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Re: Bobbette Posted: 07-13-08 19:12pm
bobbette
wrote:
Sounds like u had a full
weekend, Mson. Relationships r hard even
the good ones--it seems like it always
something. Why BH decided to tell u
about his "lunch" with the girl on the
ferry is unknown. Maybe he was feeling
guilty..insecure...letting u know someone
else might would want him...proud that
someone "strange" was giving him
attention. I know it disappointed you and
hurt u. When u r married it is nice not
to have secrets--but most all relationsips
do. Men r strange creatures. I am so
sorry he hurt u and i hope u can forgive
him. You have forgiven others for much
more severe transgressions. Follow your
heart, if it will help u to "purify" your
soul, by all means tell your uncle that u
remember what happened. If it will help u
in getting rid of the "haunting" of it and
give u peace of mind, do it. It is just
that i have known people (and have done it
myself)--that do something they think will
be beneficial and it turns out to be
anything but. Homerx should be back on
line tomorrow. You r in my thoughts and
prayers--peace and Love
--Bobbette
Ya I realized later that there was no
point in being mad with my BH. I go to
lunch with many guys but I always tell
him. Most of them are gay and that makes
me feel safe. He might have been guilty
or insecure but I am glad that he was
finally able to tell me. I was mad
alright but I have let it go.
About my uncle, I will try it out and if
it doesn't work, I will say with dignity
that I tried.
It will be wonderful to have Homerx back.
It is wonderful to have you here Bobbette
and I hope you can stay a while. for bringing us
messages from Homerx and participating in
this topic. You are awesome.
All the best to you,
Love and Light
Mson
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 07-13-08 19:49pm
Roberta777
wrote:
Your depth of honesty is
like a breath of fresh air and the way you
can express yourself in your true
feelings.
Good for you. I say deal with
what you have done here and now not wait
until the end, for the end is forever.
That is what your uncle needs to do. Look
into the mirror of his soul and admit what
he did to you as a little girl was
unforgiveable. Molestation, plain and
simple. I know you said your parents
drank during the time you were little.
Maybe they just weren't paying attention
to you children.
I believe to stand up and point your
finger in your uncle's face and tell him
what he did to you was a total violation
is the absolute right thing to do.
Sometimes, when we don't stand up and
speak up for ourselves, we enable the
other person to wash over their sins
against us and hang their laundry out in
the sun to dry and it is like a new day.
All forgotten. But, it is not forgotten.
All the hurt we do to others is written
down in the Book of Life and God is the
one in the end who is going to do the
accounting.
Last night was just so very special. Our
beloved priest from South Africa,
celebrated his 10th anniversay to the
priesthood. He is such a blessing to us.
He went over the joys he has experienced
as a priest and told of a man who was
dying of AIDS in Africa. This man had a
wife and seven children. This was 10
years ago. At that time, people were
afraid to even touch him. Father went to
bless him and back when his wife called to
say he was dying. Father held the man to
his chest and the family was all there
around the bed. He said he feel asleep
and awoke to find the man had stopped
breathing. He had died in his arms. Now
that is what I call love and acceptance.
I want to live my life with those
qualities.
Mson, you have those qualities.
The thing about your husband going to
lunch is not a big deal. He probably felt
flattered. He told you about it which
tells me YOU are his biggest and best
friend as well as wife, lover, supporter
and one who believes in him.
My former BF used to honestly tell me
about thinking about being with that other
GF. I would ask him about it and if he
was with her that way and he would say no
but he was thinking about it. That guy
was something else. Now, he is saying the
baby isn't his but is his best (former)
friend's baby. But, the man has a woman
he loves and totally respect's Lee's wife
and family. Just no limit Lee will go to
tell himself he is not responsible for his
children as the court will only allow him
to see his little girl one hour a week
under supervision. Must be a reason for
that. Could it be the violence of busting
out all the windows and french doors in
their beautiful home? He says only a few
windows. I asked what about the doors
facing the sun in the West? He admitted
he did those too. I told him, this shows
you are a very violent person. Why would
your wife allow you to be alone with your
children?
