Shannix thank you! But I know, this is
not where im supposed to be right now, I
just know. Its one of those things that
something bad has happened yes, but its
like one of those points in your life
where with whatever decision you make at
that very moment, is going to change and
effect the rest of your life, expect I
wasnt aware. I didnt realize that :(
because yeah this problem has pretended to
be my friend or an aquaintance all these
years :( I went for a really long walk
last night with a good friend of mine who
I was actually hanging out with a lot
right before this happened to me too, and
he helped me so much. Ive been avoiding
people like you wouldnt believe, just
because something bad happened to me.
Well we walked for like 3 hours and he
really really cares about me and tells me
im amazing, and he wants those moments to
last forever. He also told me how its not
my fault, and im nice, so not to blame
myself. Hes the problem he has the
problems. And I told him how I keep doing
just that, that I am like I wish I did
this and had that kind of I dont take caca
from nobody attitude. I am more cautious
then ever now, but I was telling him I
wish that something had happened to me a
little earlier like not so bad so that I
could be prepared for something like this.
You know how you make mistakes in life so
you can learn from them thats what happens
in life. But for it to be one of the
first times it just doenst seem fair if
its something like hiv, because then im
just going to die :( im going to get the
result in 5 mins, im actually not at home
I wont have internet for a little while
but will try and get back on. Thanks for
your support, but yeah things dont look so
good. I sleep a lot and always feel kind
of not well, as well as my looks are not
really the same. My friend feels really
bad, and hes like he wishes he could have
been there for me. I wish so too :( I
could have called anyone, I could have got
up anytime I was there im sure, I just
stayed in there way too long :( but
thanks, I just know that about myself is I
am always way too trusting of people. I
just know at the time I didnt expect him
to keep going and pushing me the way he
did. Like honestly everyday im just like
I wish that I hung up the phone. And
rejected him a 3rd time :) that would have
been soooo nice!
Well thanks guys god bless and i'll try
and get back to tell ya! Bye
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Good Advise
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 105
Go Get Those Negative Results Posted: 05-09-05 17:58pm
Sending good karma your way. Go pick up
those results and come back and brag at
how wonderful the results feel.
Make sure you write back! We've all been
rooting for you and I shared your story
yesterday to a small group of teenagers at
my church.
You're almost home!
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Shannix
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 26 Location: Colorado
Posted: 05-09-05 19:24pm
(((((laura))))))
well you probably have the results by
now...And well...Hmmm...I don't know what
to say except I don't think you have it.
You don't get signs for at least 6 months
anyway so the symptoms you are having are
probably just how your feeling about all
of it...Still.
Having been in a similar situation, I can
say that it is frightning,...And i'm
sending big love bubbles...Lol...That
sounds dorky...Lol...Any way...You know
what I mean.
Will await your results.
Ps glad you have a good friend to lift
your spirits.
Shannix
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BADSAL
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Sep 2004 Posts: 257 Location: PA
Posted: 05-24-05 08:10am
What's the latest, laura?????
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 105
Laura May Be Gone! Posted: 05-26-05 15:50pm
Laura used the site to express her
feelings, received our support, got her
results, she's probably negative, and has
no need any longer to get back to us.
This is very common!
Though it would be nice to hear from her,
it reminds me of when I got so drunk that
I was throwing up in the toilet all night
long. While I was throwing up, I
promised god to get me through the night
and in return i'll be a better father,
husband, whatever!
After the hangover left and the next day
was over with, I seemed to forget about
the moment of misery and carried on with
life. I just added that drunken moment
into my archives called "diary of a dirty
toilet syndrome."
as I have learned how to consume drinks
more cautiously, laura got results and
will simply learn how to have sex more
cautiously. I believe she dodged a
bullet and I wish her lots of luck for she
now has earned some experience points.
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* cheryl *
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Jun 2005 Posts: 38
Posted: 06-17-05 16:48pm
Im so sorry to hear what that evil exuse
of a man did to you, and it scares me so
much to think that he could get away with
it. There could be many more girls that
he is going to do this to, and you can
stop him. No girl should have to go what
you went through with him, and you should
see him to jail for what he did. You
could be saving the next girls life that
if could happen to. Just think, while
this is happening to you, he could be
somewhere doing it to other girls and
getting away with it. :(
i hope things look up for you, you dont
deserve any of this.
