Ok, straighten up and read this closely.
I am not going to criticize you. I don't
care if you are lying, this is not just
for you, but for anyone who is thinkg of
bringing a baby into this world at such a
young age. I am going to tell you a
little bit about me and my life.
I got pregnant at 14. My parents had
moved me to kentucky to live with my
grandparents because I was running away
and getting into trouble h ere. I was
angry with my mom for leaving me there, so
I ran out and slept with the first guy I
met. After only knowing him for 5 days.
But unlike you, we used a condom. It
broke. I found out 17 days later that I
was pregnant. I can't really say that I
was too upset. I cried a little, but I
actually got excited. It didn't hit me
until I was about 7 months, and I started
to realize how much this baby really was
going to impact my life. I saw how much
everything costed, I spent time with
friends babies. I finally opened my eyes
to the situation, and it wasn't pretty.
That was when I had my proper cries and
doubts of my maternal abilities. But I
sucked it up and dealt with it. I had my
son 10 days after I turned 15. And for
his first 7 months of life, my mother
bought everything for him. But I finally
got a job, and I will tell you, it is not
easy. Not at all. Hun, I work 4 days a
week, 5 hours a day. That is 20 hours a
week. On top of the 7 hours a day, 5 days
a week at school. So let's see, that is
55 hours a week right? So let's throw in
some shower time, some meal time, and time
to spend with my son. You know what that
leaves me with. 6 1/2 hours a night to do
homework, and sleep. By the time I finish
homework, I have about 5 hours left to
sleep. Then I get up, take my son on the
bus to school, struggle to stay awake
through my classes, break for 3rd period
when I get to spend time with him, eat,
finish classes, come get him, ride bus
home, put him down for a nap, try and
catnap or clean a little, get ready, go to
work, come home, play with josh, shower,
eat, get stuff ready for next day, do
homework, and sleep. Then I get up and do
it all again.
I will tell you, I am physically,
emotionally, and financially drained. I
bawled my eyes out the other night
screaming at anyone who was listening,
asking why I have to do this alone. Why
is it that his father is at college,
playing football, and I am here at 15,
working, schooling and parenting. I cried
for about 3 hours. I was sobbing so hard
I couldn't breathe. Then the next night
my boss sent me home 2 hours early because
I was exhausted. Of course it was raining
out, and I started crying again for no
reason on the walk home. I have a sever
case of manic depression, and these past
few nights have made me feel like I don't
want to live anymore. It is so hard. But
somehow, is ee my precious little boy's
face, and I pull through it. I go to
school and maintain a 3.25 gpa, I work my
ass off for a measley 100 bucks a week.
And I am the best damn mom I can be, and I
will tell you, that is my little boy and I
would die for him, but at 14years old I
was not ready to make that sacrifice. But
I had to. I know you are not ready to
make these sacrifices, so don't. Don't do
it. I have plans for myself after school,
I am going to make a proper and decent
life for my son and i. Whether we are
alone, with someone else, or otherwise.
But just think about it, are you really
ready to devote 24 hours a day, 7 days a
week to someone else? Are you ready to
spend every penny of your money on food,
diapers, clothes, and toys to keep them
happy? I am flat broke from buying my son
christmas presents, and I can't wait to
give them to him. But I would like to be
able to buy myself some things too. But I
can't right now because I cannot afford
it.
So in answer to your question tell your
mom this. Mom, I made a mistake that I am
not ready to deal with, but I will deal
with to the best of my abilities. Know
that I will love this baby and do whatever
it takes to raise it, even if it means
sacrificing my personal life, social life,
sleep, and sometimes even showers.
Because I am ready to grow up and take on
all the responsibilities of an adult.
When you can say that to your mother,
without being afraid to tell her, you are
ready to have a baby. Until thenm I
suggest you use protection or keep your
legs shut.