Long story short, which is impossible with
me Mson, people build up layers and layers
and they cover themselves and no matter
what they have done to hurt others, they
just brush it off and shine up their skin
and slick down their hair and admire
themselves in the mirrow for their
physical beauty not considering the
trainwreaks they cause upon other people's
lives.
I am glad you are a survivor. That is why
I love you so much.
I was at church last night with the new
guy. I am thinking I will call and have
him come over to swim today. Don't want
to be alone.
Bobbie
Speaking the truth is what makes people
listen. You told me not to beat about the
bush. Remember?
Bobbie, when I was little, I touched my
sister's vulva. And another girl as well.
Abused people turn out to be abusers in
most cases. I never understood why but
now I know it is because a defiling seed
had been planted in me. When I told my
sister a few years ago, she said she
cannot remember. In boarding school, I
was among the girls who fingered each
other. Then after I finished school, I
was very promiscuous. All this behavior
stems from knowing about sex too early in
life. My life has not been straight and I
cannot be a hypocrite and not forgive my
uncle. If my sister forgave me, why
should I not forgive my uncle?
I am very happy to hear about your church
and its diversity. And people everywhere
need love especially those who are dying.
Bobbie, I really enjoyed reading your
post. You are such a wonderful writer and
you do remember things I said before. I
really thank God for you. I miss Homerx.
Have you spoken to him since he sent
Bobbette?
Thanks for your observation about BH. I
am not taking it to heart. I am cool
I understand men always have a fantasy
about other women. I hear dressing up in
lingerie satisfies that fantasy. I have
to go shopping sometime. Just to spice
things up in the bedroom
for your kind
words. I walked around with layers and
layers Bobbie. I was a people pleaser.
When I went crazy, I realized I had to do
something. I had to be real. I had to be
myself. When I am myself I am quiet and
not thinking that I have to perform all
the time.
I have been on survival mode for so long
and it is now time to start living. I too
am glad I survived. Jesus.
Great to hear about the new guy. Glad you
have company when you want it. I know you
don't want a boyfriend but a friend.
Which makes him your boyfriend. But what
I am saying is , no
matter the title, you are in a new
relationship. That is amazing. Keep it
up, keep things simple and enjoy Bobbie.
I feel for you when you say that you don't
want to be alone. I have been alone in
the soul.
I really appreciate how you typed and put
in emoticons. Very well done Bobbie. I
love this one, never seen it used before
until you wrote.
How did the swimming go? Go for what your
heart desires Bobbie.
It is not possible you are going to be 40
years old. Just goes to show you what
love can do in your life to keep you so
well.
Is that your little cat? Boy, what a long
haired one.
Be glad when our beloved Homer gets back
on line. I miss him like crazy.
Bobbie
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You Are A Great Unifier Mson Posted: 07-13-08 20:26pm
And, also a great writer. You know how to
get to the heart of the matter.
Yes, I say go out and buy this sexy red
negligee to wear for BH. That will send
him over the moon and through the roof!!!!
And, you will get the benefit from it
lady.
You are right that when people are abused,
they become abusers themselves. Lee was
beaten by his step-father and now he
abuses those who love him the most.
Abuse doesn't always have to be hitting
physically, it can be hurting emotionally,
spiritually and economically just to
satisfy the ego of the abuser. Lee is an
abuser. Now his new GF has his name on
her bank savings account. He tried that
with me and I stopped it right there.
Nipped it in the bud the first few days we
were together. Sad really for him.
Because, by asking for expensive things it
showed his lack of caring for himself and
putting himself out there for sale. I
could see it if he was desperate for
money, but he was making a huge amount of
money and still is. He just put in a new
vineyard for two rich guys for 25 acres at
$37,000.00 an acre. A huge profit. That
is $925,000.00. Judging from the profit
he made off me, he made a lot of money
from that project.
I believe that children experiment with
other children whilst young. I know I
did. Most of us played doctor and nurse.
Remember? Don't be hard on yourself for
being a young girl and checking out other
young girls. I remember kissing girls who
were at my home for a sleep over. It felt
strange but it was kind of like practicing
for the main event.
Love,
Bobbie
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July 13, 08 Posted: 07-13-08 23:27pm
Check it out. I posted a photo on the
last page
10:05am got out of bed.
10:19am - getting ready for the day.
Devotion.
