Am I Depressed Or Just Crazy? Posted: 08-25-04 08:17am
I need your alls advice other than tellin
me I need to go see my doctor! Ok im 25,
and when I was 16 I was diagnosed with
severe depression disorder, so I was put
on prozac, I took the meds for 2 years,
everything was fine, so I stopped taking
them, it was all good for about 2 years,
then I started feeling depressed again,
not as bad as I had been, it came and
went, but for the last 2 years its became
more intense, now for the last year I have
been having what I believe to be panic
attachs, my heart starts beating 90 miles
a minute, I get anxious, if I hear one
little noise I go off, I just put my face
in my hands and take deep breaths untill
its over. I dont know what it is, does
anyone else have this problem? This
mostly occures when I am out, in a crowded
place, like grocery shopping and the kids
are fighting, and my husband asking me
questions, ppl standing in the way, I just
freak out and just feel like sreaming "
shut the f**k up" most of the time I leave
my buggy sitting in the middle of the isle
and get out of there. Same thing with any
other shopping like at walmart or anywhere
really, I am fine as long as I can go by
myself, but if the kids are with me, and
my husband, I just cant deal with it, I
always end up storming out of the store.
It happens sometimes at home too, I
usually just go lock myself in my bedroom
untill its over. I dont know whats wrong
with me, and I am so afraid its going to
destroy my marriage, I dont do anything
with my family, I dont do anything at all
with my kids, I feel like I am always
yelling at them and my husband, I just
always wanna be left alone, I dont talk to
my husband about anything unless its
yelling at him. I dont know what to do
about this. I dont sleep, I dont eat, I
have lost 20 pounds this month, and I am
afraid that his whatever it is thats wrong
with me if going to end up destroying my
life, my family and my marriage. Help!!!
What can I do, I do not wanna take
medication.
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concernedslb
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Joined: 25 Aug 2004 Posts: 8
Posted: 08-25-04 12:31pm
No I dont have bad thoughts about hurting
myself or others, I just dont want anyone
around me, I want to be just by myself all
the time. I never ever go anywhere unless
its to the grocery store or walmart and
just when I absolutely have to and most of
time end up leaving the store with nothing
because I have a panic attach right in the
middle of the store. Same as at home,
just one little thing gets on my nerves I
go off, ya know I know kids will be kids
but if they do anything I go off on them,
I never hit them or anything but I know I
am not being the kind of mother I am
suppose to be to them, I fear they will
grow up to hate me, and my husband will
divorce me. I have tried to talk to him
about it, and he says I am just over
reacting and that I dont have a problem,
so I didnt tell him about it anymore, I
dont think he understands that this a bad
thing and I can not control it, he seems
to think I can just turn it off, but I
cant. God I wish I could.
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concernedslb
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2004 Posts: 8
Posted: 08-28-04 10:22am
I thought this was a place to come to for
answers, 41 views and 1 reply???? This is
a serious problem for me, I dont know what
to do.
I wish you guys would help me or atleast
try to help me. Please!!!!
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PattyV
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Joined: 01 May 2004 Posts: 1103 Location: Chicago area
Posted: 08-28-04 14:31pm
Anxiety and depression are real illnesses
that sometimes require medication.If you
stopped your meds without your docs
supervision,that is very
dangerous.Chemical imbalances can
sometimes create these states and meds can
help keep you on an even keel.There are
some herbal alternatives,but they can have
side affects,just like meds.See posts from
purple333 and qt3.They seem very
knowlegdable about alternative
treatments.I know some meds have some
wicked side effects,but if you were
diabetic,would you not take insulin?If you
need help and /or meds,there is nothing
wrong with that.Best of luck to you.Patty
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concernedslb
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2004 Posts: 8
Posted: 08-28-04 22:41pm
Thanks for replying patty. I didnt stop
taking them my doctor slowly took me off
of them at 18 cause I had gotten
completely better, I stayed better for a
little over 2 years. I dont think its
depression, not with the anxiety attachs
that I have, I have two or three a day,
and its making me crazy.
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purple333
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Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 08-29-04 01:44am
Hi cconcernedslb,
sorry i've been 1/2 off line due to
computer issues or I hope i'd have replied
sooner. I sooooooooo relate to the get me
out of here/away from everyone
feeling/need - I mean does everyone have
to talk at you at the same time wanting
you etc when you're trying to concentrate
or just want to unwind even!! I think
that many mothers feel this way to some
extent - depending on husband, kids &
self!!
