Hello all - first and foremost thank you
for all of your replys to my last
question, you were really helpful. Well,
i'm 17 and I had unprotected sex w/ my
boyfreind 3 weeks ago - that's when I lost
my virginity. But I am, and always have
been, an emotional wreck.. I've been
having sucidal thoughts for about a year.
I cut my wrists because it makes me feel
so good when i'm down. But ever since I
thought I may have become pregnant, I
havn't cut or done anything to hurt
myself, because I couldn't do anything to
hurt my baby - if I was pregnant. This
has seemed to help me for the past few
weeks but now that i'm waiting for my
period to start, i'm starting to feel like
I need a baby. I really want one and I
know that if I was pregnant I could
provide a home for it that most people
couldn't. I come from a family with
money and so does my ex. Oh yeah, we
broke up about two weeks after we had sex
because he went back to college, typical
man right? I love him but I don't need
him. And I think that if I had a child,
I would need him less because I could
focus all of my love on the baby. I know
that i'm young, but i'm smart. I've
graduated under excellent circumstances
and i'm currently enrolled in college. I
know that if I was pregnant I would have
to take off from school for a little
while, but I would go back. Honestly, I
don't think that I am. And when I think
that, I just feel like I could die. I
need a baby. What if i'm not? I'm so
scared. Please help me get through this
- whether I am or i'm not. It's not fair
that other people get pregnant and then
get abortions when there are so many
people who really want babies. Ahh well
anyways, sorry. I just needed someone to
talk to. I don't really have anyone.
Does anyone have aim?
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itzamejonvia
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 Oct 2004 Posts: 12
Posted: 10-31-04 23:23pm
I know exactly how u feel.... Like
exactly. Its crazy! Im hurtbeyondb3lief
on aim. Please im me
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 11-01-04 13:41pm
Whoa!!!!!! I am 25 years old and growing
up I was extremelly suicidal-i have nasty
scars on my wrist and od'd on pills. I
always thought a baby would solve all my
problems too. I had a miscarriage at
16yrs and another one at 20. I was
devastated! Now I am about 2 months preg
and am ecstatic. I am also hapy now that
I do not have a 9yr old and 5yr old
because I was not ready, no matter how
much I thought I was (i too was in college
by 16 yrs. And living on my own) don;t
think a baby will make everything better,
yes you will have someone to love (that's
what I wanted) but you say you are in
school and you just lost your virginity.
Relax girl, when the time is right it will
happen but for now, chill girly.
Please don't take offense to this. It's
just meant as a helpful tip!
