I Cant Do This!!

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

I understand completely how you are feeling but you've got to hand in there. I have wanted to die for the past few months because I really felt no one could help me and even if they could I wasn't sure if I wanted help. I had no hope and I felt my world was ending and no one not even I could save me. But the thing is there is hope and only last week I realised that. Hope is there you just have to look hard enough for it. I am going to tell you this in the hope you will learn from me and get better. I have taken a number of overdoses over the past few months the last time was last week. Each time I had to go to the hotipal and it really isn't fun. I thought well maybe if I do go to hostipal they can help me and i'll be fine when I leave. The thing is the didn't help me because its not really about the food its about how you think and feel. You have a very negative outlook and thats what triggers off you behaviour around food. Its more important to change the way you think and feel because when you become more positive then you will stop binging and purging. And you will do it! You've got to believe in yourself believe in how strong you are and I don't even know you but I know that you are extremely strong, everyone with an eating disorder is. Just please don't give up because its not the answer, your answer is hope and when you find your hope your answer then will be recovery. I believe in you, you deserve to be happy you deserve to recover and you deserve to live. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I couldn't say this without meaning it and truely beleving it. Will you go and ask for help because when you do that it will all start to happen for you and your life will have just begun. Just think on this hellish experience as a growing and learning experience because that is what it is. You will be so much stronger when you get better and you will have an apprication for life which many people will never have. You will know yourself and you will accept yourself for who you are. You will realise that you are perfect just as you are( minus the eating disorder). Just please give recovery a thought and let me know how you are because I do care about you and I am very worried about you. I'll give you my e-mail address incase you ever want to chat ok. It los toyou2000@yahoo.Co.Uk. Please let me know how you are and I can't stress how much you are cared for and you are loved the problem is you can't see that because you don't care or love yourself. Keep in touch and i'll be thinking about you :d jenny

Of course you feel like dying! You are in a horrible hellish place. I know because I have been there. I was bulimic for over 10 years & I hated myself & my life. But you don't have to kill yourself. You just need help. Please reach out & try to ask for what you need. What you see in the mirror is not real. Your mind is all messed up right now with the binging & purging. Getting skeletal is not the answer. Once you are 95 lbs. You will still feel fat & then you'll want to be 90 & so on. No weight will ever be low enough because this isn't really about the weight, it's about how you feel inside.
You can get better if you get the help you need. There are lots of counselors, nutritionists, treatment programs, support groups& books to help you. But you have to realize that you are worth the work to get well. I know you are --- but do you?

Of course you feel like dying! You are in a horrible hellish place. I know because I have been there. I was bulimic for over 10 years & I hated myself & my life. But you don't have to kill yourself. You just need help. Please reach out & try to ask for what you need. What you see in the mirror is not real. Your mind is all messed up right now with the binging & purging. Getting skeletal is not the answer. Once you are 95 lbs. You will still feel fat & then you'll want to be 90 & so on. No weight will ever be low enough because this isn't really about the weight, it's about how you feel inside.
You can get better if you get the help you need. There are lots of counselors, nutritionists, treatment programs, support groups& books to help you. But you have to realize that you are worth the work to get well. I know you are --- but do you?