10:37am BH and friend Jesse are going out
for a photo taking session. I better have
some breakfast and watch my evangelists on
TV. It is 10:54am.
11:57am, finished watching my shows.
BH and Jesse are back from photography.
12:08pm, I better get the dishes done
12:59pm, dishes done. Time to have
lunch.
1:24pm and wondering what to do.
I will have a drink of juice and see if
there is a movie on the TV. BH is rolling
1:35pm I have remembered, I can do my
candle prayers. How could I think I have
nothing to do? If it was before I could
have gone back to bed. I have been
delivered. But first - very
relaxing. Now I am going to do the candle
prayers. It is 1:51pm. Candle is lit.
I thanked God for Alex's life, Jessy's
life, Uncle Wayne and Auntie Jackie,
Walter (Bobbie), the puppy (Homerx).
Thanks God for Grandmothers and
grandfathers. Prayed for Homerx, prayed
for Amy. Prayed for Ted and his departed
father. Prayed for Gayle. Prayed for
Bobbie. Prayed for those who have died of
violence and AIDS. Those living with
HIV/AIDS. Prayed for those that have died
from complications of HIV/AIDS. Prayed
for mothers in law. prayed for people who
die through drunken driving. Remembering
Princess Diane's children. Prayed for my
mother and mother in law. Prayed for the
soul of Jessy and Gerald. Prayed for the
guy who sold me a love seat - such a
gentle man. Prayed for Richard, Bobbie
and my mother. Prayed for BH's family.
Prayed for young Ella who had brain
cancer. A cousin's child. She is the one
who got me having candle prayers. Prayed
for BH and I. God for a trip to
Toronto 2006. Praying for BH's career.
Praying for Jessy. Prayed for late
Njeri's brother, Carl's brother, the
world. Mother in law, Andrew. I could
not believe Andrew was on line. God
making it possible. Praying for Patches,
Brianna plus their three children.
Praying for Jane and Paul. Praying for
Andereza and James
Thanking God for the AIDS office and how
they have helped me grow. Praying for
children who have died or are dying of
AIDS. Praying for Tyler, Shawna, Amanda
and Sedara.
Praying for pets that have departed eg
puppy (Homerx). Thanking God for David.
Monty and Dar and their grand children
that they raise. Praying for my family,
David and Michael - Homerx. Thanks God
for Native people here and everywhere.
Praying for Africa and children dying of
AIDS. Praying for Adam and Sue. Thanking
God for women of distinction award.
Thanking God for my past. Praying for
elderly with HIV/AIDS. Thanking God for
everyday life. Africa, Canada. God bless
me and women living with AIDS. Michael
Fraser. Me. Happiness +Hope + Love =
Life. - Gabrielle, grade 6. At a time of
stress, thou art a hiding place for me.
Psalm 32:6-7
Joshua 24:15. As for me and my house we
will serve the Lord. That is our motto.
2:15pm finished the prayers. I do them
them daily if I am not lazy. I have a toy
truck on the altar and it has a shell I
have put on it. And today I had the
revelation that as a Cancer, a crab, I
have come out of my shell and the truck is
taking the shell away. And to think that
I wanted to remove the truck because it
represented nothing.
2:18pm I will do the massage. (I don't
know what I am saying)
BH has gone to purchase more medicine
When I smudge, I light sage in a half a
shell and say like the native people
taught me. "May my hands do good work,
may my brains think good thoughts, may my
eyes see you, may my ears hear you. May
my heart be connected to you. Bless the
womb the fruits of life. May my feet walk
the right path." Then I add my own words.
The blood of Jesus up me, the blood of
Jesus upon my BH, the blood of Jesus upon
family, the blood of Jesus upon extended
family, the blood of Jesus upon friends.
The blood of Jesus upon forum-mer - that
includes you. The blood of Jesus upon the
people of Kenya, the blood of Jesus upon
the people of the earth, the blood of
Jesus upon the earth, the blood of Jesus
upon the Universe.
I just finished doing the smudge. That is
what I meant when I said massage. Now I
recall.
When it is my time of the month (periods),
I don't smudge. It is a rule.
2:30pm watching "License to kill."
I missed the beginning of the movie. Now
I am waiting to watch "Little Nikita."
