T - tha truth and only the truth!
I don't know what is going on man. But
I know wendy has told me you guys where
having problems at home, and she was
wanting to get away from you(divorce)..But
before any of this was said to me, wendy
and I have been talking since the oklahoma
trip. It all started on the way back from
oklahoma..We talked and talked and then we
got back to town and we talked even more.
Well it grew from that. She wanted me to
come over and hang out with her while you
was at work.Thats why some nights I was
there when you worked nights. The night
miranda and nate came over cus of the
storm, we was messing around that
night..It felt so akward being there when
you got home. I told her I didnt feel
right about doing it because of feelings
will get involved. Sure enough what do
you know! We have devloped feelings for
each other, then she started talking to me
about your guys problems and stuff, and
you don't know how many times! I asked
her is this what you want? Her answer
'yes!' I made her tell me she wasnt doing
any of this because of me, and her answer
was ' nope, you have nothing to do with
this'. Which made me feel alot better!
And thats why I was trying to stay low
from you guys, not talking to you as
much..She told me she was gonna give you
chances to work things out around there
and she told me it wasnt gonna work out
between you guys cus shes fed up with
everything! But she tryed and told me.
'i gurantee nothing is gonna change', I
told her I beleive it because ive been
thru this with my parents. All you can do
is promise and hold on to it as long as
you can' but it goes right back to having
problems again! It only gets worse bro.
Id rather see you guys friends then
enemys(i know its gonna be hard cus of me
and her).. She gave you as long as nascar
and told me she promised me she'd end it
with you and me and her can have
fun..Everytime wendy and I hung out we
talked about your guys problems she wanted
out. Ive asked her so many times ' do you
miss him? Her answer was no! ' then we
started letting are feelings get involved
between us and she started telling me she
was in love with me, I have her heart, and
so on...That explains it all really and
she wanted to try and get it over between
you guys before anything got out about me
and her..When you 2 had your break and you
stayed at your parents, she stayed here
them 3 nights you was out there. Then
when you guys had another one and you
stayed at brian and brandon's she stayed
that friday night(which you knew) but she
also didnt just fall asleep watching a
movie. She fell alseep beside me in my
bed every night she was here. I mean
we've taken it as far as you've guys
been...And she told me it was alot
better...(kissing, cuddling, s*x, being
around me, so on.)... There few times we
wanted to go do something and you'd wanna
go, I said I wouldnt if you went for the
fact it wouldnt feel right being around
you after everything she has told me, and
we done. The reason im writing this is
cus man I really dont know what the
medical question is going on..My life has
been sh*tty the last few weeks cus of sh*t
going on around here..Seems like
everything ive had is gone. All my stuff
for my car dad has taken and not replaced
and it will never get replaced. I worked
my ass off to get the sh*t and then it
just gets taken. Im sure you feel the
same way bout wendy just wanting a divorce
from you. But honestly dude im on the
edge of disappearing from this world. I
know I should feel that way but I do for
the fact my life is sh*t. Ive been lead
on by many females and it hurts more and
more it happens and makes me wanna leave
even more, I know you have been thru this
to..(with females). But I told her as
long as shes here I wont do anything
stupid. Shes made a difference in my
life. Shes kept a good head on my
shoulders..Ive told her how I feel about
everything. She tells me when you least
except something to happen something will,
it has happened me and her! Im trying to
look at that as a good thing and I know it
is. Ill do anything to make her happy and
keep her happy! It hurts so much to know
that you guys prolly wont have anything to
do with each other after you read this and
really know whats been going on for the
past 4 months, and shes lied to you more
then you excepted. Deep down in bro..I
dont wanna see you get put threw this
again by her, so if I was you id go ahead
and get what you told me you guys decided
to do what you told me on the phone the
day you called and I was working on my
motor(divorce). I mean sh*t your this far
got the papers, and know you really know
what is going on do it. Save you alot of
heartache bro. Id rather see you guys
friends and not have anymore heartache if
you know what I mean..Buts gonna be hard
like I said because u know whats going on
now. I dont know whats going on with
wendy and me. I try to get her to talk to
me and everythings ' I dunno '.. And has
been for awhile. Shes told me more then
once I have her heart, she loves me and
she wasnt gonna let anything come between
us.. But man i've said what i've been
needing to tell you sorry I lied to you
bout some sh*t I have, but didnt wanna
ruin your guys friendship between each
other, and I know you told her you couldnt
take her back after all whats happen, most
def-ly you wont now. But dude im still
here as a friend but I know you wont want
nothing to do with me and I understand its
coo. But we are boys for ever..And if u
feel the need to disappear and is till do
wait for me we go togetha(hate to say
it)..But I know I couldnt get this all out
if I talked to you in person/or on the
phone. Later man
-- only reason ive wrote this to him and
tihnking about giving it to him , is
because im hurt and I wanna let her know
how bad im hurting because shes now having
second thoughts. So guys how would you
feel if you got this letter? Honest
opinions please.
