My Life Right Now....................... Posted: 04-15-05 14:09pm
Hey guys let me just start by explaining I
am a 17 yr old girl I suffer from
depression anxiety attacks, obsessional
compulsive disorder and jealousy attacks,
some times I cant even get out the front
door, I have councilling and take
paroxetine tablets, I really hate my life
there were days where id sit in my bedroom
and cry for days, although im much better
my life is still very difficult to cope
with, I have been through the self harm
stage, the suicide stage (i took 64
epilepsy tablets).
I had too have weeks of work, I was just
wondering if anyone else has been through
all this how they cope if they do cope I
wouls especially like replies from teenage
people like myself with similar
experiences.
Thanks
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poetmcc
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Mar 2005 Posts: 273
Posted: 04-15-05 19:57pm
Hi ggshawy, I sincerely hope you're ok.
I'm so sorry to hear what you're going
through. You must feel like you have a
really tough life right now. And I agree,
I don't have problems as severe as you do
but I do feel like sitting in my room and
crying all the time. The most important
urgent issue is your overdose- is this
what you want ofr yourself? You are 17
means you will be in collegse soon maybe,
get a job, drive.... What do you wnat 10
years from now. Are you taking the steps
to do it? Maybe you could ask yourself
these questions.
I wonder why the counseling hasn'e helped-
have you told your counselor this? If
they are part of the problem, get a new
conselor. You deserve the best because
you have life ahead of you alife without
any worries and a life filled with
happiness and dreams and goals. Please
believe that for everyone, no matter how
messed up they are, there is help out
there and there is a better life.
To cope, I know it feels like you can't.
To cope when I feel crummy, I often write
in a diary. It reallyhelps because you
can pour out all thought and feelings.
Take care of yourself and i'll be thinking
of you ok. E-mail me privately if you
want- poetmcc@ya
hoo.Com. :d
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ggshawy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Apr 2005 Posts: 39 Location: herts
Posted: 04-16-05 04:34am
Hey, thanks for that reply, that was
sweet.
Well basicly I did write a diary but I
had to burn it as though I was burning
part of my life, it was all bad memorys,
an d I made it into part of my obsession
which is just a vicious circle because no
matter what I rty to go forward from
something always holds me back, my
councellor is brilliant its just the
excercises dont particulaly work that
well.
Iv had a hard childhood my dad beat and
cheated on my mum, her partner now has
cheated and had children elsewhere, my
little sister died my mum had depression
and was suicidle so I was neglected,
bullied all my life at school and now to
top it off im in a relationship where im
jealous and he is violent to me, so were
both as bad as each other but its taking
its toll on, I feel on the end of my
tether and the only bit of comfort is the
security of wanting a baby desperatly,
me and my partner love each other and were
trying hard to make it work are we
mad????
I just dont know what to do now, im in a
dead end.