5:00pm movie over. Good movie.
6:48, heading out for dinner. I wanted to
go like I was in the picture on the last
page but BH was hinting that I should
dress up. I am glad I did. This dinner
is an early birthday dinner for me from my
BH. We had an excellent four course
dinner. Soup, salad, ducking for me and
lamb for BH and dessert. I had a Shirley
Temple while BH had a Cosmopolitan and a
25 year old Glen Morgan shot. It cost BH
$160 including tip. So worth it.
It is 9:15pm. I better take my
medication.
9:27pm
alway with love
Mson
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 07-13-08 23:59pm
for your kind
words. I cannot believe I am 40 years old
myself because I should be dead. But God
liveth.
Yes that is our cat Gandalf. I used to
think she was ugly but now I love her.
Homerx
I have not always gotten to the heart of
the matter. I have been known to go round
and round. Like today with Amy. No
beating about the bush. I waited for the
perfect chance to tell her to leave. She
came around to pay $10 she had borrowed
from my BH. BH says he doesn't remember
lending her the money.
That is not the issue though. She knew
we were living for dinner soon. She went
to the washroom and then came to get BH's
phone number because she has one of those
electronic organizers. She made as if to
stay and said, "Hey Amy, did you know you
cannot hang around here?" She looked
shocked and then I said, "We found a crack
pipe and you only come here when you high
or when in trouble. We want to help you
but right now you need to get help." Then
she said that she was not high today and
she left. BH said I was very brave and I
was. He said he wouldn't say it himself.
I was thinking about you Bobbie when I
told her to go away. I felt so relieved.
Thanks to you and Homerx. I have learned
a lot from this experience.
About Lee and his money, a fool and his
money are soon separated.
Thanks for sharing about playing nurse and
doctor. You are very supportive Bobbie.
Putting yourself on the line for the
purpose of making the other person not
look bad.
I always thought something was wrong with
me...Touching my sister and Wambui made me
feel like an abuser. I never thought I
was playing doctor. I was not a normal
little girl and I wonder what normal is.
Mson, most all kids/ teenagers go through
some type of sexual experimentation--with
girls and boys. i believe it is only
"normal" to check out this human
instinct--being young and ignorant we
most all have done things that if we
remember today just shake our heads.
Most everyone likes to just "forget" that
this experimentation ever took place. For
example, your sister does not even
"remember" the incident u told her about.
Also, there is a great deal of
promiscuity going on and there always will
be. I am wondering if your uncle knew
better or not...I do not know. I was
quite promiscuous (sp?--My coffee has not
kicked in yet) for about six months when i
was a teenager (19) and had sex for the
first time. I think i could not believe
that it was what it was--no big deal... so
i had sex with a few other guys to make
sure....see how stupid i was!!!
Ignorance is for youth-- when u yet older
and u still are making the same mistakes
and no learning from them, then it is
tragic. People reach the age of reason at
different times. Some people believe you
know right from wrong at the age of 7 or
8--i wish i felt that was true. That
depends on a lot of factors. The things
that u feel u did in the past that u feel
were wrong--don't beat yourself up about.
We r all sinners--the important thing is
to forgive yourself--u r obviously
contrite--know and feel that God forgives
you-- and move on with your enlightened
self, determined to do better. That is
all any of us can do. I hope u have a good
day!!!! Homerx may not be
back on til tommorrow-- He sends u and
Bobbie his love and will catch up with
ya"ll soon. Bobbette
Hi
Mson and Bobbie and Bobbet! I am home and had
lots of fun. As Bobbet has told you
(thanks Bobbette) I am working with Rick
getting the flores done but had to shout
out at you and let you know how much I
missed you. Rick went to town and I am
unpacking old boxes and going threw stuff
so the closets wont be full of junk! This is taking
forever but I had to say hi.
Mson, you look GREAT
really, you look so good and so cute
I will be back on here tomorrow at some
point. Rick goes back to work tomorrow. I
have been missing you.
Talk to you soon...Mson, I have to say it
again, you look GREAT You look healthy
and you have some weight on you..thats
really good!
I missed you...have to run...thanks again
Bobbett for sending my messages threw you.
