You still get it all wrong, like I said I met the girl when she was 9. That's when she started going to my church! I just started really liking her when she got older. Spend a lot of time around someone and see what feelings you develop, okay?

Jesus, I share something out of my life that hurts me and you people think i'm a 42 year old pervert who's here to just pick up girls. Sheesh and to think I came here looking for some cool people and to maybe find a little understanding. You read things, and they don't make sense to you. I live those things and they still don't make sense to me.

But then again it seems no matter where I go or who I talk to i'm "not right." well sure, maybe I am a little crazy, but show me some person who isn't crazy in just some little way.

That's the one thing that bugs me about messengers and message boards, it's the forced anonymity.

The only thing I ask is that you believe me, that's all I can do. I can guarantee you that I am harmless (almost typed armless), and although I have only posted here around 39 or 40-something times, I grew to respect you all. And I agree. If you don't trust me you don't have to.

I will admit that some things that have happened to me have been highly unorthodox, but if it takes me scanning my drivers license or my app state id card and e-mailing an image file of it to you then I will.

Well a picture should be in your inbox. Like I said in the message, it's all i've got. I've never been proud of my looks. I don't find myself attractive at all.

I don't talk to armless people, sorry...J/k.Lol.
Nikki is probably right. You are probably brad pitt junior!Lol. I am sorry if I offended you in any way, I am just very,very untrusting. And I already contracted a stalker from this board so that makes me even worse! I don't give out any personal information at all here and the guy still found me. No one here knows my email, and the only thing they do know is my first name. But, psychos have their ways I guess. So, anyway, that is why I am very untrusting.

Aww I feel bad but sometimes people speculate things and some girls found it weird and I think what blew them off was the whole 9 year old thing. I never read it until someone pointed it out and it made me think whoa that's odd.

You're right we should not judge you and you also have to think about the things that happen with messengers and stuff it's hard to trust people. So in some sense you should understand as to why some of these girls thought that way.

Well one thing you won't need to worry about is this weirdo (yours truly, thank you very much) asking to meet you somewhere, sometime.

In all honesty, i'm afraid of internet meeting arrangements, not to mention that I just don't have the time to visit old friends let alone someone I could possibly meet on this board.

I'm also kind of lazy to like get in my car and drive a great distance.

I just went back through to read what you people had to say about me.

<sardonicism> wow, i'm amazed that you girls made such accurate assumptions about me, since you have talked to me so much, and have gotten to know me so well. <\sardonicism>

note one: yes it was captivating because i'd never seen someone that size actually pregnant before. If you had seen her your mouth would have dropped too. I said it was sad and it was also alarming. And I sport genuine concern for her because she could have very well died.

Note two: the words coming out of my mouth, in a figurative sense, since they're actually being typed, are aparrently not being listened to. Let's go through this again shall we? I met hope when she was 9. Met met met! I would talk to her parents all the time. I spent lots of time around that family and as she got older into her teenage years, I started developing feelings for her. Maybe they were a bit strong, but I was intelligent enough to know that I couldn't do anything! She knew I liked her and she liked me back, that was until I went away and she got a serious boyfriend. That's the past, there's nothing I can do, I just told her how I felt and I thought I could actually be there for her. Boy was I wrong, about her and perhaps about some of you. Just tell me how you feel when someone you have deep care and concern for, and wanted to have a future with blows you off like a maple leaf. And for those of you who are still a little freaked out I would have waited until she was ancient if that's how long it took.

I said once already, my life is highly unorthodox. That means "really not normal" and I wish to god in heaven above that it wasn't that way. There have been things happen to me and things I have seen that I want so desparately to hit the rewind button, or shoot my brain with a laser that erases memories.

And that thing about being cuter than normal? I guess compliments are strangely misconstrued around here. Maybe I should keep them to myself from now on. Perhaps the philosophy has changed, if you want to say something nice then you shouldn't say anything at all.

Hey girls he posted a pic before with his girlfriend, didnt ya? Are you kinda gothic? I dont remember exactly* anyhow, I dont wanna judge either, u just came off as a bit much and with the 9 yr old story, u know it does sound kinda odd but many things do online* im sure ure a nice person

May be if you had kinda come in an made an intro and said hi and hung out a bit you would have been easier accepted.
I think what got people was the story that kinda came across like "hi i'm new here, i'm an older guy, I have a pregnancy fetish, theres a girl i've fancied since she was a little nine year old kid and i've been hanging out in bushes and following her and stuff but I got caught and they filed an injunction order against me and I really wanna be with this little girl.
Not your words but the the kind of idea that was projected.

I called you a weirdo because I think you are but now you have everyone back on your side but i'm not-i find that pregnancy stuff sooooo creepy & if I was pregnant & you said that to me in real life i'd beat you with my handbag!

The pm you sent to nikki was enough of creepiness for me. I mean, you can stick around, but I do think you are a lil creepy the way you do things!

What did he say to nikki?

Liz I think he told her she was beautiful or sumthin,( basically same as what he said on the forum). Personally I think she is a lot prettier than avril myself!! But considering her age and his it's very jailbait, a bit pervy


also if he has a girlfriend why is wanting to take in a pregnant girl and raise the kid as his own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If he wants to meet "cool" people to chat too why the hell a teen pregnancy forum??? Of all the forums.


A word to whitedragon. This is the internet not the real world. We know nothing about you, I go on what I can see for myself. It's not every day someone comes out and says well I was threatened with a restraining order!! I still think your a bit of a gimp!

Suzi
p.S to all who can see I edited this loads. I was in a bad mood when I wrote so I kept changing it. I was a lil too mean lol

I've been slapped with over 40 restraining orders so there you wench! Lmao. Just joking! Gosh I am so crazy!

But we all know ur bad chanda j/k

Hehe

Liz- I agree actually. He may be a nice person. .But of all places for a guy to go, why a teen pregnancy forum? I mean plus with the comments uve made it just doesnt fit. U can stick around of course, but I agree, u can come off as a bit creepy~

Yup chanda ur evil, he is just a gimp and I am a b*tch and damn sexy one at that too lol kiddin on

I am a evil b*tch! You are a sexy b*tch. And he... Well, he's.......... Himself lol.

Im glad we got that cleared up chanda.

Come on dont be shy he's a gimp lol nothing he says makes sense

Hey, sometimes things just don't make sense, but perhaps you've already gotten your determined opinion of me. Your opinion is your opinion, I can't change it, because you're so dead set.

As for the one that says she's not on my side, oh dear however will I be able to survive on a daily basis...

Tom petty probably said it best:

"think of me what you will. I got a little space to fill."

but I digress.

I don't know what to do. Nothing I say is going to change your mind. And no, I haven't posted any pictures here, and I never pm-ed nikki-caro, if that's who your thinking.

Lack of information is not a good subsititute for information...