Since last night i've been feeling really
weird. Old memories have been coming up
and giving me these old, depressing
emotions that make me feel really
depressed and uncomfortable. They just
feel.. Really odd and... Weird. I can't
control them or stop them. I had one
nightmare last night and it lasted through
out the night weather or not I woke to go
to the bathroom or not. I dreamt my dad
died and I was taking care of my mom.
I've had these feelings throughout the
night and now since i've woken up. It
started last night before bed after I
thought I heard somebody saying "yes"
twice but my mom wasn't talking. Then I
was worried that something happened to my
mom even though it didn't. I just.. I
feel really different suddenly...
Everything seems unfamiliar and just
weird. I'm having trouble focusing on
anything else and I really feel like i'm
going insane.
I can't get past these emotions. It's
like my brain think's i'm asleep and it's
pulling out memories and the emotions
attached to them. And no matter what I
look at, read or want to feel the only
thing I feel is the emotion attached to
the memory. Does this mean i'm
schizophrenic or something? Again, I feel
like i'm ging crazy.
Edit: I also have paranoia(people are
trying to poison/drug me) and I don't know
it it's just my eyes but things seem to
move slightly when i'm not looking
directly at them. And i'm sensitive to
noise and light and I have a dependent
personality, I rely on my parents a lot.
Any suggestions/opinions?
By the way, i'm on birth control if that
matters at all. I have severe anxiety and
go to therapy for it.
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Justin_Toronto
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Jan 2005 Posts: 418 Location: Toronto, ON
Posted: 03-05-05 11:49am
You hit the nail on the head, what you are
experiencing are the symtoms of
schitzophrenia. The big giveaway was:
"it's like my brain think's i'm asleep and
it's pulling out memories and the emotions
attached to them."
this is a very common symtom of
schitzophrenia, when your subconscious
mind remains active while you are awake.
Your subconscious mind is extremely
powerful. It can bring voices and images
that blind reality... You begin hearing
things, you can eventually begin seeing
things... And sooner or later, you begin
to think it might be real. So you
listen, so you talk back... And it
snowballs and begins to get worse.
Eventually you're talking out loud to
people who don't exist in reality, but you
believe they are there, you believe it is
reality.
For some people, they link these
"revelations" to something spiritual, or
back to the earth... Like you've been
chosen to do something special.
In other words, sounds like the onset of
schitzophrenia, no doubt the paranoia is
simply manifesting and getting worse. Go
see your doctor and they will likely
prescribe something to balance out the
chemicals in your brain again.
