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Hey my friends. Posted: 06-23-08 14:28pm
I woke up at 9:38am. It was my husband
saying how nice the love seat was. I told
him how much I paid for it and he said I
did well. He also stated that I know how
much he likes his comfort.
He handed me a beer and after he had done
checking in with his computer, we sat down
and watched Penn and Teller bulls**!t. I
had some cereal as beer is not really a
breakfast thing. But I like when my
beloved treats me like an equal.
Then my beloved had a bath. They called
me to go to work for 2:30pm. I was
changing my clothes when my beloved
stripped naked. I was naked too and he
asked if I wanted to do it. I hesitated
for a moment then I said
We feel good.
I have lit the candle and prayed for all
those who have gone before us, prayed for
the grandfathers and grandmothers, prayed
for Homerx, Bobbie, all those have died
through violence. All those who have died
through drunken driving. Prayed for
mothers in law everywhere. Prayed for the
world, etc. Prayed for Andrew, David and
Richard. Prayed for my mother and Jessy.
I did a smudge and now I will get ready
for work. But first we are going to have
lunch in the mall. We are leaving in
twenty minutes. I better get ready.
Thanks very much for your prayers for they
have allowed us to have God's favour.
Like being called for two extra shifts one
after the other. That's God's favour.
Hi. Well, its been another one of those
days. Rick just called. he locked the keys
in the car. He has done that 3 times this
year and AAA has run out for him so he is
using my card. He just called. What a
scatter brain!! So
he is in a bad mood and i have a headache
and really don't feel like dealing with
any drama or yelling or anything like that
so I hope he comes home and doesn't decide
to go off on me because i will get in his
face. I am not in a very good mood so I
have stayed off here today and not talked
to any one. When I get this way it is best
if I stay to myself and now this.
Give me patience,Lord. Give me
patience,Lord And a deep breath
and I feel better...a little.
OK, just had to get that out...talk
later,hope yall are doing better than I
am...
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Posted: 06-23-08 18:45pm
I think I figured out why I am in such a
sour mood. Its Melba's birthday and i used
to send her flowers and a card and now we
don't speak and it sucks...I wish I could
erase her from my mind forever..
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Homerx. Posted: 06-23-08 19:55pm
I am sorry you have
having such a rough day. I almost feel
guilty for having a really happy day.
Sorry to hear about the car keys. These
things happen. Do you really think Ricky
is a scatter brain
Last week Rosemary and my father phoned me
on speaker phone. Daddy started mbae
saying that it is a long time since he had
written or spoken to me. I was so
surprised that I did not know what to talk
about. I just told them that we are all
fine and asked what time it was there. It
was about 5:00am there. My mother said
that when she wakes up at 3:00am to pray
, she does not go
back to bed.
That really touched me.
She was telling me that it is really cold
where they live. She asked if it was
summer here and I was explaining that the
sun has not hit us yet even though it is
summer. She also said that there is no
food in the country.
There was war in the country last winter
and it seems the country has not
recovered. So I prayed to God that next
time I have $76, I will send it to
Rosemary. So $60 and the rest is the
charge to send the money. I can do this.
I am glad that she is making effort to be
friend's with me. That is all that I
asked in the poem. That it was her turn
to make friends with me.
POEM - Posted: 05-13-08 21:38pm
I appreciate that when I was born
You did not throw me out
You wiped my bum and gave me a breast.
Then depression crawled in and you
were a monster
One I fear to upset up to this date.
Mama I pray for you daily
That your soul may heal
That you may enjoy your olden days.
I have forgiven you Mama
For the physical and verbal abuse
I understand you were ill.
I am crying mama
Because I wish you were a normal Mama
But you are who God gave me
My path is different from yours
You cannot beat me now
You are NOT the boss of me.
Please understand Mama
I did the best to bring us together
The rest is up to you.
If we don't connect again
That is fine too
Even Homerx survives alone
Anyway, just wanted to say
Happy Mothers Day
To you Rosemary.
It is me
Muthoni.
I forgive easily.
I will be praying for you Homerx and I
doubt you will ever forget Melba.
Love
Mson
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Posted: 06-23-08 20:26pm
Thanks,Mson. I cant forget although I wish
I could I know I never will..its a scar on
my soul. The wound may heal but the scar
will always be there to remind me of the
mother I lost. I dont think she ever
really liked me anyway,much less loved me.
I am gay,she says she doesnt care but she
does. She treats my other 2 brothers with
respect and patience...I get the cold
shoulder. But whatever...Oh, by the way,
yeah Ricky is a scatter brain. he has
locked the keys in the car several times
and lost them once...but I love him. Very
very much. He is my world and I thank god
for him and his unconditional love.
