a lot of people enjoy it but not me. I
like to have a cabin at least with air
condition. I cant take the heat. It makes
me ill. I take blood thinners and cant
stand the heat. I am glad you had fun
though..
Bobbie, did you dump the chump? One more
week? Is that right?
I had to take my car back to the shop...it
cost 1400 bucks last week to get the air
fixed and now the right front wheel is
making noise!! damn it! this is
getting out of hand. How come when you
take a car to the shop it always comes
back with a new and different problem
shady macanicks.. ( i cant spell macanicks
)
Anyway, Mson, I am glad you made it home
safe and sound. Your mother... who
knows with her but at least you are
talking so thats good I suppose. If my
mother were to call I would not answer.
But thats a whole other issue. Im
just glad to be alive and well today,
thats all I ask. My dogs are happy and
Rick is OK and you guys are doing fine so
I am happy.
I guess I better go have something for
breakfast or some coffee or
something...glad to be here!! and glad you are
there and glad we all
have each other to lean on
Love,Homer
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Re: Mson Posted: 05-21-08 11:55am
Roberta777
wrote:
So the connection with love
is very, very strong Mson, even with the
animals that we love.
Unfortunately, for me, I can be pretty
naive. I went into my storage shed today
and found a $980.00 piece of eqipment
missing. My weedwacker. Lee doesn't pick
up his phone. But, my friends from church
have a son who is coming out to do the
mildue spraying which should have been
done three months ago. Thank God I have
people to help me.
Homer and Mson, love to you my dear
sweetest ones.
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Posted: 05-22-08 10:13am
Lee has probably stolen things from you
that you don't even realize are missing
yet...beware,Bobbie...be very careful and
remember that you are dealing with a lyre
and a snake...I will stop talking about
him now because I don't know if I am
hurting or helping..
You didn't get that mildew problem taken
care of yet? I thought you had that done
already. I hate to think of you maybe
breathing in that bad stuff...Lord! Take
care of that. We had some mildew in our
bathroom on the sealing and Ricky injected
it with bleach! I think it worked!
Mson, how R U 2 day??? It is very hot
here...in the 90s and we are out of milk,
my caR IS IN THE SHOP AND i GUESS i HAVE
TO WALK TO THE STORE. i MAY JUST DO
WITHOUT BECAUSE HEAT MAKES ME VERY ILL
FEELING...
Oppps...sorry, I hit the cap lock
button...sorry...
No, I have searched high and low, the
weedwacker is gone. Called and left a
number of messages on Lee's cell and
finally got hold of him today.
Only thing is the weedwacker is gone, the
jacket that holds it is gone and the ear
muff's Mark gave me to protect my hearing
while using loud equipment is also gone.
Those ear muff's were last worn by Hector
and he left them on the water hydrant by
the vineyard. They are gone, too.
Lee said Hector will come out to find
them. Good luck. They are gone. So is
Lee. Come June 1st, a letter of
termination will be delivered to him. May
have to get out a restraining order
against him, just like his former wife and
his mother-in-law and his vineyard manager
of 10 years. Must be a reason for that.
I have set up a meeting with the new
vineyard manager and my original vineyard
manager of 8 years ago who knows this
place and can help the new man understand
it.
Lee is out of here.
I am going to call the Sheriff to report
the theift of my equipment. Nobody else
goes back there but Lee's guys. And, I
don't have the $980.00 to buy a new one.
The man who used to work for Lee is coming
out to spray for mildue which should have
been done months ago. Right there is a
deal breaker Homer. The vineyards need to
be sprayed for mildue when the plants are
2 inches high, then 1 foot high, and then
3 feet high. Right now they are five feet
high. I could potentially lose my crop.
Joe is coming out today to help determine
the equipment he needs to get in there.
Mildue in my house is what you mean. The
new windows are installed and I can tell
you that was quite an ordeal. This house
is built like a ship and to stand 200
years. The men had to work so hard to get
them out and reinstalled.
