Joined: 19 Jan 2004 Posts: 1410 Location: burlington
I'm Scared Posted: 09-03-04 12:08pm
Ok today ryan and I are leaving at 3 to go
to the dragstrip down by my house. Let me
remind you that is two hours away from
ryan's. Well im not bringing mackenzie
since its gonna be loud and won't be good
for her ears and since itll get cold at
night. Monday I was crying my eyes out
because I knew friday was coming so fast
and I didnt want to leave her. Ryan
finally convinced me to go and so we are
going tonight. Im super scared to leave
my baby here with her grandma. Its not
that I dont trust her but I just dont know
I guess its a mom thing? Lol. I feel bad
leaving her since shes not even two weeks
old yet. I know that she wont know that
mom and dad are gone but ill know that we
are gone..I wanna go out and have fun but
we arent gonna be back til 1am! 3pm til
1am is a l.O.N.G. Time!! Im gonna go
crazy not seeing my baby for that long.
So im bringing her pictures with me...Am I
a bad mother for leaving her this early
and for so long? I feel like one and
every time I think of it I got teary eyed.
But I wanna go have fun..How is this
gonna work? I cant have fun and be
worried at the same time...What am I gonna
do? Any suggestions, please id appreciate
it. Im freaked out to leave her. Ryan
doesnt seem to be bothered by it, its only
me so im guessing its a mom thing..He
tells me its gonna be ok but he doesnt
know since ive been carrying her inside me
for 9months and never had to leave her
because she went everywhere with
me(obviously since she was in my belly).
And now im leaving..This is tough
stuff...Please help
~heather ryan and mackenzie
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lilmama2b_oct04
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Mar 2004 Posts: 1970 Location: Wisconsin
Posted: 09-03-04 12:13pm
Aww heather, it will be ok. You are not a
bad mom because you are going out to have
a good time, you are a good mom for not
dragging her along with you. You need to
go out and have a good time! Enjoy
yourself! This is one of the hard
things... Leaving your baby for the first
time. But it will be ok!
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noodleandshorty
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jan 2004 Posts: 1410 Location: burlington
Posted: 09-03-04 12:18pm
Lol you make it seem so easy!!! I know im
gonna cry on the way down to the dragstrip
lol. Im such a big baby. Im sure ill
enjoy myself once I get there but im gonna
be a worry wart on how my baby is doing.
But I guess thats normal.
~heather ryan and mackenzie
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bellax0x
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Jun 2004 Posts: 3572 Location: Jersey Baby!
Posted: 09-03-04 12:23pm
Yes it's deff normal and youre not a bad
mommy. It actually shows how good of a
mommy you are because youll miss her so
much. And if you start to go out now,
youll get more used to it and then it wont
be so hard other times =) I like the idea
of you bringing her pics and you can also
call as many times as you'd like! =) good
lucka nd have fun!
<3
gaby
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PregnaJordan
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Oct 2003 Posts: 2908
Posted: 09-03-04 12:27pm
Aww heather I was like that too......At
first, but now its nice to be able to get
out for a lil while! It will get easier
and easier! U have the next 18 + years
ahead of you, with her!
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 09-03-04 12:44pm
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noodleandshorty
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jan 2004 Posts: 1410 Location: burlington
Posted: 09-03-04 12:56pm
Im putting her pictures in a photo album
that ryans mom bought me to take with me
today. so that way ill
have somethin to look at when or if im
bored or thinkin of my baby. I think ill
be alright as soon as I start having fun.
Im excited to go but im scared at the same
time lol
~heather ryan and mackenzie
You deserve it! Go out. Have a good
time! Be careful and when you get
home.... Your lil one will be waiting for
you! You are not a bad mother! Not at
all!
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babyrae
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jan 2004 Posts: 2957 Location: Manitoba, Canada
Posted: 09-03-04 14:40pm
Dont worry hun! I cried my eyes out when
I saw tim put danica in her carseat and he
took her away from me to go to his moms
for an hour. I bawled and couldnt relax
until she came back. Its just natural I
think fo rit to be like that. The longest
ive left her for is 2 hours now.. But
thats also becuz im breatsfeeding... But
ur not a bad mom at all! Its best u take
some time to yourself or else ull find u
get more frustrated or even depressed. So
go have fun, but its also good ur thinking
of ur baby!
so that way ill
have somethin to look at when or if im
bored or thinkin of my baby. I think ill
be alright as soon as I start having fun.
Im excited to go but im scared at the same
time lol
