Bipolar Disorder Forum - Help! Bipolar Boyfriend Memorized My Email Password

Ok I am bi-polar with severe depression and slight ocd. Don't qoute me please I am not a doctor but I have had most likely the experience you might desire to hear. This past summer I went nutz completely lost my mind. My husband was going out with my girlfriend (who he had no sexual intrest in at all) and I freaked. I woke up my kid put her in the truck and drove all over town looking for him. Finally I went back to her house where he was unpacking her car for her. I got pissed ranted and raved...Well his supervisor saw all this cause he lived just across the street. We fought that night and then two nights later I got pissed again because she came over to see if he wanted to go out. I ran outside I was screaming at her to get out of the truck and this and that I mean I lost it. We decided that we nedded to seperate and that I needed to go home and find out what was wrong with me. I got so depressed that I carried a blade around for a week almost wanting her to come over so I could cut her. In my mind she was the reason we were getting seperated. I cut myself to dull the pain within my own mind. Gurl I was messed. I tell you this story for a reason...I promise I will get to a point.

Anyways......I went back to ohio and got the help I needed. I was put on a drug called symbyax.....It is a mix of zyprexa and prozac. It worked. For the first time in years my head was clear. Unfortunately because of the zyprexa I ate like a cow so I had to switch meds. While switchin the meds I went thru jelouse phases where I flipped out again. One of those meds was wellbutrin. Now as far as what my meds specialist has told me wellbutrin is specifically for depression and not bi-polar.

As for your bf flippin thru your stuff....No he really doesn't have a right to do that, but sometimes it can't be helped. The disorder can control you. As for him flippin with the car incident, I would worry more about that. Yes that can be caused by the disorder but for that to happen is extreme. He obviously is not on the right meds and or right dosage for his bi-polar.

My advice.....Don't break it off right away. If you have good feelings toward this relationship sit down and talk to him about your feelings. Tell him that you think maybe he might need a med change. Offer to go to the doctor with him or to write a note to the doc to let him know an outside perspective. I know when I go see the doc I am always on my best behavior. He could be snowballing it. Furthermore if he needs someone to talk to about this.......Send him here. Tell him to come talk to me.

I'm tellin ya...I hit rock bottom and almost lost my husband and child because of this disorder. Its not an easy one to deal with.....Hell you can talk to my husband, he'll tell ya exactly how it is for him.

Good luck!