You need to do some research & make
some choices - as to what type of help you
want for yourself - prescription meds
(side effetcs, problems etc) natural
alternatives (some do have side effects,
some don't) e.G. Valerian, gingko, 5htp,
sam-e, dhea, then there's machines (my
personal wonder drug!!) ces machine or
sound/light machine (dynamind.Com or
alpha-stim.Com) also look into cbt (many
colleges & hospitals apparently (not
here!!) have free or cheap courses in
this. Check posts by qt3 for details.
You are not alone, you are not crazy but
you do need to find some solutions that
suit you, your lifestyle, family &
budget.
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qt3
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Joined: 14 Nov 2003 Posts: 264
Posted: 08-31-04 12:25pm
purple333
wrote:
hi cconcernedslb,
you are not alone, you are not crazy but
you do need to find some solutions that
suit you, your lifestyle, family &
budget.
hi cconcernedslb-
that last sentence purple posted above
says it all call your local
university and see if they have a cbt
program you can join, most are free or of
little charge. Hospital's programs for
cbt usual charge and sometimes a lot so
try your local uni's first. See if your
library has a copy of the obitz book, it's
a short and simple intro to cbt from a
sufferers perspective that you may
identify with. Good luck and sorry I was
away when you were in need lots of helpful
people on here and especially purple!
Q
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concernedslb
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2004 Posts: 8
Posted: 08-31-04 22:03pm
Thanks guys, I bought some kind of herbal
supliment today, not sure if its working
but im gonna keep taking it to see.
Ginkgo or something like that. So far I
have not had an anxiety attack today which
is not usual, I have had two to three
attacks a day for the last couple of
months.
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chuawa
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Aug 2004 Posts: 32
Posted: 09-01-04 03:57am
I am taking ginko now.. I am taking it
for my insomnia and memory loss. It is
meant to help blood circulation especially
to the brain.
I am thinking of taking st john's wort as
a herbal supplement for my anxiety..
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concernedslb
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Joined: 25 Aug 2004 Posts: 8
Posted: 09-01-04 14:37pm
Today has been a very very bad day. This
thing is getting worse, I am now having
suicidal thoughts, I believe that my
husband and children will be better off
without me. They cant handle me being
this way and dont deserve it. I have
tried to controll it but I cant anymore.
Yesterday was a good day I didnt have any
attacks at all, but as soon as I opened my
eyes this morning I was yelling and saying
things to my husband that he doesnt
deserve. I just dont want to be bothered
anymore. I guess this helps just to get
it out, just to talk abou it. I dont know
what ill do now, I know they are better
off without me in there lives they could
live so much better and be so much happier
without me.
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chuawa
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Joined: 16 Aug 2004 Posts: 32
Posted: 09-01-04 18:23pm
I know what you mean, there are days when
I will wake up feeling like crying....
For no reason at all... That everything
is meaningless..
But remember that it is definately your
subconsious brain playing a trick on you
i always try to remember that when I feel
really down, its my mind trying to
challenge me.. And it's me that must
control my mind.. Not the other way
round...
Remember that the brain is just another
piece of muscle in your body system? If
you don't train it.. Control it...
I am sure your husband and children would
never give up on you.. So why should you
give up on yourself?
We are all here on this board for one
mission, and that is to win the mother of
all wars... The war with yourself
take things one step at a time.. Enjoy
every moment you have with you husband and
children... I did..
Learn more about your disorder.. Sun tzu
said 'to know the enemy like you know
yourselve, a hundred battles fought, a
hundred battles won!'
read books, join forums, talk with friends
and family, join cbt groups, see a doctor,
take supplements... There are so much
preparation in this war.. How much have
you achieved?
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Cindy63
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 May 2004 Posts: 34 Location: Ontario
Posted: 09-01-04 19:37pm
Hi, I was just on the phone with my mother
and she told me there is always a silver
lining behind every cloud and that you
must find 3 good things that happen in one
day! You have to learn to fight the
urges to yell at your family not the
family, try to count to 10 when you are
having an attack, tell yourself to count
to 10 and that it will pass and it will.
I am still trying to cope with my
depression and i'll tell you some days are
better than the rest. My Dr. Asked me
today if I could have a perfect life what
would it consist of? I said spending
quality time with my husband as he is
hardly ever here, a 17 year old daughter
that didn't snarl at me every time I asked
her a question(even though it might be the
3rd time), a girl friend that I could
spend time with and do things with, of
course having enough money to survive, and
be able to do the job I want to do. That
is gardening. So stop and ask yourself
what do you want, are you doing this
because you don't get any of your own
time? What do you think is causing your
symptoms? Do you long for love and
acceptance or support?
Does your husband need to give you space?
