I Feel Soo Alone....

Jen,

cant you call his house? Im sorry your hurting. But think of it as you dont see him now but then after the baby youll see him for a long time! Everyday for the rest of your life. And trust me, youll want a break! Cheer up girl! Dont cry so much. You should really try talking to your parents! I cant say ive been there because ive had everything since I was 15. My phone, my car, my job. I wasnt spoiled though. I had to pay for everything on my own! Nothing was given to me like other spoiled kids I know out here! But anyways, I never got grounded. Maybe for like a week or two but that was it. But cant you walk to the payphone and act like your going to get an ice cream? And call his house or work or wherever he is? Do they not trust you? If I could, id call you and talk to your parents and say im your friend, then try to call raven for you! But cheer up. So what do you do all day? Are you like trapped? I mean can you not leave your house or do anything?

Thats the thing hes orignall from st. Louis and he stays w/ his uncle his uncle doesnt have a phone the only phone he has is his cell....I know ill see him everyday then out after the baby but I really want him to be here now and so does he and it just really hard on both of us b/c we are used to seeing eachother everyday all day.....No my parents dont trust me at all they have no trust for me like last sunday my mom went out for the day b/c my older sis was in town she hid both the phones thank god for speaker phone....There no where I could really walk to get ice cream mcdonnalds but thats where hes the manager at and thats not that far from here today I almost talked to him but he was on a lil break and they couldnt find him at that moment which sucked soo bad.......On the weeekends I do nothing absolutely nothing stay home lay around ill go for a 15 min walk thats all im allowed to do I cant talk to anybody unless they are from the town I moved from I go to school then come home and do nothing im sooo unmotivated anymore they even took my car away so they take me to school and pick me up they wont let me get a job soo basically they are trying to make me helpless so I wont leave....I cant talk to my parents they wont let me get a word in once I tried to start a convo they will just go on and on lecturing and by then I lost my train of thaught and cant think straight......I wrote out everything I want to tell my mom but im not sure if I want to give it to her or not its a lil harsh I was very straight forward and down to facts....Im going to have this one teacher that I talk to at school read and see if I should give it to her or not...Oh yah and today she tells me shes having this lady come over on tuesday b/c we dont have school and talk to me about my options I was thinking to myself the only option there is to keep it I already made my mind up and she wont listen to me.....Idk what to do w/ her anymore.....

Jen

Oh wow. If you dont mind me asking why do your parents not trust you at all like that? And why do they hate your guy? Thats bunk. I think you should give your mom the letter even if it is kinda mean and down to the point. She needs to hear your feelings straight out. Isnt there anyone you can talk to who can talk to your parents? Like a councelor and they can let them know that you cant keep you two apart. Dont you have another relative you can go stay with? Instead of your parents? Thats crazy. Im sorry you have to go through this. Tell your doc they are making you depressed or qomething. But you should really give her the letter to start things up.

One reason why she doesnt trust me is b/c of what happened last friday if u wanna know that story which is really long ill can pm u that....Another is her just trying to keep us apart.......Umm they think hes bad news one hes black they tolerated it at first now they wont even do that two he got my pregnant and they think its all his fault three they think I just in the sack w/ him after knowing him for only 3 weeeks which isnt true theres another story attatched to that too so if u wanna know them just ask...No there isnt another relative I can go live w/ my aunt and uncle are the only ones who live in springfield and they have 2 kids of there own and I wouldnt want to live w/ them they are very posh I guess u can say not me at all....Ive been talking to that teacher and she said anytime I wanna bring my mom in I can I was like thats the thing she will be okay and open minded at the meeting but when she gets home she will yell and hollar at me for the thigns I said or the things I chose to do... Thats just how she is she puts a happy lil picture on for everyone except for when shes at home shes not openminded at all....I think im going to re-write the letter change a few things then give it to her...Thanks niki
jen

Sweetie, I really wish I could help you. I am so sorry they are doing this to you and in a way i've been in your position. Try to give it time sweetie. I know it hurts.

Well pm me everything. And give your mom that letter. She should be controlling and freaking out like that.

I kindof know where you are coming from. I never see my baby's daddy, and when I do all he does is put me down, make fun of me and blackmail me. I really wish that I could help you, what about his parents? How do they feel about all this? How old are you? I know some twists, I have had to take place in some of them...Pm me, answer the questions, lets work something out..

Stacie

Things is mez is that he treats me good whether im hanging w/ him or not I love him soo much and I know he loves me....His parents are really supportive and cant wait to have another grandkid my parents idk today my aunt came in town w/ all her kids and we went to mickey d's where he works and I couldnt even talk to him I leaned over so he could see me he smiled and said hey kitty thats what he calls me and I just smiled back and it hurt sooo bad that I couldnt talk to him b/c my mom was there... And to make matters worse his friend greg and josh came in w/ rave's ex-g/f who I hate w/ a passion she is soo evil she has been trying to break us up since we started going out and it hurt b/c he was talking to them and he couldnt talk to me his own girlfriend I almost started crying I probably would have but I knew I shouldnt b/c my mom and that I miss him soo much and I love him sooo much hes soo busy w/ work and I hardly ever get to talk to him the only I can really talk to him is if hes not working and goes to the library gets online and talks to me through messenger his cell is broke so yah idk what to do anymore I just wanna move out...I love him .. And miss him...It hurts sooo bad and everytime im alone all I do is cry b/c I have nothing to keep me occupied and to take him off my mind....Idk if u can help or anything but if u can that would be great thanks....


Jen

***hugs*** I dont know how that actually feels but theres plenty of hugs for you and lotsa love honey I hope everything gets better for you and keep on smiling. ~melissa