Leaving

First i'd like to say that i'm not on anybody's side right now. I'd like you to stick around

then i'd like to say that regardless of what chanda as done or said to you, I find it a little immature that you are trying to make her look like such a bad/mean person. Chanda has not said anything in public about her feelings for you being anything less than that of a new acquaintance, with the exception of asking you to be a little less critical in your responses to us.

As far as the innocent until proven guilty thing, leave that to the courtroom! Nobody is on trial here. Its not a matter of innocence and guilt.

Its just a little much. Yes, we love chanda, and if you want us to take sides, we will.

I wish I could show you the yahoo conversations i've had with her... But i'm not even going there.. It just doesnt even matter anymore... But your right, I was just as immature as she was being in my orginal post, but thanks. Best of luck with your pregnancy... I pray for all the girls here daily, and will even though I won't be here!

Oh please stay! We have gone through much worse stuff than this!

Chanda is a very active member here... And she doesnt like me and I only cause tension with her... Believe me.. Its not that I don't like her, I barely know her. But really I don't want her to hate it here b/c of me. This is a good place with the exceptions of a few things that just take time with boards... Believe me, i've been part of one board for 4 years, can you believe that?! 4 freaking years! I have seen those girls go through pregnancy and then some have children starting preschool! Its so amazing, i've met many of them irl ... Its amazing! I've made some awesome friends off of my other board.. And I confind in some of those friends for everything. They would stand up for me in a heartbeat!

Its just I don't agree with some of the things chanda does to "some not all" newbies, I should have not said all earlier. I want to be able to freely say what I think without being told "no one cares what I have to say"... That really makes me want to leave... And not to mention (not trying to make her sound bad) I had to block her from my aim b/c once before I confronted her on the way she was treating some one and she imed me repeatedly until I blocked her and she still went at it trying to add me to her list or something. I don't know but that really bothered me, I almost left then.

I don't want to make her sound like a bad person, she is great to you girls, she is very supportive of you, I just stand by that she has alittle more growing to do.. As we all do, expecially me.. I grow every day... I learn something new every day! Life never gets easier.. If anything its just as difficult as it was 3 years ago.. Just diffrent senerios now... Life's crazy, no need to spend so much time trying to get some one to like you or fit in where you're not really wanted.


Okay.. I'm going off on a tangent, I really don't want to start a drama scene, i'm mostly just saying how I feel right now, which yeah of course is alittle hurt, which I don't know why.. Its the internet.. I shouldnt care... She doesn't know me irl and if she did i"m sure she and I could be good friends. I'm one of those people like don't like people not to like me.. It drives me insane to know i'm not liked.


I have something called aniexity disorder and I have attacks, i'm on lexapro which helps me get through most days, some much worse than others.. Todays been a rough day and of course I guess I just came here and when I was told I didn't matter it hit me harder than it would normally. But still even with all that.. I really don't want to cause tensions here... I really really don't. The last thing this place needs is more drama.. I think you'd all agree!


But anyways.. I said I was leaving, I should really go now.. I have to babysit tomorrow anyways.. And its late, I need sleep!

I missed this whole thing....I have to start paying more attention.

Thats just it... You couldn't have seen anything except what was on the dominics thread... B/c she deleted the other one about meagan. Before anyone could see it she deleted it... So really there really is no way you could have seen one of the two instances that she claims I am "always" chastising everyone... I know everyone here thinks she's amazing and all... And i'm sorry if I don't, I know I will probably get slammed for that.. But oh well! And she will probably delete this when she sees it. How she has that power I have no idea. But oh well!

Me and chanda had a little arguement back when I first came here too... But its over with. I didnt leave because of it. Me and chanda are on good terms now. Just grow up and get over it. Who cares? You being here isnt gonna make chanda not like it here. Trust me, its hard for anyone to not like it here (excluding newbies that just dont know how the system works around here)... Im addicted to ehealth, and so is mostly everybody else here. Most of us ~never~ plan on leaving... And those that try to leave, just get sucked right back in.

~i have a plan for you... How about you stop being childish and saying you are leaving to make chanda more comfortable... Cuz trust me, I dont think she could possibly be any more comfortable than she already is. How about you just dont talk to her until it doesnt bother either of you any more. I dont even think chanda is here anymore to defend herself. So without my post, it would probably be a biased conversation about what "she did"...

Chanda is well liked on here-she's been through a tough time in her life but despite that she is always looking out for everyone else. I like chanda a lot & she's been here for a damn sight longer then you have jennifer so she won't be going anywhere!
It's kinda immature for you to be saying you're leaving-it's the internet girl-get over it! If you have a problem with someone you can ignore them-it's not like you have to see them face to face! I'm only getting involved because I like chanda-i'm not trying to start a fight because that's just pathetic.

Hun, not everyone gets along on a forum. We were all raised differently and have our own opinions, someone is bound to collide with someone else. Just because you and chanda are not on good terms doesnt mean you should leave. You might miss the opportunity to help someone. I think you should stay. Just dont question chanda's replies to other ppl and im sure she wont question yours. I hope this makes sense lol
shannon xoxox

Boy im lost, what happened?

Don't worry nikki, I am lost too!
I say this should just be dropped and you two can ignore each other. That would be the mature thing to do. I love chanda! I don't know you yet, but if you stick around we can all get to know ya.