Come on here and vent vent vent! I've
been doing it since feb. Don't worry, be
happy!!!! Cindy (hugs)
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qt3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Nov 2003 Posts: 264
Posted: 09-20-04 16:13pm
concernedslb
wrote:
today has been a very very
bad day. This thing is getting worse, I
am now having suicidal thoughts, I believe
that my husband and children will be
better off without me. They cant handle
me being this way and dont deserve it. I
have tried to controll it but I cant
anymore. Yesterday was a good day I
didnt have any attacks at all, but as soon
as I opened my eyes this morning I was
yelling and saying things to my husband
that he doesnt deserve. I just dont want
to be bothered anymore. I guess this
helps just to get it out, just to talk
abou it. I dont know what ill do now, I
know they are better off without me in
there lives they could live so much better
and be so much happier without me.
you sound like you need some help, so call
your local university and see if they have
a cbt group you can join. It takes some
work but works wonders if you work at it
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callie8323
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Sep 2004 Posts: 231 Location: nc
Talk to Them Posted: 09-21-04 09:51am
First talk to your husband and kids they
may help you a lot if you would let them
know how you are feeling. they might
uderstand a whole lot better if you would
open up to someone I always find talking
to someone to help a lot good luck.
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BADSAL
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2004 Posts: 257 Location: PA
Posted: 09-21-04 12:54pm
Oh my gosh- after reading the original
message I can so relate. I feel the same
way when the kids and hubby are all around
me needing something. Or i'm trying to
think of what I need to get at the store
and people keep talking to me, etc. I
can't stand if music is on, people are
talking and the kids are playing and
making noise. I freak out. Sometimes I
just have to go sit in my bedroom for a
little while and relax. I take zoloft.
I didn't want to take anything because I
always thought only "crazy" people needed
medication like that. But now I know it
is not true. I weened myself off of it
for a while with my dr's guidance but then
I started getting my anxiety and panic
feelings again so went back on it. No
one really even needs to know about it.
My husband is happy that it makes me more
pleasant to be around. Other than that-
only good friends and some family know I
even take it. Also I started not to
worry about the housework as much, and
always having everything perfect.
Sometimes the place gets trashed and I
just let it go. Sometimes I come home
from work and say sorry I don't have
anything planned for dinner...... It is
ok to let things go, as long as the hubby
is ok with it. Oh- I also started going
to curves for some exercise. It is a
nice release. I don't need to loose any
weight but I just feel a lot more
energized. You are probalby a wonderful
mom and wife. Take care of yourself
though- sometimes you need to do things
for you!!!!
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NaRcOtIcS
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Sep 2004 Posts: 7 Location: MD
Posted: 09-26-04 15:00pm
Hmm.........Interesting but it could be
the cause of low energy, do you do much or
are you getting enough vitamins. If you
don't want to take alot of vitamins
because you are unsure of what the problem
is, and just have energy try nitro
products. I recommend the drinks, it
proves to give faster results. Records
show a high energy person, is less
stressed out and more confident in one
self.
Www.Cnitro.Enliveninternat
ional.Com
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trap
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Oct 2004 Posts: 65 Location: california
Posted: 10-18-04 14:50pm
First of all stores suck-the people in the
stores suck-and you leaving the store when
you feel like that is probably the best
thing you could do-imagine if everyone
just left the store when they had had
enough-it would be a much better shoping
experience for all-second dont lock
yourself in a room -go for a walk get some
air or better yet politely tell everyone
there to get the hell out because you need
some down time-everyone is stressed its
getting rid of the things that stress you
that is the answer no pills or shrink
bills needed-plain and simple and always
breathe deep
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BADSAL
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2004 Posts: 257 Location: PA
Posted: 10-18-04 15:03pm
Oh ok, i'll just drop everything and go
for a walk....Leave the kids home alone,
what the heck............Or i'll just kick
them out of the house for
awhile............Sure- thanks for the
great advice.
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trap
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Oct 2004 Posts: 65 Location: california
Posted: 10-18-04 15:08pm
Why is that so crazy?
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BADSAL
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2004 Posts: 257 Location: PA
Posted: 10-18-04 15:14pm
Sorry! I must have taken it the wrong
way. It just isn't as easy as you make
it seem when someone is going through it.
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I wish you guys would help me or atleast
try to help me. Please!!!! 
call your local
university and see if they have a cbt
program you can join, most are free or of
little charge. Hospital's programs for
cbt usual charge and sometimes a lot so
try your local uni's first. See if your
library has a copy of the obitz book, it's
a short and simple intro to cbt from a
sufferers perspective that you may
identify with. Good luck and sorry I was
away when you were in need 
lots of helpful
people on here and especially purple!
