Yes that is the green scarf.
I can tie it on my
head, waist and wear it as a scarf.
Homerx, I have gone through so much
sadness that if I am not smiling, I look
sad. I don't know how to change that. It
is as a result of years of worry. Thanks
for being honest.
Ya I was lucky to find this love seat.
We were worried
the cat might scratch it but she hasn't.
I would love to have a photo of you and
Ricky. It is only today I started praying
for Ricky as well. I was concentrating on
you but I feel that he too needs prayers.
BH is alright with the idea.
I won't lie to you but I am really
affected mbae your swollen lymph node. BH
has some lime and I asked him if they were
lemons. I can never tell the difference.
I should though, one is green and one is
yellow. They are about the same size said
BH. Then I told him you had a lymph node
that size. The look on his face
Extremely sad
Homerx.
I am glad you went to the doctor
when you did. Sad
to say but one of my relatives in Kenya
had a swelling on his neck the size of a
large mango! He died. But my friend in
Canada who had a swelling like that was
operated on and the lymph node removed.
He is alive and kicking.
That gives me hope
for you. Both my friends were/are living
with AIDS. I am in shock
but I am praying
and I am sure we will all be OK soon.
for the song. I
cried and choked.
You are very at peace though.
I
long to have your strength Homerx. I have
hope with the medical professionals. Even
if it is lymphoma (I am reading about it),
I trust the doctors can do something for
you my sweetheart. Lord have mercy.
I don't feel like writing about my day
before work but I will write because we
have to carry on. What did the doctor
tell you it was?
Oh Jesus!
9:06am, out of bed. No alarm and felt
fully rested. Neat.
9:20am finished skipping 155 skips. You
are my inspiration Homerx and I know soon
you will be able to
.
9:30am had a
and I
finished my devotional prayers.
9:53am clothes in the washer.
9:57am breakfast and watching my taped
shows.
10:28am clothes in the dryer.
Jesus for washing
machines.
11:20am shows are over. I have to watch
Zorba the Greek. I have the book. One
person who is a writer - Andrew, he told
me that I write like the writer of Zorba
the Greek. Intensity and madness. I took
it as a compliment.
11:22am listening to Super Trouper ABBA
and more as I do dishes and waiting for
laundry...Now I am listening to Josh
Groban - "You raise me up"
11:44am clothes folded and put away. Back
to the dishes.
Joyce Meyer was preaching that instead of
saying "I have to do dishes," I should
say, "I want to do dishes, I choose to do
dishes."
Listening to, "Take a chance on me"
ABBA.
BH is out with Chris. They are canning
the beer they brewed. A batch for the
summer. It is a pilsner light beer.
12;42pm dishes are done and just finished
doing the candle prayers. I am having a
good day today.
12:56 Chris and BH are back. The beer is
not ready. Will be ready tomorrow
morning. The brewery people will can it
for them because they made a mistake.
1:00pm, time for lunch.
2:20pm, off to work.
We are having dinner soon. Meatballs
mixed with onion, corn, red pepper and
ginger with stuffing mixed with the same.
I gotta
As you mentioned all the things you wish
to do or have, you missed
. You need
that medicine.
Wi chat later.
Please get well fast.
Love
Mson
to know another.
May God bless you too and 
I love our love!
I cant believe you
have never seen him masturbate.. 
Rick and I do that together some times.
Was that too much information? 
but thats OK. I
thank GOD I have access to docs and meds
and wont complain. 
for a bit. Have
fun at work...Bobbette...say HELLO some
time 
He
was just going at it. 
I
actually remembered I had seen a guy
masturbate in a park in Kenya. I was
sitting on the same bench as him. I was
in college. Just the beginning of my
twenties. I was disgusted. And my first
reaction to BH was anger and then I
quickly remembered that I masturbate a lot
myself. Especially in the bath. Hehe.
I tip my hat to
you. 
I wish she would
not have told him that. I can take bad
news but Ricky is more fragile i think.
Anyway, I go back on Friday and will not
worry about it until I know for sure. i
still believe it is an infection because
it was not there at bed time and when I
woke at 5 AM it was there and then by
morning it was huge and hurt...lymphoma
doesn't work that way I don't think...does
it,Bobbette?? 
But I believe in
life after death and am not afraid. If
something were to happen to me then I
would miss you all and Ricky and my dogs
and Mother earth but I am not scared. Life
is good...until the end,life is good. 
It is a gift from
GOD and I accept that gift with open arms
and a open warm heart. 
I will always
live...always and forever. I have been
here before and I will be here
again...maybe not on this planet or in
this form but I will live on...Glory be To
God 
then all is well as
far as I am concerned...I have a feeling
every little thing is gonna be alright!
no shocker there 
I took a extra
Darvi for the pain,called my nurse and
left her a message as she had left. I
asked for a pain killer of some sort but I
already feel better and less swollen.
Maybe between the Darvie and the 
and the 
now, thank the Lord
for 
a digital camera
I am trying not to
worry too much but I am scared I have to
admit...gezz...life is so strange...
and go to the post
office and hope a check is in the mail!!!
