New, Depressed, And Confused

So im a bit of a hypochondriac so if you get of hint of that in this posting please lol bare with me.

So about a year ago I was diagnosed with ed-nos I had every symtom of anorexia nervousa except body image distoration. Yes ladies and gents the 99% reason why people develop an ed miss me was missing this very important factor so why did I starve you ask? I had the most serious abnormal phobia of vomiting. Its proper name is emetophobia and I was deathly afraid of throwing up. I've had this fear since I was 3yrs old thought for some reason in the past year (04 that is) I stopped eating convincing myself the slightest food would make me sick I made myself nauseated a lot too (not intentionally of course but thats the wonders of the mind) I counted calories weighed myself 3243274x a day lost a total of 22lbs, I thought about food every waking moment. Most of the tricks and symptoms you guys had I probably did except not once did I think I was fat I would look at all my bones and just yell at myself like what are you doing but that didnt stop me I kept on. So eventually I went inpatient and they jump started me eating again but it did nothing for me emotionally or mentally so im still stuck with old thoughts and depression. I was wondering if anyone could share some perspective on the following:

1. Does your face often get hot on your lower cheeks and forehead?
2. Do you often become lazy and not care so you stay in pj's all day lucky if you brush your teeth?
3. Is school such a freaking huge stressor that you have to be hometutored?

Yes thats something I experience and I feel like im the only one and its not helping my depression since I refuse medication. So I feel ike im stuck in my black little corner afraid to get out because of reality and no one understanding :cry: ..... So im here on the forum board and I commend you if you have read this far :wink: :d