ktthefreak
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bipolar disorder sucks
Posted: 02-23-08 19:43pm
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atleast at this time..
/sigh 
i especially feel bad when i'm feeling
anti-social and don't want to hang out
with my friends.. hope they understand!?
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antigone
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Posted: 02-23-08 21:30pm
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I am so sorry you are struggling! My son
wished he had friends. He is so lonely.
Your friends should understand. Do you
explain to them that you are just feeling
out of sorts and need to be alone at
times. I know this doesn't help much. Hope
you feel better soon.
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noisesnob
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I know exactly...
Posted: 02-24-08 09:27am
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... how you feel. just the other day I was
thinking about duct taping the door to my
room closed. I love my roommates... but
sometimes I need a good couple of days
with no human contact.
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Seraph
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Same here...
Posted: 02-25-08 08:55am
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... especially with my irretateability
being through the roof at present.
My family used to get cross with me and
think that I wasn't interested in spending
time with them. Nowadays they just leave
me be...not that they fully understand...
They always feel like I am turning into an
anti-social hermit, wrapped in his own
world and caring for no one else. While
in fact, it's totally the opposite. I
tend to care waaay more about others than
what I do my self and end up neglecting my
self. Maybe that's why I sometimes need
so much "alone time"...because I drain my
self, being concerned over others the
whole time.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 02-25-08 13:45pm
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I find it's helpful to give family and
friends literature, either brochures (you
can find some at the NIMH website) or
books like "An unquiet mind"
just helps them to understand and know
when to leave you alone.
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Nowhere Man
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Posted: 02-25-08 16:12pm
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| Georgia59
wrote: | I find it's helpful to give
family and friends literature, either
brochures (you can find some at the NIMH
website) or books like "An unquiet mind"
just helps them to understand and know
when to leave you
alone. |
My problem is that they won't take the
time to read about what bp is, yet they
seem to have plenty of time to play
psychiatrist and diagnose me with
something else, or minimalize the
disorder, or just stand there with puzzled
looks on their faces.
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Georgia59
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Posted: 02-25-08 19:29pm
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Ooh, that sucks.
If you are in therapy, sometimes bringing
family in to a therapy session is helpful.
But therapy is less common with bpd, so
that doesn't really help I guess.
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Nowhere Man
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Posted: 02-25-08 21:05pm
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| Georgia59
wrote: | Ooh, that sucks.
If you are in therapy, sometimes bringing
family in to a therapy session is helpful.
But therapy is less common with bpd, so
that doesn't really help I
guess. |
Well, my pdoc kind of started therapy
during our last session but that's really
not his specialty. Actually, all the
"therapy" did was make me manic right
there on the spot! It took me three
bloody days to calm down. Maybe it was an
experiment to find out if I needed a med
adjustment--well, I got one. I hope he
doesn't try therapy again because I don't
think it will ever work for me.
As for bringing family, I don't think I
could handle that much drama. There's
already too much anxiety and drama by
myself, which is one reason why I put off
getting help for so long. Anyway, even
though they're ignorant about bp, my
family is patient with me most of the
time. So, I guess it could be worse...
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Seraph
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Posted: 02-26-08 04:05am
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My family usually finds some way to blame
EVERYTHING on me. They don't believe in
the fact that my body is "out of whack".
Even with my knees. They somehow seem to
think that it is my fault that my knee
caps sits too high up...
Everything has to be my fault...kind of
thing.
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puzzld
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Re: bipolar disorder sucks
Posted: 03-01-08 10:12am
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| ktthefreak
wrote: | atleast at this time..
/sigh
i especially feel bad when i'm feeling
anti-social and don't want to hang out
with my friends.. hope they
understand!? |
hey pretty lady. i have been there and
know how you feel. i still go there! over
time, my life long friends stuck around
without expectations. the other so called
friends, forget them and stick with the
one's who love you no matter how long you
hibernate  it takes time to
recognize the good from the bad but don't
tax yourself with that... remember, the
good friends will always stick around.
when u feel up to it give a call or two...
try discussing what you are experiencing,
if u feel comfortable w/that.
i lean way more toward the dark side, too.
hang in there. 
xoxo
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ktthefreak
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Posted: 03-02-08 20:18pm
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hey guysss.
didn't get on for a while... reading all
of these make me happyyy. can definitely
relate to you all. feels good to have
people who understand and care, i
appreciate the responses!