I remember your poem to your mother...very
sweet...you are rebuilding your
relationship and that makes me happy. You are a better
and more forgiving person than I.
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You Are Both Very Special Souls Posted: 06-23-08 20:35pm
I go through all this great fear on my
property and letting Lee con me into
putting a loan on my house. Now, went
into the bank and the interest rate has
gone up a full 1% which means my payments
will be $180.00 more per month. Very
scary. I kept telling him I didn't want
to do this. But, here I am.
Like you said Homer, Lee slides right on
by using other's people good faith, love
and money.
The thing about how we are treated is
truly a scar on our souls and in our
hearts. You can remove the person from
your immediate presence, but the scar
remains. Let us be kind to our children,
for children are forever. They truly are
a gift from God.
One day, we will all get old. Let us hope
to have somebody with us who loves us.
Mson, lucky girl! I loved your romantic
interlude with BH. If I could be so
lucky!
Love,
Bobbie
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Homerx. Posted: 06-23-08 20:59pm
I will miss you when you are gone but I
will continue to pray for you my dear.
Sorry you are having such a rough day. I
bet it is one of those days where you feel
like you have been hit mbae a truck or hit
mbae a ton of bricks. A nice bath should
do the trick. I don't know.
Homerx it is not that I am a better and
more forgiving that you. No way my
friend. It is that my mother had to
discover that her grand daughter was dead.
I have seen her face very sad during my
daughter's funeral. I have a video of the
funeral. I am rebuilding the relationship
for my late daughter's sake. They were
such good friends you would never have
thought I had problems with mother for
having Jessy.
I remember talking to my mother on the
phone days after Jessy had died in 1997
and she was saying she wished it was one
of her children who had died in place of
Jessy. And a man (late Magu) asked her
"Which one of your children." And she had
no answer. She did the dirty work for me
concerning Jessy. I feel that I owe her
friendship if nothing else.
I thought you were being rude about Ricky
being a scatter brain but I guess it is
like my beloved husband being untidy. He
has gotten better over the years. I
understand.
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Bobbie Posted: 06-23-08 21:11pm
I am very sorry to hear about the mess at
the bank and all that stuff with Lee. I
will continue praying for you. About the
romance, I
got goose bumps. I love you Bobbie.
Get goose bumps means you are touched by
the Holy Spirit and truth. It is called
an affirmation.
Love,
Bobbie
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Posted: 06-24-08 09:26am
Good Morning.my friends. Thank you both
for your kind words. It means so much to
me. You don't know. Yes, scatter
brain isn't an insult...it just means
forgetful. But I still could smack him in
the head some times
It is HOT HOT HOT out side! I dont like it. My
brother in Atlanta has a pool. He asked
what did I want to do when I got there. I
said go to the concert and sit by the pool
and in the hot tub and . I dont
care about running all over Atlanta going
her and there. I just want to chill and
relax.
OK, I have a bit of running around to
do...post office, the store. Rickys
birthday is Thursday. I got him a couple
of cards. I dont know what to get him. He
said he wants tile for the bedroom. The
carpet has already been removed. I guess I
will tell him to puck out the tile and
that will be a good gift.
I Love You both,
Homie
[quote="Roberta777"]Get goose bumps means
you are touched by the Holy Spirit and
truth. It is called an affirmation.
interesting...I didnt know that!
Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt
That you hide
When you’re lost inside, I
I’ll be there to find you
Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
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Homerx and Bobbie. Posted: 06-24-08 15:47pm
Homerx,
Beautiful song. Never heard it before. I
am downloading it for my collection. JOSH
GROBAN - DON'T GIVE UP (YOU ARE LOVED). I
liked it my dear. You have great taste of
music. And scarfs. And
coloring books. I have started coloring
mbae numbers.
I woke up at 9:00am. No alarm clock.
Yeah! I did what I had never done ever.
I put a bowl of cereal and sat on the new
love seat and watched Creflo preach.
That is a much better way of having
breakfast as compared to eating and trying
to do something on the computer. messing
up the keyboard. :confused:You see how
one change in the home can bring much
more? I mean like getting a nice leather
couch.
Then I went to the cartoon section and I
thought to myself, the child within me is
fine and well. Beloved husband said that
when I know which ones I like, he will
tape them for me. He is very encouraging
that way.
I skipped rope, more than 150. I am not
sure mbae how much. This morning I was
with needle and thread mending my tights.
I am really getting in touch with whom I
am. Time to change the timetable again.
