i'm 16 years old
and I think I might have an eating
disorder... About a year ago my parents
found out that I was throwing up my food
and they sent me to tharapy and I went
just to get them off my shoulders. I went
for about a month... And I told my
parents that i'm not going to do it again
and I didn't for awhile... But after like
a month and a half I started again since I
saw they trusted me again and they weren't
looking at my every move. So I would eat
and throw it up and I would eat in the
middle of the night and then throw it
up.... I just feel sooo guilty about
eatting... I don't want to get fat....
I'm 4' 11'' and I was 110 and I hated
it.... I want to be like 90 pounds and I
have a lot of work to do to get there...
I'm like 99or 100 now and I even join
cross country to try to lose more wieght,
but its hard...I hate throwing up.. I
really do...I want to stop but it I stop
i'll get fat and if I get fat i'll hate
myself for it and I really want to tell
someone but I can't bring myself to do
it... My parents were disappointed in me
once... I don't want to do that to them
again...
I
hate this sooo much... My throat is
starting to hurt all the time and i'm
feeling more trapped every passing
day....I don't know what to dooo!!!! God
help me....I'm dieing inside, with all my
sercerts