Yes, Homer, Lee has stolen things from me
that are missing. My heart, my trust, my
health, and possibly and potentially my
very home with that loan I took out. All
I have to do is miss a few payments and I
could be forced into foreclosure. And, he
can't even comprehend the consequences to
me and my family. Let alone the health
issue which he says is not an issue
because he doesn't believe that I even
have HPV. Was your X that stupid?
Bobbie
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Posted: 05-22-08 12:12pm
My X was a lot like Lee..he only cared
about his feelings and his needs...
He was good in bed but not good enough to
die for, that is for sure... he
also took things from me when I ended the
relationship...I think he will pay 100
times what he took..karma is a bit*h..
So Lee sends Hector out to look for the
weedwacker. Not here. I go out and see
him by my Jeep. He opens up the back and
there is the harness and the ear phones.
Funny thing is, I am in and out of that
truck every single day including an hour
before he showed up. I had to open the
truck to get out a shovel to dig up some
mustard plants in the vineyard. They were
not there then.
Sorry, but it seems to me that guy planted
them there for some reason. He was the
last person I saw with my weedwacker. I
told Lee he is going to have to buy me a
new one, but you know that will never
happen.
Glad he is out of here. He has 9 more
days of this month which I paid for and
hopefully, he will get the replacement
Tempranillo plants to me. If not, he is
still out of here.
I hear you about being good in bed but not
worth dying for. That is what happens to
us when we fall in love with these bad
apples. My immune system is so
jeaprodized that the other day I was stung
by an ant and didn't even feel it at the
time, just saw some black ants on my arm.
It was red and swollen and very painful.
Probably should have taken an EpiPen shot
but then it is very hard on your heart and
you have to get to the emergency room and
I am alone with nobody to drive me. Today
it is a little better. I didn't even know
I am allergic to black ants. Red fire
ants and hornets yes.
Pray for me Homer and Mson.
Love MDSO's.
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Homerx and Bobbie. Posted: 05-23-08 00:26am
It has been a weired time for me.
I told my eldest brother via email how my
uncle molested me. He responded that
people have soo many secrets which caused
it to be a rough place to be. I was four
years old when we moved to the particular
house and I was eight before we moved out.
In between, I was molested.
Also weighing in my heart was the fact
that my sister in law, wife to my eldest
brother, she too had been raped as a child
mbae her uncle. Maybe it was not in my
place to tell my brother but I knew she
would get help from him more than she
could from me. Plus it was weighing me
down and I knew that she was not making
any progress. She is in China my brother
is in Kenya.
I told her to pray for him for two weeks
but she couldn't do it. I want her to
heal. I have known her since we were
going to Sunday school.
So I have been feeling like I did
something wrong. I followed my heart
though. And I do feel lighter. Bobbie
you said to say it as it is and not twist
it. That is why I like this topic to
Homerx s. I have grown since joining
here.
After class yesterday one student asked me
how I manage to tell everything. I gave
him a hug and I explained to him that he
was seeing the polished me. I told him in
my first presentation in Canada I cried
throughout the eight minute speech.
Almost 10 years ago. I told him how I
used to skip the part about being a
prostitute in the past. I asked him for
his email address and wrote him. He is
only 15 years old. Then he wrote me his
story and now I have too much information.
I will ask the student if he needs any
help and then I can tell his teacher if
the student allows me. He has felt
suicidal but believes in God. Poor kid.
Yesterday for the first time I was able to
talk about something. This is what I said
to the kids roughly:-
"The day I knew that there are tiny cuts
and tears during sex, that day I was
knowledgeable. I was not ignorant anymore
and I started using condoms and not
infecting people out of ignorance." I
told them that I thought being told not to
have unprotected sex was like don't have
sex before marriage kind of a thing. I
was skeptical.
For many years I had fought with myself
the best way to tell people about my
ignorance in the beginning years of my
illness. The mistakes I made. I have
learned to accept my whole past and it is
not easy. Soo much past in so little
time.
