I'm a college student on about 60mg of
adderall a day for add (20mg/3x/day). I'm
incredibly dependent on it and use it
primarily for weight control. I get
incredibly satisfaction out of how long I
can go without eating. I haven't been
sleeping at all either, I usually go a few
days without any sleep at all. Once in
awhile I get 4 or 5 hours worth of sleep
and then continue the cycle. I recently
fractured my rib from having a cold and
coughing too much/hard. I know my life is
spiraling out of control and once in
awhile I eat a considerable meal so my
friends can stop worrying so much. I
don't know what to do though, I refuse to
ask for help or acknowledge my situation.
I feel no desire to really change anything
but i'm scared and feel like there is no
one I can, or want to, talk to. I don't
know why i'm really posting this, I guess
I just wanted to share and see if anyone
else has ever had the same problems while
also using adderall or another type of
amphetamine. I was never like this before
I started using it. I'm depressed unless
i'm on it, mainly because it's harder to
restrict my food and I have a constant
fear of getting fatter. Stopping the
medication for a few months has never
seemed to help either. I'm sure all 3
problems are connected so I wasn't sure
which board to post on. Anyways, i'm not
really sure what i'm looking for so no
response is really necessary....
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STLSingleMomma
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Sep 2003 Posts: 30 Location: St. Louis, MO
Posted: 10-07-03 12:17pm
I haven't been in a situation exactly like
yours - but I do know what it's like to
live with depression.
I'm on prozac and trileptal, and the
occasional xanax...
If your medications are making you not eat
and not sleep, talk to your doctor
immediately... Most likely he/she won't
take you off them cold turkey, but who can
say.
Wish I could give you more specific
advice, but just know that someone here is
listening.
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applesforu
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Nov 2004 Posts: 1
Posted: 11-16-04 08:42am
Hey i'm a college student too, and i've
resently been told I have add...(which
sure does answer a lot of questions) and
i've been put on adderall...Last month it
was 15mg morning and 15mg evening and now
i'm just doing 20mg adderall xr in the
morning. Anyways..I'm about 5'4" 5'5"
and I wieghed about 115lbs before I
started which is totally fine but now i'm
down to 110...Now i'm not glad i'm taking
adderall cuz its making me lose wieght and
the only reason I want to keep taking it
is cuz it helps very much when i'm in
class and doing homework etc. This is
probably because I wasn't really over
wieght before...Like I was pretty darn
happy with my weight before...You know
just mad at the little be of skin you
could grab..But the best way to help that
is working out...Anyways though what i'm
getting at is that I can't say that deep
down i'm not happy about losing 5 lbs..But
if I lose anymore its really not a good
thing...But anyways...My point here is
that my main concern is gaining the
ability to focus...The fact that you are
sooo concerned about the wieght issue...I
really hope makes you get help...Think
about it if I were to meet you right now
in person..The last thing I would notice
is your wieght...Dude more then half the
american population is overwieght..Even if
someone is overwieght they are still the
majority...Just because you look at a
modern model and see ribs and no boobs
does not mean thats what sexy...Would you
want a boney guy or a meaty sexy guy???
Moveing on..The main reason for eating
disorders is that it gives you something
to control...I dont know much about
this..Cuz personally with add I have a
hard time controlling much of anything and
dont really care...But all i'm saying is
that I wish all of you the best and I love
you girls...And soo do so many other
people...So please for the ones who love
you get help! You've already
accomplished a huge step just by
recognizing you have a problem....Give
your body and mind..What it really
deserves..Love!