Cheryl x
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 105
Kind Words! Posted: 06-18-05 14:10pm
Cheryl, people come and go when they
discover the truth or results. She
probablly got her results, was neg for
hiv, and will probably not respond again
until she has another hiv scare.
I believed her thread! It's sad because
so many people were also concerned about
the incident.
Poof! Vanished!
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laura22
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Feb 2005 Posts: 16
Posted: 06-24-05 10:34am
Hi everyone, I have not posted in a while
I havent really had the chance to come
online, in fact a lot has been happening
since I last wrote. I did go for my test
results, and after 3 months they were
still negative, however they want me to go
back for retesting for 6 month period
july. I am also living with a friend now,
and have internet access again. I know I
also was wasting too much time just
dwelling about this incident and to get
out there and get back to work and my
life, instead of continuing on about it in
my thoughts. Yes I hate what happened to
me everyday and will probably for the rest
of my life, its still there it wont just
go away. But I also have to go on, and
enjoy whatever time I have left, and not
let that problem win, and ruin my
beauitful precious life. Im srry if any
of you felt I "used" the site to vent or
just get support in the case of a false
alarm. I do appreciate everyones support
and feedback and all the help and
encouraging words I have recieved from
you, I also just got back to my own life
:) I do hate it everyday of course it goes
through my head while im at work, with
whatever im doing. Because I have to say,
things do not look good, as I have told
you before. I know everyone will try and
reassure me, like you probably dont have
it, and you have to wait for the results,
but believe me im in this situation, I can
tell a lot of things and I have a very bad
feeling, and pretty much have already been
told by the health nurse that im wasting
precious time , when I was so freaked out
after it happened and I just didnt want it
to have happened. Its horrible. Yes its
a nightmare. What can I do about it? I
cant change anything. I have to keep
doing things, have to try and enjoy
whatever time I have. My friends my
family my loved ones. Im not joking
around or anything, its horrible. I
wonder sometimes why god allows such bad
things to happen, but I just rememebr he
was the one trying to protect me. Its
just something like when you are so close
to him and doing everything so right, that
thats more reason that someone wants to do
something bad to you. Fact, yes hes an
fool, hes every bad word you could call
him. But hes not worth any more of my
time, and sadly I knew this before this
even happened to me, so I feel awful he
was able to hurt me. It really is stupid
when I think of it, it just should not
have happened but what can I do, you just
dont see someone wanting to purposely hurt
you.. I just knew I didnt like him
already and avoided him so obviously dont
go anywhere with him and dont be alone
with him.. I should have known. I just
got pushed and pushed along. Damn it for
being so nice all of the time, its hard
when you have to learn something so hard
this way, that this "wolf" has been hiding
in this youth group all these years only
to have him kill someone.. I feel
ridiculously stupid for ever talking to
this fool in my whole life.. On the
phone, hanging out, etc. For a few years
now. But yes I knew better because I
already wasnt speaking to him, and
rejected him didnt like him so yes I feel
really bad that I did go out and I wish
more then anything it could be reversed.
He is evil, and hes been hiding around our
church, thus hes called the "wolf in
sheeps clothing" pretty scary stuff.
Thank you guys for wondering about me, and
all of your concerns and all your support.
I will continue to update you all, just
remember I will not let it control me and
my life. Im out there living, working,
being with my family and friends, not
cooped up anymore angry and scared, im
even dating someone now, someone whos
stood by me and been a wonderful friend to
me for the past 4 years and hes amazing
and so sweet and wonderful and I just wish
that this happened earlier :) thank you
all, and anyone whos prayed thank you, I
will be getting retested soon within the
next 2 weeks, I was told by the health
nurse it should show up by 6 months.
Thanks :)
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Good Advise
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 105
Great News! Posted: 06-24-05 11:34am
Welcome back!
You can take your 90 day hiv results to
the grave and put this matter to rest.
You are negative.
Don't even trouble yourself on the retest.
Take it if you want to but the result
will be the same. Don't keep taking it
after your next test because all it
contributes to is an increase in health
care costs. It becomes wasteful testing.