Otherwise I am doing well. Great posts
Homerx and Bobbie. I read each word
hungrily. Keep it up Bobbie, you are
almost out of the tunnel with Lee. I'll
keep praying for Jesus to be right there
with you and that was a show about the
things in the trunk of your jeep. He
planted them. You are not a fool and he
is making you to look like one. That is
not love. That is deceit and he better
return the other things. Cleaning up
house Bobbie.
Mson, you are SO wise!!!! You said "For many
years I had fought with myself the best
way to tell people about my ignorance in
the beginning years of my illness. The
mistakes I made. I have learned to accept
my whole past and it is not easy. Soo much
past in so little time. "
Thats deep...very profound. I love you so
much.
Mmm mmm mmm
I get wings to fly
Ooohhh im alive
When you call on me
When i hear you breathe
I get wings to fly
I feel that im alive
When you look at me
I can touch the sky
I know that im alive
When you bless the day
I just drift away
All my worries die
Im glad that im alive
You set my heart on fire
Fill me with love
Made me women
The clouds above
I couldnt get much higher
My spirit takes flight
Cause im alive
When you call on me (when you call on me)
When i hear you breathe (when i hear you
breathe)
I get wings to fly (fly)
I feel that im alive (i am alive)
When you reach for me (when you reach for
me)
Raising spirits high
God knows that
That ill be the one
Standing by
Through good and through trying times
And its only begun
I cant wait for the rest of my life
When you all on me (when you call on me)
When you reach for (when you reach for
me)
I get wings to fly
I feel that
When you bless the day (when you bless you
bless the day)
I just drift away (i just drift away)
All my worries die
God knows that im alive
I get wings to fly
God knows that we're alive
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Homerx. Posted: 05-23-08 19:29pm
That is a wonderful song. I will add it
to my collection. Deep song. I have
heard it before but you reminded me of it.
Thanks alot. I love you too. Lots.
Thanks for all your kind words Homerx. It
means a lot to me because I had agony for
a long time wondering how to say that I
made mistakes earlier on in my journey
with AIDS. I have been set free.
Today I went to teach at the school and
the student that I was speaking about in
my above post came and talked to me. He
said he is not doing well in school
because he is always thinking about the
problems at home. This is a private
school and the boy's mother used to work
there but she got fired. Anyway, the boy
was saying to me that there are a couple
of people who do not want him in the
school. What a burden for a 15 year old
to go through!
We talked today and I asked him if he
needs help but he was scared that his mom
would know. So I told him that I will
tell the teacher not to tell his mom. I
was so glad when he agreed that we should
tell the teacher. Phew!
We chose a teacher we both knew and
trusted.
When I got home, I forwarded my email to
the student and the student's email to the
teacher and wrote a note to the teacher as
well.
I have always known I am a powerful
speaker but it surprises me sometimes. At
least two girls have come to me and said
they were raped. I have had to deal with
that and let the teachers know. One of
those girls was in a boarding school and
she was transfered to back home where she
could better be helped. That is the power
of words. It is a very serious job I do
because it evokes emotions. I love
teaching about my life and HIV/AIDS and I
feel responsible when the kids come and
use me as a confidant.
Always feel like I am betraying the kids
when I tell their teachers but it is the
mature thing to do. Don't you think
Hoerx?
Other than that, everything is going well.
I feel raw inside though. Like I have
gone through a beating. Getting better is
not easy I am realising but I will march
on. Thanks for your support my dear.
I am a soldier in the army of the Lord.
Lovingly
Mson
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Dear Friends, Posted: 05-23-08 23:05pm
Today was a red letter day. I have been
trying to call Lee for two days to see the
outcome of my property being invaded and
my property stolen. Just like the little
worm that he is, he said why should he pay
for it. He said he is going to dump it on
the man who works here. I said, he is a
good worker and I wouldn't want to see him
lose his job. As you have way overcharged
me thousands of dollars, it is your turn
to step up to the plate as the man who
recommended these people to come onto my
property. You replace it. Of course,
Homer and I know that he is like Doug and
will never do it.
