Sometimes in life I think there comes a
point where you either move forward or
don't move at all. I've gotten to that
point and I am in big trouble. I don't
want to recover anymore and I just want to
die. I hate this stupid disorder, its the
worst thing thats ever happened to me and
its ruined my life yet why am I still here
with this stupid thing living it everyday
and rather dying that getting better. I
am so confused and I wonder if I am just
someone who can't recover from this am I
so different that I am the only one who
can't get better, I am the only one hope
doesn't exist for? I am so lost and so
frightened I don't know what to do
anymore. I am scared.
Life is so strange and I don't understand
it one bit. My life is so !@#^ed up and I
don't know how it got this way I don't
know what i've done to deserve this. I
must be such a bad person.I tried to kill
myself a number of times and I want to do
it properly. No one deserves to know me,
no one deserves to be hurt by me. :cry:
I just don't know what to do now. Should
I give up, just I just let go and get it
over with or should I hang on just to see
what happenens. I really don't want to
die but I can't see what else there is
left to do. I've got nothing and no one
and I am so afraid that life wil be like
this forever, I don't want to live like
this forever. My mind is racing so fast
between taking tablets just to get it over
with and then not taking them and living.
What should I do. Help me someone, please
help me! :cry:
sorry I know no one can help me but
myself your kind of just listening to my
head and the conflict thats there at the
moment. It should go away I hope. I am
just very lost at the moment and i'm going
through alot, just finding it difficult to
cope. It will turn out for the best, life
is funny that way, it helps you along
without you even realising it. Already I
have survived this week and I didn't think
I would so life is ok sometimes. :?
Thanks to anyone who read my little freak
attack but nothing lasts forever and I
wont either.
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ggshawy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Apr 2005 Posts: 39 Location: herts
Posted: 04-13-05 13:57pm
Hey darling calm down, how old are you
hun and what disorder have you got, are
you on medication babe cause you are
depressed and need it, I know what its
like to feel so down you cant bear to live
anymore I have obsession compulsive
disorder which causes jealousy attacks it
rules my life and makes me down iv taken
an overdose but I have councilling and
anti depressants to pick myself up im 17
now and learning to deal with my
problems,,, I am certain you are over
exaggerating I bet your a brilliant girl
your just being hard on yourself relax
stop giving yourself such a hard time,
sometimes yourself can be your own worst
enemy. Keep your chin up honey take
care.
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
I Wrote That Post Posted: 04-14-05 09:24am
Ok I am very confused I wrote the post a
week or tow ago but now its under a
different name. What is going on? Has
someone else wrote the exact same thing as
me and if they have well then I know
exaclty how you feel because I wrote the
exact same post with the exact same words.
Can anyone tell me what is going on?
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Jade13
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Apr 2005 Posts: 6 Location: Woodhull
I Know Posted: 04-14-05 10:31am
Thats weird that we posted the same this
we must be feeling the same way
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Weird Or What Posted: 04-14-05 15:28pm
Maybe my computer is just messed up
because you wrote my very words, so I am
still really confused. Well I hope you
are ok and are feeling better now; as you
said life seems to turn out ok and it
will. Take care,