XOXO,Homer
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Homerx Posted: 07-14-08 21:11pm
We missed you Homerx. What can I say.
Seems like Ricky never went on his trip.
I missed you so much that I dreamed about
tiles.
Glad to hear you had a lovely time and
even though the work at home is tough,
things must be a lot cleaner. Hope Ricky
likes his new birthday present. And you
guys decided to do the guest room while
you were at it. Marvelous Darling
marvelous.
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Homerx. Posted: 07-15-08 00:21am
I have not seen Bobbie today but she was
right with me everyday you were gone.
Very encouraging and mature. I love that
woman - Bobbie.
Bobbette was awesome and I hope she stays
with us. for being friends
for so long. Over 32 years. You were a
teenager Homerx...
This is my day Homerx.
10:51am got out of bed.
11:20am breakfast.
11:28am watched my shows. Watched TD
Jakes. He was talking about leaving the
garbage behind and follow Christ.
12:33pm, gave my BH a massage that I
missed on Friday.
12:54pm finished the massage. Back to
watching Clefro Dollar. He is saying that
we must understand God's will, God's why
and
God's way. God has a desire to prosper
his people. After patiently enduring, I
will receive what I am paying for.
Now I am listening to Joyce Meyer.
Nothing more powerful than a consistent
witness. We are a direct personal
representative of Jesus Christ. Habits
are very important. We are weak in fresh
but mbae the new birth we become sons and
daughters of God. Hallelujah. We
will have hard times, we will go through
things but we are more than conquerers.
Bold, aggressive conquerors. That
attitude is what we should have.
I may not have what I need in the fresh
but I have what I need in the spirit. We
are supposed to let our light shine. We
have to form new habits. I know I do.
When you look yourself in the mirror, you
are more than a body. You are spirit.
Joyce gave an example of how some people
don't do their dishes after dinner and in
the morning one is depressed about it.
She was talking to me directly. Sin no
longer has any authority over me.
1:59pm. Show over. I better have lunch.
Duckling left over from the restaurant.
That and a bun. Yummy.
2:24pm finished doing a hundred and fifty
skips of rope.
2:30pm watching a movie "The usual
suspects"
5:01pm end of movie. Spectacular movie.
Loved the ending.
6:29 back from my walk. I went to a store
just for fun and I met Pascale and her
friend. I had fun but nothing fits me
Went and did the labyrinth walk and went
shopping for juice, lunchmeat and buns.
As I was walking home, saying my prayers,
I met with my friend John. He had been
trying to sell tapes to get $5 for I had $5 in
change. He will pay me back and if he
doesn't, he once gave me $5.
6:47pm having Chinese food. The ground
beef never defrost.
It is now 10:21 pm. I get my massage
that BH missed on Sunday.
Good Morning
Sunshine!
I got out of bed to go to the bathroom and
the computer called me Mson was sending me
cards! How COOL! I don't know how to
do that. I like it.
OK, I am going back to bed, its 9:42 but I
am sleepy still and my throat hurts...
maybe all the dust
we stirred up
But I feel drained so today I told Ricky I
am taking it EZ so I am going back to bed
and fall asleep with the TV, the dogs and
Talk to you
more this afternoon,have a great day.
I had fun but I am happy to be home..home
is where the heart is.
Peace and Love,
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Homerx. Posted: 07-15-08 16:20pm
It is 12:30pm. I was out of bed around
8:36am ready to go and help my friend
clean. Then she sent a message that she
had been called to work. I read what you
had written and I went back to bed. I
have decided one should rest when one is
tired.
I have had breakfast. I am going to skip
rope (have you been exercising?) I guess
too much was going on. You will go back
to your routine.
Sorry to hear you are not feeling well.
At least this time you did not injure
yourself on vacation or with all the work
you have been doing.
It sounds like you are uncluttering. That
is awesome.
12:36pm, skipping rope....I skipped a
hundred and fifty nine today.
12:41pm. Doing the candle prayers. It is
a form of medication where I am praying
while look at something that reminds me of
that person or event that I am praying
for. I missed doing the prayers
yesterday. I really need a timetable but
they said they were going to rewrite the
duty roster at work and so I am waiting
for that. The only days I will wake up
early are the days I work in the morning
and Tuesdays when I do laundry and Fridays
when I clean. Other days I just until I wake up.
