Hi everyone, nice to know i'm not the only
one having a tuff time. And not the only
one seeking help in forums%uFFFD :d
i%uFFFDve had serous depression in my late
teens, spent more time in hospital than at
school after a great number of suicide
attempts. That I am here today is sort of
a miracle.
I learned a lot especially to look in your
own eyes for help if you want your life to
improve.
I am in my mid twenties now, and suddenly
caught myself falling again and fast. I
do not know if it is night or day. The
reason for my letter is not to find help
for where I am emotionally, but more to
find help in how to explain. I got
married less than a year ago and my
husband knows none of the
%uFFFDother%uFFFD side of my life. He has
seen my self inflicted scars, but never
really shown great interest. How do I
explain depression? I%uFFFDve had no luck
when trying to explain before in my live.
I love my husband with all my heart, but
we are experiencing serious problems. We
are in a new country and I do not have a
soul to communicate with.
I can feel how i%uFFFDm falling into my
old state and i%uFFFDm trying to grab onto
the walls.
Any thoughts would be appreciated. :d
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STLSingleMomma
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Sep 2003 Posts: 30 Location: St. Louis, MO
Posted: 10-09-03 13:21pm
I think the first thing you should do is
talk to your husband.
Ordinarily I say let the past stay in the
past - but it's hard with depression
because it can come up again with
stressful situations, and you definitely
are in a stressful situation, if you are
in a new country!!
Your husband needs to know about your
past.
Sit him down and say, "listen, I have to
talk to you about my past. This is
something I can't run away from, and I
feel like it is happening again. I don't
want to do this to myself, to you, or to
our relationship."
if he isn't interested, find yourself a
therapist fast, and ask your husband to
come with you to a session...
Good luck!!
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Eloise
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2003 Posts: 21 Location: Georgia
"been There 2" Posted: 10-09-03 15:00pm
Hi antione, i'm eloise & believe me
when I say i've been there. As a teen I
was suicidal. As a teen I didn't have the
guts to actually hurt myself. Once my
father asked me something about a guy @
school & I remember thinking that if
he hits me I was going to cut my wrist,
but for some reason he didn't hit me. I
always kept razor blades with me & at
one time I carried a switch blade. As a
young child I was abused physically as
well as emotionally. It was very hard for
me to communicate with people. I met my
husband (my night in shining armor) since
i've matured a lot the only advice to you
is to be honest to him. You r still
young, but if your husband loves u he will
be there for u. My husband knew that I
was suicidal, but he got tired of me
saying i'm going to kill myself, until he
said here if u want to kill yourself go
ahead & do it because i'm getting
tired of u saying it. He wanted to go out
with the boys. He was 23 @ the time,
& he decided to stay home, because I
didn't want him to go. Ever since then my
husband has been there for me & he
still is. We been together 24yrs. If
it's hard for you to talk about, then
write your thoughts on paper, verbally
when we had discussion, I would always
leave something. So I started writing all
my thoughts on paper. I still do & I
love to write poetry. I can only write
what I feel. If I don't feel it I can't
write it. I wish u much luck and success.