I had a crocheted blanket that I used to
put under the old rugged love seat. I
used it as a rug for the dining area.
Nice place for the Gandalf the cat. I
changed a few things around. I am feeling
good praise be to God Almighty Creator of
heaven and earth. Amen!
Homerx and Bobbie.
Guess what happened? Every British
Columbian was give a $100 mbae the
government. Money from God I tell ya. It
is God's favour. It is your prayers being
answered.
Isn't that something?
I lit the candle and prayed all that I
mentioned plus praying for people who die
in violence. Praying for those living
with HIV/AIDS, praying for Andereza,
James, Reyona, Flora, Gabriel. And as I
finished, the door bell rang. It was
Chris.
We were supposed to be going for Pascale's
stagette (sp) out of town. I canceled
when I realised we were going for two
nights instead of one. I did not want to
miss two days of work. I really didn't
want to go. I felt intimidated mbae women
with well paid jobs. What would I wear
instance. One of the women is in fashion.
Too much headache for me.. I really did
not have the budget for it. I hear two
more people canceled after me and I hear
Pascale is not very happy. But I am not
thinking about that.
I made tea and then I got
ready. I am going to have something to
eat. Infact, it is rice from yesterday's
Chinese food. For a moment I thought I
had to go out for food but food is in the
fridge. Thanks Jesus.
I hope to be able to cash the check today
so that I can send Mami the $60. Bless
her soul.
I am on to warming the rice. Heading to
work after that.
And say what you feel. If you don't want
to go to a social function, don't. Be
always true to yourselves. I like my life
and don't feel the need to go to places I
am not comfortable with.
Homer you are going to have a great time
in Atlanta. The pool and spa sound great
and you deserve a good vacation. The
concert sounds fantastic. Enjoy yourself
and I can tell you are like a little boy,
full of excitement and expectation. Hope
you have a good airline and a good seat.
Mson and I will be praying you have a
great time and will meet some good people
on the plane to talk to. I somehow see
this grandmotherly type, a bit like
Bobbie, talking your ear off.
Then I got the picture of Wesley Snipes in
Passenger 93. Remember when the Stu
decided to get even with him and brought
this lady up to sit beside him. He
clearly wanted to put his pillow over her
mouth to shut her up, but that wouldn't
have worked. Now see, it is your fault
for sending me that joke. I can't stop
laughing.
Some people have thanked me for forwarding
it on to them and that maybe that will
stop some of that c**p.
Love,
Bobbie
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Re: Glad You Are Honest Posted: 06-24-08 18:22pm
Roberta777
wrote:
And say what you feel. If
you don't want to go to a social function,
don't. Be always true to yourselves. I
like my life and don't feel the need to go
to places I am not comfortable with.
Homer you are going to have a great time
in Atlanta. The pool and spa sound great
and you deserve a good vacation. The
concert sounds fantastic. Enjoy yourself
and I can tell you are like a little boy,
full of excitement and expectation. Hope
you have a good airline and a good seat.
Mson and I will be praying you have a
great time and will meet some good people
on the plane to talk to. I somehow see
this grandmotherly type, a bit like
Bobbie, talking your ear off.
Then I got the picture of Wesley Snipes in
Passenger 93. Remember when the Stu
decided to get even with him and brought
this lady up to sit beside him. He
clearly wanted to put his pillow over her
mouth to shut her up, but that wouldn't
have worked. Now see, it is your fault
for sending me that joke. I can't stop
laughing.
Some people have thanked me for forwarding
it on to them and that maybe that will
stop some of that c**p.
Love,
Bobbie
Oh
Bobbie, i love you. I hope I sit by some
one just like you and she and i yak it up
aall the way to Atlanta!
You and Mson...what did I do before I had
you in my life I
dont know and don't want to think about
it!Mson,I agree with Bobbie...dont ever do
anything or go anywhere you dont want to.
Life is 2 short to wast time with
pretentious people and doing things you
hate..of course we all have to do things
we don't like, such as clean house, go to
the bathroom, take pills,and stuff like
that BUT praise God we have the house to
clean, the pills to take and the bowls to
poop!!! ( I cant believe I said that!!!)
Thanks guys...really. I love you.
xoxo,Homer/Steve
Honestly, you made my day today. Woke up
worried about this debt but my heart is
lighter now Homer. Thanks for being
exactly YOU. You are exactly what God had
in mind when he made you at the beginning
of the world. You have love, compassion,
honest caring, the ability to stop to
listen to another, love in your heart and
soul. I think that is the prototype God
had in mind when he created us.
