Joined: 11 Dec 2003 Posts: 7 Location: Fort Washington, Maryland
So Many... Posted: 09-10-04 13:28pm
So many relationships have come and gone.
I've been in love once or twice... And
it didn't work out.
I'm not a bad guy... In fact, I keep
hearing how happy i'll make somebody
someday... Heh... Yeah, right. When
life keeps showing me what it's been
showing me, I can't help but to think love
is just going to keep passing me by.
Yeah, I know i'm not the only one who goes
through loneliness... But i'm telling
you, it hurts.
I've tried searching for love, and not
searching so love could find me. I've
tried dating women from all different
walks of life... All different types of
women. People tell me i've made bad
choices, considering what kind of
relationship I want. I've been lied to,
cheated on, stood up, led on, whatever you
can think of. There are days when I
think my poor heart just can't take it any
more.
And what's worse... I'm very giving. To
a fault, in fact. There's something I
heard of... Dependent personality
disorder... Where a person is prone to
put all their problems and feeings aside
to cater to another's needs... Maybe I
suffer from that too... *sigh* who
knows.
All I know is, it hurts being the way I
am, and having to be hurt over and over
again like this. I just got my heart
broken by a woman who was giving me all
kinds of affection, but wasn't over her ex
yet... And now her ex wants her back.
So while she considers taking him back,
where does that leave me?
It makes it damn near impossible to not be
cynical and just give up on being the kind
of man I am... Caring, loving, generous,
romantic, etc... All the things women
claim they want. It's funny how i've
noticed some women can point at a man like
me from afar and go, "i wish there were
more men like him..."
*sigh*
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trap
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Oct 2004 Posts: 65 Location: california
Posted: 10-18-04 14:59pm
Could it possibly be that you are letting
these people do this to you--i mean I dont
know you but just reading your letter made
me want to call you up borrow some money
from you and never talk to you again-what
do you look like other then your low self
esteem with your big sigh eyes -if you
roll out the red carpet for people they
are going to walk up and down on it
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mindy4020
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Jul 2005 Posts: 7 Location: melbourne
Hi Posted: 07-25-05 17:26pm
You should be happy you are not a typical
man hunting for sex, but also you can't
let people take advantage of you, and
treat you poorly. Most women do seem to
like the bad guys and that's sad for men
like you. But keep you head up and I am
sure you will meet someone worth wild!
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Porcelain Doll
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Nov 2005 Posts: 3
Posted: 11-25-05 16:32pm
Yes, self-esteem is important.
And you should keep in mind that most
people (subconsiously) want others to draw
a line. If you don't they will just keep
pushing and pushing until they have walked
all over you, and then they will just keep
walking. Learn to say "no, this isn't
something I want.".
As a girl I can say that I don't want a
bad boy, but I don't want a puppy either.
If you let me make all the decicions and
always have it my way, I will get bored
quite fast. Give a girl a little
resistance and a bit of a challenge. :)