I finally told him today that I am hiring
a new vineyard manager beginning June 1st.
I am glad I could do it at least over the
phone. Front to front, he would have dug
his claws into my heart and soul. I told
him it is better for us to never see each
other ever again. This is something that
was over a year ago when he dumped me for
that other GF but still wanted his hands
on my property.
My heart has really been hurting but this
is a good decision. I know the new man
has insurance, his license, is a labor
contractor and will verify his people are
legal which only protects me. I asked Lee
today, are you licensed? I called the
county and they said that your license is
inactive. That doesn't protect me Lee. He
said no not right now but he is working on
it. Doesn't this man know that I will
protect my property and like Mson said, my
children's inheritence? There were times
he would say things about being in my will
and asking me to buy him expensive cars,
even give him my Jeep which I need to get
down into the vineyard to turn on the
water stations.
Then he starts attacking me about how I
lose things, must be the worst client he
has, call up and use 300 minutes a month
on his cell phone which is really a joke
as I call, and sometimes leave a message
which all of us pretty much know the time
frame on that is what 90 seconds? 300
minutes equal 5 hours. Ummm! Says he
isn't even making any money off me. Well
guess you already did Lee. Hope it was
worth it for you because you have now put
my health, my home and my wellbeing in
jeaprody. You deserve what you get and
like Homer said Karma is a b**ch. He
said, fine he would come back to tell me
when and if that ever happened to him.
I told him never to come onto my property
again. He said, he can't stand one day
everything is cool and the next day I am
getting rid of him. I have been trying to
get rid of him for a year now ever since
that HPV diagnosis and having him bring
that GF actually into my very own home.
He is on his own. Good luck or maybe not
even that.
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 05-23-08 23:22pm
Good for you. Throw out the bad tomato or
it will rot everything.
Awesome job.
I don't recall saying anything about your
children's inheritance. A copy and paste
would help me for I don't recall. That is
a sensitive topic which I would never
bring up. Gosh! Bobbie I respect you and
would never do that. Show me where I said
that please.
You have fought the good fight. I am
learning a lot from you.
So he is not supposed to come back?
Completely fired. Kaput. Finito.
Thanks Jesus.
xoxo
Mson.
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Mson Posted: 05-24-08 00:03am
I really love it
when Homer posts that about you. You are
that in my mind too. You have a regal
presence, you have lived through tremedous
things which you have endured and yet, you
are standing tall.
One time, you mentioned that I should
never let this small person influence me
and that my children deserved their
rightful inheritance. You are right.
Thank God for you Mson and dearest Homer.
I will also send a letter of termination
although at this point he is bailing out
even though he has not fulfilled his
contract for payment in full for this
month. That is a pretty good showing of
his character. Many, many people have
fired him. He still believes he is the
golden boy. Sady, he is not. Got to put
in the effort. A reputation is something
only you can maintain and put in front of
you.
And, I want to commend you on your
excellent and loving work to educate
people about think and be safe when it
comes to sex. Gracious Lord. When I was
with that Lee, it didn't even occur to me
to think about the consequences that now I
am living with. He said he knew he didn't
have to worry. Guess guys are #1. lazy
and can't bother using a condom, or #2,
can't care less. #3, he said he didn't
have to worry because I had already had a
hysterectomy. Tell me what that has to do
with anything connected to STD's? This
was one stupid boy child who couldn't care
less and to this day doesn't take any
responsibility for what I will live with
for the rest of my life.
Just wiped his hands off and walked away.
And, many times dropped the towels on the
floor for me to pick up.
People, be smarter than me. Listen to
Homer and Mson and the rest of you people
out there, this is a new world and don't
wind up like me with HPV. I can live with
it but that also presents to me the
probability of not being able to live with
anybody else.
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 05-24-08 12:15pm
I am soo glad that you are sending a
letter of termination.
Thanks for your kind words.
