Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
:( a Few Things.... Posted: 05-17-04 04:58am
I need to vent.. Im getting
upset...Again.. I just feel so out of
it!! I am starting to feel like im not
going to be enough for my son.. And that
he deserves better like maybe a home where
they were ready in their lives, prepared
finanically and everything ya know? I
mean I work full time , make decent money,
I work for gm service parts center.. I
am busting my health question for my son
but I feel like its never enough. And I
feel bad because I know he most likely
wont have a good father. I just feel
bad..Ive heard its normal to feel like
this during pregnancy sometimes? But I
hate it. I hate feeling like this.
Also..I feel like I miss being a teenager
ya know? Like goin out, the partying,
etc etc. I know having my son will be
such more of a blessing tho.. But
sometimes it gets to my head.Last night I
went to a wedding and reception and there
were so many young guys there, you know
ages 20-25 range especially and b4, I
would have no problem talking to the guys
and wouldve met some or 1 ya know? But
last nite I just thought the whole time
''why would they be interested in me when
theres all these other girls my age that
arent pregnant?" and I also felt stupid
like I always do, bein the preg girl at
the party. So I only danced a little bit
and felt stupid doing it the whole time.
My parents kept asking me why I looked so
down and that a reception is supposed to
be fun. (it was my cousins reception)
what is wrong with me? I dont wanna
become a gloomy-depressed person! Maybe
its just a normal stage we go through..
Thanks~
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little_woman
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Mar 2004 Posts: 765
Posted: 05-17-04 05:03am
I'm sorry kari, but no youre not turning
into a depressed gloomy person, its fine
to vent and even though I cant totally
understand where you are coming from I can
see that it can be a frustrating thing,
besides weddings can be depressing
sometimes. Give yourself credit for what
you are doing for you son, youre doing
pretty damn good from what you tell us and
that is your best so keep doing it and
hang in there and dont feel guilty for
saying you want to be a teenager again,
youre being honest but stay in there ok?
And there are guys that wouldnt mind that
you have a son already...
Meg
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 05-17-04 11:00am
Thanks hun* yea. .I know im trying andd
everything, and im doing pretty well
actually. .Its just I feel bad, mostly
because ryans going to be a loser father
im sure. . And at weddings I feel sad.
.Cuz im thinking . . Im the one havin a
baby, and im not even married ya know?
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little_woman
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Mar 2004 Posts: 765
Posted: 05-17-04 12:08pm
Keep your pretty head up kari! And about
weddings, I went to one last week and I
saw my ex there with his health question
new girlfriend who he claims to be inlove
with even though theyve only been together
for a month and weve been apart for less
than two...He hopes shes the one blah blah
blah but I took a different approach, a
little champagne, a lot of corona and one
hot security guard took my mind of them
joshie doesnts need a loser father he
needs his mother who is doing a health
question good job at doing your best for
him
Kari~ you will be a wonderful mother to
your son! He will be lucky to have you!
Don't let yourself get down. You've come
so far in everything and you will continue
to go furthur~ keep that pretty face
smiling and keep trucking along! You got
it babe!
Love,
chanda
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 05-17-04 19:46pm
Thank you so much girls, words of
encouragement really do help. Today I
dont feel as much like that so I think I
snapped out of it. I need to stop
worrying so much! Its gettin so close~
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 05-18-04 00:46am
Last edited by insurancegirl on 10-25-04 10:35am; edited 1 time in total
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nikki_caro
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Aug 2003 Posts: 4921 Location: Right here at work!
Posted: 05-18-04 03:52am
Kari dont feel so down. Its just the
hormones. I know I go through it too!
Like at hurricane harbor I felt like
crying because I couldnt do anything but
sit with the kids! Everyone was having
fun and I was in the river lol. And I saw
these other girls the other day that I
went to school with and they were all
skinny and pretty and shopping and I was
there getting mail for my work looking
like a bum because of morning sickness and
I felt so bad because they had alot and I
was there pregnant and stuff. But oh
well. I think back and I will have more
anyways. Im married and will have a great
baby while they are stuck in highschool
life. Lol. Just cheer up ok! I try to
and you should because you will make a
great mommy!!! Youll see
