Yeah, honey it is tough. See, I would be
exactly like you are so it is hard for me
to give you advice! I know telling you
to keep him out is absolutely wrong, but I
understand where you are coming from
but, let me put it this way. There are so
very many girls/women out there who get
pregnant and the guy runs off. Or he
beats on her, kicks her in the stomach
trying to make her lose the baby, or he
runs off as soon as she has the kid, or he
fights for custody and makes her pay child
support. There are just so many
scenarios.
Try to be happy that he wants to be there!
Even wanting to go to the doctor's
appointments, that is virtually unheard
of. Take pride in what you have.
He can be a part of you and your baby's
life without you having to be "with" him.
Maybe just be friends through the
pregnancy? Like, don't see him everyday,
all the time so that fights break out, but
let him go to the doctor with you and
everything. That may be best.
I do understand what you mean though, and
it doesnt' make you a bad person or
anything.