Bobbie, you will be able to be with
someone else. Don't limit yourself
because of HPV. You always say it is a
virus just like HIV. If I got somebody
and even got married with AIDS and
Bipolar, you should be able to get a
person no sweat.
You are a loving, wonderful human being.
The right person will come around for you.
You feel like it will never happen but it
will. Have a little more faith. You and
that person can always use condoms like we
do and still have a fantastic sex life.
Yes Lee had the responsibility of putting
on a condom but he didn't. It takes two
to tangle Bobbie and you should have
insisted on a condom but you didn't. The
result is HPV. I am sorry about that and
I hope you can heal the pain and anger you
have towards the person who infected you.
It does take the grace of God to forgive.
Learn to forgive yourself as well Bobbie.
I love you.
Mson.
Last edited by Muthoni on 05-24-08 12:44pm; edited 1 time in total
but in the heat of the moment, it didn't
even occur to me about using a condom. I
certainly had never used one and I thought
he was clean. He wasn't. Looks can be
deceiving. The next day he was over here
and my head had cleared up and I asked him
point blank if he had a lot of girlfriends
because that would put me at great risk.
He looked back without batting an eye and
said, noone, not since his wife. He was a
liar.
God only knows how many women he has been
with. He certainly had all the moves when
it came to sex. Things I couldn't have
imagined.
My daughter said that the highest
percentage of new cases of HIV are in
adults over 50. Is that true Mson? We
just go into the sex game after being
abstinate for many years not knowing the
rules of the game and how to protect
ourselves. I learned too little too late
what a mistake that was.
I love you dear Mson and thank you for
praying for me. You are an angel. I can
see why BH grabbed you and took you off
the market for himself to be his BW.
Bobbie
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Bobbie Posted: 05-24-08 13:16pm
The last paragraph made me smile.
Thanks.
The fastest growing rate of HIV/AIDS is
young women between the ages of 15 and 24
but we are seeing more and more older
people getting HIV. I know a 75+ woman
who is living with HIV here in Canada.
Anybody can get it as long as they are
having unprotected sex.
But I can see what you mean about the sex
game changing while you are abstaining and
then when you get back on the game, you
need new rules and precaution. The world
has really changed.
I led a fast life and only God saved me.
And you are right about my husband getting
me out of the market. I needed out.
Before him, I had abstained for about a
year and then I had started having sex
again and had already made two ex sexual
partners mbae the time my beloved got to
me. When my husband and I did it after
being friends for 4 years, I knew he was
the one. It was June 29, 03 and we
confirmed to each other this year that we
have remained faithful to each other. I
am glad I am out of the market. The
market is very dangerous nowadays.
You will meet someone who will love you
unconditionally Bobbie. Someone who loves
you for who you are. Aim high, my dear
because you deserve it.
I have had cereal, skipped rope and now I
am waiting for my tea to steep. It is
Goji Berry tea. Good for the immune
system. It has been two weeks since I
started taking Goji berries and hemp
hearts and I am feeling stronger and more
confident in my walk. I go to the lab on
Wednesday and in two weeks I will have the
results. Hope there is an improvement in
my fighter cells.
After tea I am going to clean our home.
Yesterday evening there was not a single
clean dish and so we ordered out. Shame.
But I have been busy with teaching. Today
I will make everything clean. First
though, I will smudge and light a candle.
I always remember Walter, the Puppy, Jessy
and Carl and other people.
I will continue to pray for you Bobbie.
Keep well and healthy. I care about you.
When would you like to come and visit our
humble dwelling place? The door is open
anytime. There is lots to see.
After the household chores I will go out
for my labyrinth walk.
good morning
ladies! 
damn it! this is
getting out of hand. 
How come when you
take a car to the shop it always comes
back with a new and different problem 
shady macanicks.. ( i cant spell macanicks
)
He was good in bed but not good enough to
die for, that is for sure... 
I really love it
when Homer posts that about you. You are
that in my mind too. You have a regal
presence, you have lived through tremedous
things which you have endured and yet, you
are standing tall.
