It happened a few yrs back.. But I
realized I can never forget it. Will
start to cry whenever I see or read
something that will remind me of it.
I had a miscarriage. At 16yrs old.
There are a few close friends I shared it
with, talked it out. But I realized I
need to share it with someone who truly
understand what I feel and how it was...
And then I found this forum. So perhaps
someone here can help me...
I was alone and scared. Thought it just
might be my period. Even went to put on a
pad. (ain't it funny in a way?) but I
knew something was wrong.. The bleeding
was very heavy flow and continous. It was
so painful I couldn't even stand during
shower. Up till now I had no idea why it
happened.
I was going for an abortion, but in the
end I went for an evacuation of the womb,
even though the foetus had already fallen
out when I was in the toilet. Flushed
away.. Just like that.
The surgery was my worst nightmare. When
they inserted this thing(later they put a
small bottle of anesthesia there which
flowed into my body immediately) into the
back of my palm, it was so painful I
cried.. Until I dozed off. Some time
later, I was woken up to go for the
surgery. Then the anesthesia made me
unconscious again... And when I woke up..
Untolerable pain at my abdominal. After
that was so weak kept vomiting.. And
bleeding still down there.. Which
continued for abt 1mth.
Typed until here.. Somehow the words
above seems so.. Inadequate? They don't
even fully describe how I felt.. And what
I went thru... Which is so much worse..
