Can anyone help me? I feel so alone now
and I don't know who to turn too. The
thoughts of wanting to kill myself are
still very much here and I don't know if I
should act on it or not. I have wanted to
kill myself for the past few months and my
attempts got me know where. This eating
disorder has taken over my life and I
really am beginning to wonder will I ever
get my life back.
I go to therapy everyday and tonight I
cancelled my appointed for tomorrow, I
really regret that now because I really
need to talk to someone, I need to know
there is hope and that i'm not alone. I
ate today and so I feel like my whole
world is ending, I feel like I am out of
control. All I want is to be thin and
then everything will be ok well it will be
better than I am now. I can't stand the
way I look when I look in the mirror all I
can see if fat and its getting to me so
much, its ruining my life. All I want is
to be thin and when I eat my life spins
futher and futher out of control. Its
getting hopeless, I am getting hopeless.
I am very scared about my life, I don't
know how to live anymore. I know no one
can help me here but I just needed to
write and I am sure I will write a lot
more because I am losing this battle.
If anyone is reading this and hasn't gone
too far with their eating disorder I will
plead with you, get help now its not too
late but please don't let yourselves reach
the point were I am at, please don't let
yourselves get to a point where life
doesn't seem worth living, believe me you
won't like it. I want out now, I want to
give up, I want to finally be free. I
want to die!
Lostoyou( this name is so perfect, I am
lost to my eating disorder)
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poetmcc
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Mar 2005 Posts: 273
Poetmcc Here Posted: 04-09-05 09:16am
Hi losttoyou,
you've emailed me privately so you know
me. Thanks for posting this on the forum.
I wanted to write something like this for
others to see too. Thanks for saving me
the trouble. You've always told me to
fight my eating disorder the best I can,
so (forgive me here) but I am giving you
your own advice. Take care, ill be
praying for you.
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Thanks Hun Posted: 04-09-05 09:18am
Thanks hun! I am trying to take my own
advice but its not always easy. I'll be
ok soon. I hope your well and e-mail me
anytime k
luv jenny
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deathx
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Aug 2004 Posts: 118
Posted: 04-28-05 22:01pm
Its a rocky road huh? I feel like a
hyprocryte all the time when I dish out
advice giving I don't follow my own
advice.
Suicide? Not the answer, what will it
solve? It would be a waste of your life,
we've all bin granted life and shouldn't
let things such as weight, depression and
e.D's get in the way, let alone, kill
us.
please
don't kill yourself.
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waterbabe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 5 Location: Dublin
Never Give Up Posted: 05-05-05 15:01pm
My sister was at death's door as a result
of anorexia about ten years ago. I have
no doubt that she contemplated suicide but
she fought it.Now she is living happily
with her wonderful boyfriend and happy at
college. Im trying to take my inspiration
from her.I'm not finding it easy but i'm
fighting this and I know you can too.You
ever thought of getting help ? You can
win this battle. A journey of a thousand
miles starts with a single step. Take
that step. Good luck.
