Help With Aadd/ Bi-polar

I don't have an answer for you but just wanted to let you know that I read your post and was thinking of you and wanted to let you know that I care. Maybe your therapist can give you some input? Or the doctor who diagnosed you with add? Hang in there, you are gonna be okay!

I just read your post. Sounded like me not that long ago...Yet a long time ago. Let me explain... I have been overcoming my bi-polar, but it seems like just yesterday that I felt like you did.

First off, I care too. You are cared about. The next thing is this... I am not a dr so I can't say yes, you are bi-polar. But I can say this. I too have heard that add and bi-polar run along the same lines. How do I know...Because I too am in your shoes. I was diagnosed with bp and then I was told...We think it is actually adhd, (add now that I am over 18). I take wellbutrin and topamax. Topamax slows my thought process down. I feel stupid in someways because I lose my train of thought and memory. It is not anything to play around with. Well butrin is all right. Dont stop it abrubtly!!! I take adderall for add and let me tell you about that stuff, it works. But, it will mess your body up so quick. I am sick right now. I have been in the hospital three times in the last 4 months because of that medicine. I have an imbalance of electrolytes. Terry shivo, who died recently...She had that too. Thats how she got in the coma. She got an eating disorder. Electrolyte imbalances come from many different things.

But, the next thing is this. You were talking about the black and white thing. That is very true. Bp people don't find gray. I remember hearing you say that and then talk about your boyfriend leaving you or not leaving you. You were like yes he will, no he won't. Not, I think we can work this out. The black, the white. Not the gray.

Let me say this too. Therapy is good for bp people. Our moods are high and low. We often have trouble with relationships and people find it hard to be with us. Therapy is great.

I personally, used to be in 12 meds. Now, 3.
I also, got saved. I don't know how you are, how you feel about that...But for me, having a relationship with god has been my therapy. I know can control my moods, I can concentrate, and I am working on getting off this last little bit of medicine.

You can e-mail me at v isionfromgod305@yahoo.Com if you need anything.

I was about to get diagnosed with bipolar but I stopped going to the shrink and therapist. I went to get better, but they gave me wellbutrin which made things worse for me. I wasn't really bad, just wondering if medicine had advanced to where things could get faster that on my own. Wellbutrin is crazy because if you miss a day or two and start taking it again it can send into bad hypomanic states. They you have to stick to it for six weeks for your body to adjust, but I decided after four weeks if I was doing worse than when I started I might as well not take it. But yeah, none of those drugs you can do cold turkey on. They give you real withdrawal symptoms.

Your boyfriend sounds like a loser to me. But it's easy for me to think that because of my cultural background or just from the way you described him. Before I got married I realized that engagement isn't about surprising someone with a proposal but just communicating and talking things out. I think you should talk about whatever concerns you. Though I know in the back of my mind, there's always that doubting that maybe i'm just paranoid and that's why I might think something is fishy.

I think it's a challenge to separate what your body is feeling and what you may interpret as the reason for feeling a certain way. I think of bipolar or whatever I have as just part of my personality. Though it's important for me to be aware of how this may affect my judgement. One theory for emotions in psychology is the two factor theory. It's where your body is aroused in some way. Like say going down a rollercoaster ride. Then the second factor is how you interpret that arousal. Some people will scream homicide on a rollercoaster and others will laugh the whole way. I tend to believe with disorders like bipolar, diabetes, or neuropathy or whatever that it's important knowing when you feel a certain way not because of something you did or something around you, but you feel like a butthead or real anxious just because your body is giving you that freak out feeling for whatever reason.

That's my rambling.