Last June I got really ill and couldn't
eat, I lost a lot of weight and ever since
i've been obsessed with losing weight and
restricting (Before this I always had a
bad body image and had dieted but never to
this extent).I'm 17 years old and i'm
trying hard to deal with my ED without
worrying those who care about me but it's
not getting any easier.
It was all ok at first but since about
November it's been spiraling out of
control, i've made myself sick a few times
but i'm mostly just restricting. I'm not
particularly thin or fat (height and
weight removed by tinkinink84) but I just
can't accept my body as it is.
I spend my day hungry and feeling
completely miserable, wishing I could eat
like everyone else and not feel like
everyone was judging me and calling me
fat. My friends know I don't eat and just
sort of accept it, I can't talk to them
because I don't want them to think i'm
weak and pathetic because i've always been
the strong one in our group who never crys
and looks after other people. I'm also
worried that they'll think I want
attention, one of them has said this in
the past.
I get really bad headaches, bad skin,
chest pains, dizziness, fatigue, blue nail
beds, insomnia, mood swings and generally
only have a period once every 2 or 3
months. Some times I don't allow myself to
sleep until i've done hours of exercise
and other times I have to concentrate
really hard on not being sick after i've
eaten because I feel so fat.
Next year i'm going to university, I know
it will get worse, I really need any help
you can give me.
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Galaxy
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Joined: 15 Mar 2006 Posts: 514 Location: U.K,
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Posted: 02-19-08 16:31pm
Your BMI is 18 which is underweight. You
are too thin even to be a supermodel, so
please think about this. You are no doubt
already 'worrying those who care about
you' so please stop trying to deal with
this on your own. You need to face up to
the fact that you need help, now, before
it starts to impact on your studies and
you don't make it to university next year.
Please speak to a school counsellor if
not a parent. Nothing bad is going to
happen to you, no one is going to force
feed you, but you may find that by just
talking about your worries and your low
self esteem, the situation will start to
resolve itself. Do it today. You will
destroy your health if you leave it much
longer.
Good luck and keep posting. I would like
to know how you are doing.
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perfectionist
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Feb 2008 Posts: 8 Location: ,
thanks Posted: 02-19-08 16:50pm
I'm going to try and speak to someone,
maybe a helpline or something (we don't
have a school councillor/nurse at my
school and my parents would freak out).