Honestly, the same goes for Muthoni. She
has a heart as wide as the ocean and she
is loved.
Bingo! With you, he is happy indeed for
finally one of his children loves and is
loved. That is all he wants for us. The
opposite is well you know and I won't
spoil this message by using the word. Let
us avoid people who live by that rule.
Love,
Bobbie
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Posted: 06-24-08 19:59pm
Bobbie...I had to
laugh when you wouldn't say his name
Thats my girl! I am
so proud of you for dealing with that mess
as long as you did. I know it hasn't been
EZ 4 U...and you are a stronger woman for
having to deal with the BS. It may not
seem worth it now but one day you will
look back and say "wow...am I glad he is
out of me life forever" . Its weird,if he
hadnt given you HPV then we would have
never met...the Lord works in mysterious
ways,MDSL.
have a great nite
Love,Homer
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Homerx and Bobbie. Posted: 06-24-08 20:32pm
Thanks for
being such wonderful friends. This is the
coolest forum ever and I
have been to many.
Do you remember the story of the guy who
told me that he wanted to kill himself.
Well, today he brought me a hand made
peace sign to put on my neck. Wooden and
painted green, blue, yellow and red. Same
design like your avatar Homerx...I thought
that was really neat. The things I love
are coming to me. It is good medicine.
I have been on my break and used the time
to go to the labyrinth and pray for all of
us.
Work is over in about 45 minutes and then
we have a monthly staff meeting. From
there I will go to send money to Mami and
mbae a calling card. Thanks Jesus. Then
I will call home at about 10:00am.
Thanks for understanding about the not
going to places I don't want to. The
organizer was trying to get me to go and I
told her I couldn't. I explained to
Pascale that I could not afford to miss
two days of work. She seemed to
understand then but she is upset because
other ladies refused to go as well. I am
the maid of honour but that does not mean
that I get subjected to things we cannot
afford.
Goes To Show You Why I Am Here Posted: 06-24-08 21:30pm
And why prayer works in my life. I
honestly wake up and pray for you and this
morning had so many overwhelming worries
about things until I realized that it was
a spiritual attack and said no. Get
behind me. Like Homer says, Satan knows
how to hit you and hit you hardest in your
doubts and fears. My priest says it is
true too. That keeps us from focusing on
God and the happiness we have in our
lives.
Mson, I am proud of you for not going.
Never go to a place that you do not wish
to go to. You are your own woman and a
proud and good woman. Look at the
happiness you have found in your beautiful
new country and how they truly appreciate
you.
Like Homer said, if that guy hadn't given
me HPV, I would never have been blessed to
have met you. Isn't that quite amazing?
I know Homer is right. God DOES work in
mysterious ways, but they are not
mysterious to Him. He knows good and well
what He is doing today, tomorrow and
please God always.
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I am soo excited! Posted: 06-25-08 01:23am
After the meeting at work I went to send
the money to Mami and then I called her
over the computer (my beloved husband did
the connections) and I was able to talk to
Mami and Ndandi first the phone
disconnected after 10 minutes. We did
not know why but it was the setting on the
computer. I talked with them for about 25
minutes in total.
Get this, when Mami picked up the phone
she hesitated. She thought it was the
girl from Austria. I hear she is a con
woman. So Mami was excited to hear it was
me. She was like "Praise God!" She
talked about the con woman, she told of
how she wakes up other people to pray at
3:00am. She talked and talked and I
laughed and laughed.
Then I asked her if she had a pen. I told
that I had sent her $60. She started to
tell me how yesterday my dad was saying
that they should sell the chicken. They
even had a buyer but my mother said no.
The chicken start laying next month. So
she was very excited about the $60 and
told me that she felt like crying. I told
her it was money from the government for
free. She was very happy. She said she
will mbae two sacks of chicken feed.
Hallelujah.
Thanks very much for holding me in your
prayers. I cut my mother off for less
than a month and now we are back like
never before. Thanks very much Homerx and
Bobbie. May God truly bless you. Your
health, mind and spirit. May He provide
for you financially just like He has for
me. In Jesus name. Amen.
I want to take her easy. I am protecting
myself this time.
The day is done. It is 11:23pm. I must
head to bed.
Geez I forgot to mbae
laundry soap. Oh well if that is the
worst thing that happened to me today, I
am having a fabulous day/night.
Good Morning. Mson,
I am happy you talked to your Mami and
were able to help her out. That is very
kind of you.