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ktthefreak
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Posted: 03-02-08 20:20pm
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| Seraph
wrote: | My family usually finds some
way to blame EVERYTHING on me. They don't
believe in the fact that my body is "out
of whack". Even with my knees. They
somehow seem to think that it is my fault
that my knee caps sits too high up...
Everything has to be my fault...kind of
thing. |
Eh, that sucks. my family is pretty
understanding for the most part, so i
guess im lucky >.< hey atleast you
have usss!?
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Seraph
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Posted: 03-04-08 03:23am
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Yes  ... Plus, if I
don't like what someone is saying, I can
ignore them without them screaming "Don't
you walk away from me!"
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cclovers
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Posted: 03-05-08 12:32pm
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I know exactly how you feel. I just had a
lay in bed all day kind of day yesterday.
Generally, I feel guilty the whole time
I'm doing it but I just "can't want to"
when it comes to stuff like holding my own
head up. Some things are just too much
trouble when you've had enough and you
crash and burn. Lucky me also hears
voices so I try to stay physically active
most of the time so I don't have to hear
anything but I want to take one moment to
brag/give advice. Doing this got me a
free trip to happy land for 14 days
between episodes of not wanting to get up.
You might want to take up a new activity
that is solitary. Painting, riding a
bike, who knows. I wish you all the luck
in the world though. This is hard and
you'll need it.
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cclovers
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Posted: 03-05-08 12:36pm
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oh yeah, I don't like people either. T
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z8NeonGenesis
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Posted: 03-05-08 18:09pm
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Hey dude,
Im really sorry your like this i just wish
there was someway we could help you bro
Peace
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cclovers
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Posted: 03-06-08 14:41pm
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Thanks alot. ktthefreak is right. It
feels good for someone to understand and
care. Yeah, Peace. Great sign off. I
love that word.
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freakyfashionista
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Posted: 03-09-08 22:57pm
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totally understand. I also don't like
people. never have, actually, and am a bad
actress when I have to pretend.
yeah, exercise is great, but getting
yourself to do it is hard when you don't
want to get out of bed like I did before I
started a low dose of medication.
we know how you feel and you don't have
to pretend here. we want to hear it.
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cclovers
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Any bonding beats no bonding
Posted: 03-10-08 18:17pm
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If I have received a blessing it's how to
talk to people without actually having to
meet anyone. I can totallly relate to
being a bad actress, but have you ever
thought to ask someone who was with you
how you did? I have. I'm bold. Can't
hurt, degrade, or embarrass any further
than the things in your head choose to
torment you with. My doctor recently put
me on Xanax, but that doesn't exacxtly
have me springing out of bed in the
morning either. My point is that most of
our problem is in our head and just to
find out that you don't make the spectacle
of yourself that you think you do could
make alot of difference in your
self-esteem. Let me go back to GOD DON'T
MAKE NO JUNK! If you ever need that SHOT
IN THE ARMand I can be of any assistance,
I may not be on the top of alot of resume
lists but I do know how to care for my
fellowman without much coaching, and as
strong as I think I am, there are just
some things you can't pull off real smooth
byourself. I pray that we all receive
relief with Godspeed. I already said I
liked this saying, I'm just a hippy at
heart.
Peace
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2ccetta
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Bipolar sucks
Posted: 05-09-08 19:18pm
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Hell Yeah. i am SOOOOO glad I found this
site. I don't feel so......left out
anymore.
I've been feeling pretty screwed up
lately. My cycles have been speeding up
really bad lately. (lot of downtime) I
have pretty much just stopped talking to
people for a couple weeks, but I'm so
lonely. I seem to lose friends everytime I
talk to someone. I always want to get in a
fight at the drop of a pin.
This really makes me realize how much I
hate my life, but it helps knowing someone
will read this, and maybe even care.
You guys all rock.
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