I want to die I really want to die....I
have lost my baby.....Sorry I have not
been on in awhile but tons has happened
and i'll never be the same........
I was at rickys apartment when my dad came
over and he was pounding on the door
yelling stuff saying he was going to have
ricky aressted because I am underage hes
19 and I am 17 , he yelled to let him in
and we refused but he demanded and then I
yelled that if he calmed down I would let
him in but he couldn't yell any more....
So he did and when he came in he was all
calm and red faced and I said" daddy this
is my choice if you and mom don't want me
to have this baby then I will live with
ricky but it would be much easier with
your support... He started screaming
again and then he started swinging at
ricky I yelled and screamed and told him
to get out and he smaked me across the
face I was so shocked I started crying and
then ricky just started attacking him I
opened the door to walk out and yell for
someone to call the cops (rickys phone got
disconnected the other day) and they both
came charging towards me I tried to move
out of the way but I couldn't they pushed
me to the ground and they landed on me..
Ricky started screaming he was so scared
for the baby and me he told my dad to
f-ing leave or else he would regret it and
so my dad got up told me he never wanted
to speak to either of us again and stormed
away ricky helped me into the house and I
had a huge bruise starting from my ankle
to my hip and it hurt so bad the bruise
was from the way I slid across the ground
at first my stomach hurt really bad but
after about 30 minutes it stopped I went
to bed and I thought everything was fine
but the next morning I woke up and the bed
was full of blood I started screaming
which woke ricky up an when he seen all
the blood he ran to the neighbors and
called 911 the ambulance came and on the
way to the hospital the medics told me I
lost my baby I started screaming and
crying.. I have endured all this pain and
caca from my parents and for what nothing
absolutely nothing no baby no parents just
ricky who is so torn up that he can't even
speak to me he thinks that it is all his
fault..... When my mom came to see me in
the hospital I could hear her fighting
with my dad in the hall she told him not
to come in the room she walked in and she
was like oh honey i'm so sorry but you
know it was for the best what were you and
that da mn boytoy of yours going to do
with a baby anyways? You couldn't raise a
child and he would have killed it...I
can't believe this I feel so empty inside
there is no little life inside of me
anymore I wanted my baby me and ricky
would have been fine... I don't know what
to do I can't handle this
just to let everyone know I won't be back
here any longer i'm not pregnant so I
don't need your advice but thank you all
for your help in the beginning ......My
baby my baby......
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TiNaBo0314
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2004 Posts: 273 Location: Maryland
Posted: 05-11-04 05:15am
Thats really terrible, im so sorry u had
to go through that I hope
that u feel better soon, and u should get
someone arrested for what happened to u,
thats assault, and u shouldn't have to go
through the pain!
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 05-11-04 05:23am
Last edited by insurancegirl on 10-22-04 15:22pm; edited 1 time in total
Joined: 09 Apr 2004 Posts: 823 Location: New Jersey
Posted: 05-11-04 06:34am
Im so sorry to hear that! I hope you find
the strenght to cope with this!
<3
gaby
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linuxChique
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2004 Posts: 4535
Posted: 05-11-04 06:43am
Oh my gosh! Be strong girl - you've got
yourself. You can get through this.
We'll support you if you'll let us!
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theoryofthought
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 May 2004 Posts: 168
Posted: 05-11-04 06:45am
I am terribly sorry for your loss. You
may want to join a support group with
other teens who have lost children as
well. They are a huge help in relieving a
lot of the hurt. I would be happy to
speak with you further if you wish to
talk.
I hope
that u feel better soon, and u should get
someone arrested for what happened to u,
thats assault, and u shouldn't have to go
through the pain!