Tomorrow is Rickys birthday! I got him a
couple of cards and am going to get some
steaks and bake potatoes and vegies...
what
else do I need to get him He
doesn't care for cake but i got strawberry
short cake,he likes that. I cant believe I
leave on Saturday for a week You
know I want you to keep an eye on the
forum and help me out cuz I wont be on
line except maybe to check in...thanks in
advance, I know you will keep an eye on
the posts and answer what you can as you
always do any way.
OK, I am having coffee and oat mill, put
some whites in the washer and then to the
post office and store. Talk to you
later.Hope you had a great sleep last
night.
http://www.youtube.co
m/watch?v=ga0JE5Y-8I8
Singing to the world
Its time we let the spirit come in
Let it come on in
I'm singing to the world
Everybody's caught in the spin
Look at where we've been
We've been running around
Year after year
Blinded it with pride
Blinded it with fear
But its daybreak
If you wanna' to beleave
It can be daybreak
Ain't no time to grieve
Say its daybreak
If you 'll only beleave
And let it shine,shine,shine all around
the world
Singing to the world
What's the point of puttin' it down
There's so much love to share
I'm singing to the world
Don't you see it all comes around
The feeling's every where
Where we've been closing our eyes
Day after day
Cover in clouds losin' our way
Hey but its daybreak
If you wanna' to beleave
It can be daybreak
Ain't know time to grieve
And its daybreak
And if you only beleave
And then let it shine,shine,shine all
around the world
And its daybreak
If you wanna' to believe
It can be daybreak
Ain't no time to grieve
And its daybreak
And if you only believe
Then let it shine,shine,shine all around
the world
Come on and let it
Shine,shine,shine all around the world
Hey and its daybreak
Can you feel it
And its daybreak
Can't you sing it
That its daybreak
Sunshine
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Homerx. Posted: 06-25-08 18:20pm
I love that song. I tried to download the
John Groban one to no success. I can book
mark and listen to it from Utube.
I don't know what time I woke up today but
I did wake up and did devotion and made
the bed as usual. I came to look at the
computer and then I decided to have
cereal.
Last night as I was looking for a calling
card, I decided to mbae a small milk for
my cereal this morning. Anyway, the milk
seemed thicker than normal. The expiry
date was June 30. I wasted a bowl of
cereal and I hate wasting food.
I called beloved husband and he brought
home some milk. I watched the preacher
man and some cartoons.
Then I was inspired to go for a
walk to the labyrinth. I went via the
bank to start paying off the love seat. I
was in a grateful mood and just thanked
God and did not do my usual prayers but I
hope to find time to do the usual. I am
not worried anymore that is for sure and
there is some change happening inside. My
mind is not racing and my heart is not in
pain. Now if only the body can relax...
Watch me, it is 3:55pm and I am going on
the balcony to jump rope...3:59pm I am
back after doing more than 150 skips. You
see how you motivate me my dear. I didn't
think I was going to skip today and now I
feel so wonderful.
It is 4:00pm. I will go and light the
candle and say the candle prayers...4:07pm
and I have finished the prayers. The
things that I sometimes delay doing take
at most ten minutes. I must press on. It
is 4:08pm and I am going to do the
smudge...4:11pm, I am done. I did my
thing from 3:55pm - 4:11pm. Very few
minutes. I am poor in math. My BH says
it adds up to 16 minutes. I must be
disciplined.
Now I am going to see if I can do laundry.
I bought some laundry soap while I was
out. I hate when they change anything
about my soap. This time they changed the
container. It looks like a different
soap. I better check the laundry room.
brb...
The laundry room is busy. I'll tidy the
kitchen instead.
Nice chatting. I am gonna miss you while
you are gone.
So
he is in a bad mood and i have a headache
and really don't feel like dealing with
any drama or yelling or anything like that
so I hope he comes home and doesn't decide
to go off on me because i will get in his
face. I am not in a very good mood so I
have stayed off here today and not talked
to any one. When I get this way it is best
if I stay to myself and now this. 
Give me patience,Lord. 
Give me
patience,Lord 
I am sorry you have
having such a rough day. I almost feel
guilty for having a really happy day.
You are a better
and more forgiving person than I. 
Yes, scatter
brain isn't an insult...it just means
forgetful. But I still could smack him in
the head some times 
I dont like it. My
brother in Atlanta has a pool. He asked
what did I want to do when I got there. I
said go to the concert and sit by the pool
and in the hot tub and 
. I dont
care about running all over Atlanta going
her and there. I just want to chill and
relax. 
I forgot to mbae
laundry soap. Oh well if that is the
worst thing that happened to me today, I
am having a fabulous day/night. 
Good Morning. Mson,
I am happy you talked to your Mami and
were able to help her out. That is very
kind of you. 