Who am I trying to impress? I have asked
the doctor about reducing my olanzopine
and he said we will see about it in three
months. I am gaining weight like crazy.
That is September when I see the doctor.
I won't carry guilt in me for all that
time. I am not depressed, just really
tired in the mornings.
Anyway, let me light that candle.
12:47pm.
12:59pm. I am going to treat my hair.
Every 15th and end of the month I treat
it.
1:41pm. Finished with the hair. I feel
fresh. Time to have lunch.
Our friend is visiting. He didn't stay
long. Our other friend Daak is here. He
just got back from Spain doing a masters
degree in Economics. People like to drop
mbae here because we are downtown and most
of the time we are home.
Quite the sight I woke up to this morning
Homerx. I looked over the loft and BH was
masturbating. I
had told him we should wait until my
birthday on Thursday. I guess he could
not wait. Oh well. I had to
pee so I went downstairs and acted like I
didn't see him doing that. He stopped
when he heard me walking down.
Masturbation is what he does during baby
making to collect sperm and I have never
seen him do it before. Awkward. Later I
told him I was sorry for interrupting his
thing and he said not for long. Funny
guy. I masturbate lots myself so
I cannot be mad at him. Anyway, I don't
know why I am telling you this. I guess
because it happened. He watches porn to
help him out. I haven't watched porn in a
long time. I don't mind it.
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July 15,08 Posted: 07-15-08 20:59pm
My shift ends in twenty minutes. There
was today at work. My
friend Vincent a few years older than me
came in carrying his dog without a leash.
He explained to me in tears that his
partner Bruce beat him up. Why I asked?
Because he refused to get cocaine on loan
for Bruce. $20 worth. Imagine that. It
was very sad to see. Vincent went to the
police and he told me he will get a
restraining order against Bruce and then
go to his Mum's house. He ran out with
his dog poor baby.
I am against violence and pray against it
everyday. Lord have mercy.
BH and I were invited for a home made
pizza but I could not go because I leave
work at 7:15pm. Mbae the time I take the
bus out there, it will almost be time to
get home.
My friend Tim and I are going an East
Indian buffet. Hopefully they are open.
Wish that I could say but it would not be
the truth. Went to the bank to get an
extension and they said they are really
cracking down on new loans and that they
can cut off your line of credit for any
reason. Scary really.
So I am putting the other property and
vineyard up for sale. Hope for a good
buyer and let it go. I can't live with
this worry. Now come to find out Lee way
overcharged me by over $45,000.00 plus for
what other people were charging at the
time. I trusted him and believed him and
he was just a liar and a cheat.
It is hard to love someone who in the end
does that to you and not only that he did
it in the beginning. No fool like an old
fool but the party is over. The thing is
I was so scared and kept telling him I
didn't want to put my home in danger.
That falls on deft ears to a person out to
take what you have.
Mson, knows what I am talking about with
that Amy. Good for you. You were
patient, you waited and when the perfect
moment presented itself, you pounced and
gave it to her and she, thankfully, was
sober enough to actually hear you. GOOD
FOR YOU MSON.
Starting to wear on me this going out
every three hours, every day to turn on
the watering stations because Lee was to
cheap to put in an automatic system. I am
starting to want more out of my life than
being a field worker no matter how much I
love my plants.
Went to the movies with the new guy from
church. He is very nice and is quite
affectionate but I can't be with him like
that. He gives me a kiss on the cheek
when we part. Going dancing in the city
park on Friday and he will help me later
with the olive oil festival.
Homer, so glad you are home dear heart. I
am wondering if maybe when you and Ricky
tore up your flooring, there might have
been mold spores that have made you feel
sick. It can happen. Be
careful.
Love to you all.
Bobbie
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Posted: 07-16-08 11:52am
Hi my friends.
Bobbie, yeah, I think it might be from
tearing out the flores and travel...I am
just wore out. Sorry you are still having
"you know who" issues..
bad seeds seem to hang around
forever...dont call him or bother
him,dearest...let it go. He is not good
for you.
Mson, I have not exercised since I have
been back but I have been doing a lot of
manual labor so does that count?
