Hi, my name is melisa and im 15. I have
had depression since last year but it
really wasnt that bad until this year. I
have went to the doctor a couple times and
I take medication for it and my headaches
but it just dont seem to get better. I
thought for awhile it was better but
everything here at home is just whoreshit!
My brothers tell me that im worthless and
I dont do caca which I do everything here
at home cause my mom and dad work. My
younger sisters are all constintley
fighting, driving me insain. My dads been
being a problem with me and my boyfriend.
No one has faith in me. I feel like im
chained down. I feel like a nothing here.
When I get all pissed off I feel like
just going and doing something stupid....I
dont think im to the point of killing my
self but its been in my head. Sometimes I
just wish I wasnt here. Last night my dad
ticked me off and I got pissed cause he
like doesnt want me and my boyfriend to be
together at like all. So I went to my
room and threw everything in my room at
the wall, everything on my bed went flying
onto the floor. I was talking to my
boyfriend at the time and he heard how
pissed I was and I told him I was going to
go. He asked where and I said I didnt
know and didnt care but I was goin to go
and hes like no I wont let you go cause
your pissed and I know what you do when
your pissed. So thankfully he got me to
stay on the phone with him for awhile to
calm me down alittle. I started crying
cause I was soo mad. I cry alot for no
apparent reason or over just dumb stuff.
Last night wasnt exactly something dumb
though. But I can still feel all my
depression built up in me just waiting to
come out. My sisters pissed me off again
tonight and really got to me so its even
higher. I have a feeling when everyone
(mom, dad, and brothers) get home from
work im gonna get alot of caca. I just
dont know what to do. The only person
that can calm me down is my boyfriend and
hes at work and works late at night so I
dont get to talk to him much. Please help
me!!! Thanks
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BbyBlu0602
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Feb 2004 Posts: 822 Location: Virginia
Posted: 11-05-04 17:22pm
Things used to be the exact same way for
me, probably worse because I got pregnant
when I was 15. I can tell you from
experience tho, that things will get
better. They wont always be this bad.
Why does your dad not like your boyfriend?
Does your parents and siblings know how
you feel? Have you talked to them about
it?? Maybe it would make things better if
you explained how you really felt to them.
Also, talk to your dad about why he
doesn't like your boyfriend and then see
if you can convince him otherwise. Maybe
it's all just a big misunderstanding. I
hope things start looking up for you soon.
I know that things will eventually get
better though, trust me. If you need
anyone to talk to, i'm here.
