Joined: 09 Jun 2004 Posts: 1 Location: Lexingtonpark,MD
Please Help Me Posted: 06-09-04 07:32am
This morning my mother and I got into a
big blow out, we were both exchanging
words... And I said something and she
started punching the hell out of me while
I was getting ready for school...And then
she said when you come home you're
grounded for the weekend and I have just
been so tired of dealing with it because
it's an everyday thing that I told her I
wasnt coming home and she said what do you
mean your not coming home, then she says I
wont do this in fron of your borther and
sister and as I was walking out the door
she starts yelling..."get your ass over
here"...And yelling and she kept telling
me to go to her and I told her no because
I was scared and she had a spatula in her
hand
and she kept telling me that I wasnt going
to school and I told her I was and my buss
was comin around the corner and my buss
stoped in front of my house and my mom
threw the spatuala and missed and my buss
kinda sped off..I've known my buss driver
for a while now and I waas crying...She
told me that she was going to pick me up @
school im not going with her I cant and
she also told me that whenever I came home
I was dead I dont know what to do....Ever
since her and her 2nd husband split up
she's been so depressed but over the past
year though shes been so violent, she's
always yelling @ me or my younger brother
and sister...She's always yelling and
hitting... I will admitt that sometimes,
maybe even most of time we deserve it but
not all the time...And we're not damn
punching bags...I am soo scared I dont
know what to do...And i've always had a
feeling that if she doesnt kill me she's
gonna kill herself...Im so scared .. She
has all these mood swings all the time
she's alright one minute, tired the next,
and then crazy the next, but if there's
one thing she isnt that's happy she's
never happy, im only 14, im in
highschool...I dont know what to do..One
time I was so upset on memorial day...I
was goin to committ the "s" word (i dont
like saying it I had a friend who has done
that) but I didnt because I kept thinkin
of my brother and sister...But if I leave
I may never see them again.. We have
different fathers and if I were to tleave
i'd have to go with mine and I dont even
know him .. The only thing I know is that
he lives in florida I kinda wanna go but I
dont wanna leave my brother in sister in
that environment... Im not trying to make
this look like it's all my mom it's not I
cause problems tooo. But I dont deserve
to be treated like that no one does...And
yes I do have family here but half of them
wouldnt take me in... I know my
grandparents would but I cant do that to
them..Because their under soo much stress
cuz of my mom and with the divorce and the
whole financial aid thing...And I couldnt
put them under anymore stress.. I dont
know what to do im soo scared...
What do I do?
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zilbucks
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Apr 2004 Posts: 210 Location: NY
Posted: 06-12-04 00:41am
I'm sorry to hear about your situation,
this is a tough decision for you to have
to make for yourself. I would suggest you
talk to a school counselor- teacher-an
adult you know and trust, maybe even a
family memebr such as an aunt or uncle.
Your mom needs help, but more importantly
you need to make someone aware of your
situation. It may come to that you are
taken out of your home and placed with
another relative, and that your mother is
taken away and put somewhere , but
somewhere where she could get help. You
cannot help your mother, i'm sorry, but
you can make steps to help yourself and
your siblings, which could possibly push
her into getting help for herself. I
hope your doing alright, please update us
on your situation. Take care, and please
talk to someone.
and she kept telling me that I wasnt going
to school and I told her I was and my buss
was comin around the corner and my buss
stoped in front of my house and my mom
threw the spatuala and missed and my buss
kinda sped off..I've known my buss driver
for a while now and I waas crying...She
told me that she was going to pick me up @
school im not going with her I cant and
she also told me that whenever I came home
I was dead I dont know what to do....Ever
since her and her 2nd husband split up
she's been so depressed but over the past
year though shes been so violent, she's
always yelling @ me or my younger brother
and sister...She's always yelling and
hitting... I will admitt that sometimes,
maybe even most of time we deserve it but
not all the time...And we're not damn
punching bags...I am soo scared I dont
know what to do...And i've always had a
feeling that if she doesnt kill me she's
gonna kill herself...Im so scared .. She
has all these mood swings all the time
she's alright one minute, tired the next,
and then crazy the next, but if there's
one thing she isnt that's happy she's
never happy, im only 14, im in
highschool...I dont know what to do..One
time I was so upset on memorial day...I
was goin to committ the "s" word (i dont
like saying it I had a friend who has done
that) but I didnt because I kept thinkin
of my brother and sister...But if I leave
I may never see them again.. We have
different fathers and if I were to tleave
i'd have to go with mine and I dont even
know him .. The only thing I know is that
he lives in florida I kinda wanna go but I
dont wanna leave my brother in sister in
that environment... Im not trying to make
this look like it's all my mom it's not I
cause problems tooo. But I dont deserve
to be treated like that no one does...And
yes I do have family here but half of them
wouldnt take me in... I know my
grandparents would but I cant do that to
them..Because their under soo much stress
cuz of my mom and with the divorce and the
whole financial aid thing...And I couldnt
put them under anymore stress.. I dont
know what to do im soo scared...
