my life is a mess at the moment, i was so
sick last year that i could not graduate
from the university but i cant tell anyone
not even my boyfriend. now i leave the
house every morning with every one
thinking im going to work but reaaly i
just go and hide out in the local library.
im so ashamed of my self i really dont
know what to do. i and my relationship ia
also a mess, im cheating on my boyfriend
with this other guy who is crazily in love
with me but i just like him as a friend
but he is always there. mt boyfriend has
no idea but the other guy knows about my
man. every thing about my life sucks i
keep gaining weight but i can t even lose
weight. i hate my self and i hate my life
i really feel so depressed. pls help wat
can i do. pls dont judge me i beat my self
up already.
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georgina23
Supporter
Joined: 19 Feb 2008 Posts: 24
Hi there Posted: 02-21-08 16:04pm
Hi honey
I don't think anyone judges you on this
forum. One thing at a time sweetheart. Why
where you sick and why can't you tell
anyone about it?
xx
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confused_com
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Feb 2008 Posts: 2
Posted: 02-22-08 06:15am
apparently i had some some of arthritis
and i was in pain for months so i could
not finish my final year project , i tried
to keep it to my self but i guess it got
out of hand . then it was to late to give
it in although my supervisors were so nice
but they could only give me limited time.
i could not tell my parent i could not
finish cause their expectation of me was
very high, i was always the grade A
student now everyone seem to be doing well
except me. i know this is wrong but i have
even contemplated on running away or even
just dying off, then at least i will have
nothing to worry about any more. im fed up
i dont know who i can talk to about
everything i feel like i will explode.
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georgina23
Supporter
Joined: 19 Feb 2008 Posts: 24
ok... Posted: 02-26-08 11:18am
... arthritis is awful.
Secondly, there is no-one else in this
world you need to please except yourself.
You are entitled to live your life as you
feel is right for you.
Expectation is a dirty word in my book. If
you are 'right' with yourself, the rest
will fall into place - or go away. But
that is other people's choice - you are
not responsible. You are only responsible
for getting better, getting your life back
on track IN THE WAY THAT YOU WANT TO LIVE
IT.
May i suggest, if you haven't already,
that you seek counselling (arthritis like
problems can be related to emotional
trauma - don't know if this applies) and
even a homoeopath/acupuncturist or
similar. Shiatsu massage is also very
good.
Why not make a list of just three things
you'd like to change. Don't be frightened
of this list. it is for you - so be bold
(sensing you've lost some confidence due
to perceived outside pressures) and write
down what YOU want.
Could be:
Apply to retake final year
Stop being with both guys and take some
time out for just yourself
Go out with some real friends for a good
belly laugh
Tell your parents that you are not well
and need their help
Read up on foods that make you feel great
and help arthritis
Clear out your wardrobe even !! Reinvent
yourself if you like.
Get a new haircut - feel glamorous and in
control again