I have a doctor appointment at 1:30 My nurse
called and said to come C her. My lymph
node is the size of a lemon It doesn't seem to
hurt quite as bad as yesterday but that
may be wish full thinking on my part. Did I mention that
my lymph nod on the left had swollen up so
big?? I cant recall..
I have to drive the pick up to town and
there is no AC in the pick up so its gonna
be horrible...its 95 degrees here and
humid. I will drive with the windows open
and Bobbette sugested I take an ice pack
to put on my neck while driving. good idea...she is
a smart cookie when it comes to ...she is a
nurse,did I tell you that already?
Mson, I had to laugh when you said you
caught BH masturbating..
that is so funny and kind of cute...you 2
are adorable.
I will write more when I get back from the
Wish me luck!
Love,
Homer
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Bobbie my dear! Posted: 07-16-08 15:30pm
Roberta777
wrote:
I am starting to want more
out of my life than being a field worker
no matter how much I love my plants.
Bobbie
I am sorry to hear that Lee over charged
mbae soo much.
The other day you said that your plants
come first. Now you are saying something
different. It is all in the way we look
at it. We are allowed to change our minds
but try not to be rushed in decision
making. You are being forced mbae the
bank to do this and if this is what you
really want, then do it. But think
clearly about the pros and cons. Still
praying for you Bobbie.
Glad to hear you went to the movies. Very
good for you Bobbie to get out there with
the new guy from church. A kiss on the
cheek ...cute. Doesn't
leave you wanting more? Just kidding...
All the best.
Love
Mson
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I have thought about it Posted: 07-16-08 15:54pm
long and hard Mson and I don't see an
easy way out. When we put in that
vineyard two years ago, I was scared about
taking an equity line of credit out
against my home Walter left me paid for
free and clear. Many times I told Lee I
was afraid. He always said everything
would be alright. Well things were not
alright. After he got me sexually, he got
me monitarily. But, that is his MO.
I have never lived with debt and it is the
thought that consumes me more than any
other thing worrying about how to pay
these bills. This way, if I find a buyer,
I can pay off that debt and put it behind
me. Walter always said if I got into
trouble, I could sell that other parcel.
As it stands, Lee lied again telling me it
would add value to my parcel. No. It
doesn't. The only way it will help me is
if they let me lease the vineyard and
manage the crops and give them back a
percentage.
We live and we learn Mson.
Lee was actually somebody I once loved and
for a long time now, I sit there and
listen to his version of the story and it
just doesn't make sense. He is trying to
convince himself that he is right,
everybody else is wrong. I have always
said, stop and think if you think
everybody is against you, maybe you are
the one who is wrong.
A good thing is being with him and all the
stress and worry he brought into my life,
my hair was falling out. Now it is coming
back and looks good again. That alone
tells me my body was saying Throw The Bum
Out!!!
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Homerx. Posted: 07-16-08 15:57pm
Manual labor is good exercise. Move all
the muscles around. I am glad you have a
doctor's appointment. What did they say.
A lymph node the size of a lemon ? Lord have mercy
now. Baby doll, you have no idea how
scared I am of swollen lymph nodes. I
have seen a couple of really big ones.
You hang in there kido. I am ing for you my
dear. You tell it like it is not serious
but that is serious. Oh Jesus!
In Kenya we were driven around with
vehicles without AC. That is a taste of
Kenya for you right there. Hope it wasn't
too bad.
I have lived with BH since June 2003 and I
had never seen him masturbate before. In
fact, I have never seen a man masturbating
before in real life. Today he asked me if
we are going to do the do tomorrow and I
said yes. I've been waiting unlike him.
But I think girls can wait while guys have
trouble because I hear they think about
sex a lot. Anyway, it was a funny sight.
Please let us know what the doctor said.
I'll try not to panic too much.
I have not seen Bobbette here since you
got back.
All the best Homerx. I must get ready for
work. They asked me yesterday if I could
work today and I agreed. I cannot say no
when the purse is
empty, the credit card payment purse is
empty and food purse is empty too.
Yesterday's money was supposed to go to
the credit card purse but I spent some on
. So then,
today's money will go to the credit card
purse. I am really glad they called me
in.
