a Wasted Life

Hi lostto you,
how are you? You have been such an inspiration to me while battling my eating disorder I shall try to help you. Congratulations on turning 18 soon. You will be l-e-g-a-l!!!! :d :d :d :d maybe 18 could be the start of a new life. Your 18 years of life have not been wasted. Like you said on one of your previous posts, eating disordered women are so strong , we can fight this and choose to fight this. We never give up and one day the sun will shine down through all the clouds of despair (sorry for getting so poetic). You are 18, does that mean going to the university in ireland? You are now indpendent and that could be a motivation for you to deicde to live a more fuller life. Everyone is special, I don't know if you belive in god, but I remember reading a saying "god don't make no junk" and that's true. You are special and you desreve to live, you were put on earth for a reason and you have mission and goals and dreams to be seen. I know sometimes when I feel lost to my eating problem, I think what I want to be 10 years from now and I will succeed in being that taking the path I am in. Or think about life before eating problems ( I know it feels like you have had this forever but that's not true) and imagine how it could be if you could go back to living happy, if you didn't always worry about food, if you didn't have calories and binges and purges on your mind. You can get there, all of eating- disordered people can get there and we will. We will eventually. You have taken the first step in aksing for help on the forums. You are never alone, if you don't want to think about anything think of that. If an eating diroder were something that started at one point all of a sudden, we could go back and chnage it. But its not, it a series of actions that have to be undone and you will undo it one day and you will be free from this. That day exists, you have alwsy told others to believe that iknow I read your posts on thr forums so listen to yourself, listen to me and dont overdose. Overdsoing can damage you. You will not be able to do so many things. Once done, never reversed. It will be a part of you. Choose another alternative- life.
Please take care of yourself and pm me whenver you wnat- I would love to talk to you. I don't know if you can but maybe you could even call me 610- 202- 2347. You have to use other digits to get internatioanal calls I guess but my main point is i'm there for you.
The most importnat thing I have to say is thank you. Thank you for writing this and giving me advice in the previous times when I wrote on the forums. I am so extremely grateful. Smile, relax, reflect and laugh- it can only make your day bright. See ya.
Ps: i'm sorry this is so long, I just felt I had to say all this.

Hi lostto you,
how are you? You have been such an inspiration to me while battling my eating disorder I shall try to help you. Congratulations on turning 18 soon. You will be l-e-g-a-l!!!! :d :d :d :d maybe 18 could be the start of a new life. Your 18 years of life have not been wasted. Like you said on one of your previous posts, eating disordered women are so strong , we can fight this and choose to fight this. We never give up and one day the sun will shine down through all the clouds of despair (sorry for getting so poetic). You are 18, does that mean going to the university in ireland? You are now indpendent and that could be a motivation for you to deicde to live a more fuller life. Everyone is special, I don't know if you belive in god, but I remember reading a saying "god don't make no junk" and that's true. You are special and you desreve to live, you were put on earth for a reason and you have mission and goals and dreams to be seen. I know sometimes when I feel lost to my eating problem, I think what I want to be 10 years from now and I will succeed in being that taking the path I am in. Or think about life before eating problems ( I know it feels like you have had this forever but that's not true) and imagine how it could be if you could go back to living happy, if you didn't always worry about food, if you didn't have calories and binges and purges on your mind. You can get there, all of eating- disordered people can get there and we will. We will eventually. You have taken the first step in aksing for help on the forums. You are never alone, if you don't want to think about anything think of that. If an eating diroder were something that started at one point all of a sudden, we could go back and chnage it. But its not, it a series of actions that have to be undone and you will undo it one day and you will be free from this. That day exists, you have alwsy told others to believe that iknow I read your posts on thr forums so listen to yourself, listen to me and dont overdose. Overdsoing can damage you. You will not be able to do so many things. Once done, never reversed. It will be a part of you. Choose another alternative- life.
Please take care of yourself and pm me whenver you wnat- I would love to talk to you. I don't know if you can but maybe you could even call me 610- 202- 2347. You have to use other digits to get internatioanal calls I guess but my main point is i'm there for you.
The most importnat thing I have to say is thank you. Thank you for writing this and giving me advice in the previous times when I wrote on the forums. I am so extremely grateful. Smile, relax, reflect and laugh- it can only make your day bright. See ya.
Ps: i'm sorry this is so long, I just felt I had to say all this.

Hey i'm from ireland too and I just recently turned 18.I've thought about suicide as a solution to my bullimia but then I look around and think-why would I let this health questions ruin my life ?! You are so much more than an eating disorder.Have you thought about going to councilling ? I go to this place called the marino therapy centre in fairview.They run a helpline that ou can pone between six and eight every night.The number is 01-8333063.The councillors are all so nice and not at all judgemental. Seriously never feel alone.Since i've been going there,my perception of myself and my problems have been altered completely and I believe that I am on my way to rocovery.And to me,recoverymeans normality and freedom.I'm doing my leaving cert in 5 weeks and i'm not sure if i'm going to do so well.But if I don't.I'm going to do it again and get the points I need to do the course I want.I'm not going to let this take over me and i'm going to pray that you don't either. Never forget that a journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.You can do it.Go n'eiri an tadh leat.

Waterbabe, sorry but I got curious.
What does "go n'eiri an tadh leat" mean, please?

Hey,

i understand how you are feeling. I have been fighting with thoughts of suicide a lot more lately. I get so overwhelmed with things, with life in general that I don't know if I can handle it all and do it all perfectly. I don't want to disappoint anyone and I feel like an utter failure so often. It can be terribly lonely to feel this way. People get so angry when you tell them your thoughts because they don't understand and have never been in your shoes.

I just wanted to tell you that you aren't the only one who feels this way and if you gave up now, after fighting for so long that would be a terrible waste. Your suicide would be a waste of a beautiful, priceless life. There is always someone out there thinking of you and pulling for you so be strong and hold on. Just the fact that you are in therapy and looking for support on this forum means that some important part of you is struggling to live. I'm here for you if you need to talk! Stay strong!