No Motivation, "even Down Looks Up" Posted: 10-20-04 02:29am
I've had zero motivation for so long I
can't even remember what it feels like to
want. I go through the day like a
zombie.I feel useless. Even when things
happen that I know I should feel good
about I don't really care. I put on a
smile and pretend. I'm really good at it.
I have great friends that listen and are
always there, but it doesn't seem to make
a difference no matter how often I talk
about it. I would talk more to my family
but on top of being a huge portion of most
of my problems my mother and sister are
both bi-polar and often they are in no
condition to help me.
My boyfriend is getting phone numbers from
girls he says are just old friends. He
gets mad when I get upset about it. It
makes me feel ugly and useless and
completely undesirable. I feel like the
dorky 13 year old that I used to be. Too
skinny, big glasses. He doesn't respect
my feelings about it at all and all I can
do is cry.......
I've never been diagnosed with anything.
I feel stupid and weak for even thinking
about going to get help. I feel ashamed.
I can't go on being so miserable. I don't
know what to do with my life, with my
mental health. I feel like all of my
dreams have died and my heart is broken.
I just don't know what to do........
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BADSAL
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2004 Posts: 257 Location: PA
Posted: 10-20-04 10:33am
This may sound weird but try doing
something to help or brighten someone
else's day. It will in turn help you
feel better about yourself. Give someone
a card just to say hi (neighbor, ederly
person, a new mom, a child). Go have
lunch with someone. I went to my kid's
daycare and ate lunch with him one day
that I was having a terrible day and he
was so happy. I couldn't help but feel
happier too. Of course- you can see a
doctor to see if meds would help you. I
just wanted to try to give you something
you could try right now to at least boost
your motivation.
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 10-27-04 03:48am
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anishakulkarni
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Jan 2004 Posts: 11
Posted: 10-30-04 10:14am
Well stasia.
I m also so depressed but I think I can
forget about myself when I help others if
anyone needs my help.
I think if you can not resist problem
then flow with it as long as that problem
gets weak once it gets weak then you can
control it.
Cause u and I have diffrent situations
so your problem I simple for me,and my
problems are tough for me.
Anyway.