Wi chat later.
Love
Mson
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The New Guy is nice but I hesitate to even
get the kiss on the cheek. He is not my
type Mson. I like big hunky guys. But,
maybe it is also nice to have company.
You said so yourself Mson.
I opened a bottle of Domaine Chandon, only
one bottle left, after the realtor left.
That is something Walter and I would do
after making such a big decision. I think
he would be glad to have me not worry so
much.
Mson, we have talked about this. I don't
want a relationship not with HPV. I have
a bad scar and it is ugly. The scar on my
heart is even worse.
I love you beyond worlds Mson for your
love and prayers for me. I know that as
my sweet mother always said, God will put
an angel in front of you to test your
kindess and you are that angel to me Mson.
May God Bless You In All Good Ways,
Beloved Husband, and May God Bless You
With A New Child Of Your Own.
Love,
Bobbie
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Re: Homerx. Posted: 07-16-08 16:38pm
Muthoni
wrote:
Manual labor is good
exercise. Move all the muscles around. I
am glad you have a doctor's appointment.
What did they say. A lymph node the size
of a lemon ? Lord have mercy
now. Baby doll, you have no idea how
scared I am of swollen lymph nodes. I
have seen a couple of really big ones.
You hang in there kido. I am ing for you my
dear. You tell it like it is not serious
but that is serious. Oh Jesus!
Please let us know what the doctor said.
I'll try not to panic too much.
I have not seen Bobbette here since you
got back.
All the best Homerx.
Mson, thank you so much for being
concerned for me. I really appreciate you
thinking of me. I love our love!
You seeing BH still cracks me up! I cant believe you
have never seen him masturbate..
Rick and I do that together some times.
Was that too much information?
Anyway, I go backto the doc next Friday.
They stuck a needle in my neck and took
out some fluid then they hooked me to an
IV and filled a drip with antibiotic.
My neck now has a band aid on it along
with my arm...I am like a pin cushion!
but thats OK. I
thank GOD I have access to docs and meds
and wont complain. I love these
faces... I can go crazy
with them
Anyway, time to chill out, and maybe
and then for a bit. Have
fun at work...Bobbette...say HELLO some
time
Love and peace,
Homer
Mson, have fun at work...its a real good
job you have!
for bringing us
messages from Homerx and participating in
this topic. You are awesome.
I say deal with
what you have done here and now not wait
until the end, for the end is forever.
That is what your uncle needs to do. Look
into the mirror of his soul and admit what
he did to you as a little girl was
unforgiveable. Molestation, plain and
simple. I know you said your parents
drank during the time you were little.
Maybe they just weren't paying attention
to you children. 
, no
matter the title, you are in a new
relationship. That is amazing. Keep it
up, keep things simple and enjoy Bobbie.
Hi
Mson and Bobbie and Bobbet! 
I am home and had
lots of fun. As Bobbet has told you
(thanks Bobbette) I am working with Rick
getting the flores done but had to shout
out at you and let you know how much I
missed you. Rick went to town and I am
unpacking old boxes and going threw stuff
so the closets wont be full of junk! 
This is taking
forever but I had to say hi. 
really, you look so good and so cute 
I don't know how to
do that. 
I like it. 
maybe all the dust
we stirred up 
until I wake up.
Who am I trying to impress? I have asked
the doctor about reducing my olanzopine
and he said we will see about it in three
months. I am gaining weight like crazy.
That is September when I see the doctor.
I won't carry guilt in me for all that
time. I am not depressed, just really
tired in the mornings.
Oh well. I had to
pee so I went downstairs and acted like I
didn't see him doing that. He stopped
when he heard me walking down.
My nurse
called and said to come C her. My lymph
node is the size of a lemon 
good idea...she is
a smart cookie when it comes to 
...she is a
nurse,did I tell you that already? 
? Lord have mercy
now. Baby doll, you have no idea how
scared I am of swollen lymph nodes. I
have seen a couple of really big ones.
You hang in there kido. I am 
ing for you my
dear. You tell it like it is not serious
but that is serious. Oh Jesus!
I love our love!
Was that too much information? 
but thats OK. I
thank GOD I have access to docs and meds
and wont complain. 
I love these
faces... 
