Do I Have Schizophrenia ? Posted: 04-23-05 11:46am
It may just be in an early stage. My
friend told me he thinks that I have it so
I did some research because i've suspected
for some time something is wrong with me,
especially lately. Reading about it
was shocking.
As far as hallucinations go, i've only had
two when I was younger (i'm 17): one was
when I was being attacked by these demons
in my mind and I couldn't make them go
away until I prayed about it. The
other was when I bent down to pick up my
blanket and it rose up the ceiling with a
figure of a man under it. My parents
came in and said I was standing on top of
my bed screaming and pointing at the
blanket on the floor.
Often times I feel that people are out to
get me, such as teachers, or that my best
friends have betrayed me. The other
day I was convinced that my mom poisoned
my food, even though I knew it wasn't
possible.
I have had this delusion that something
specific is going to happen almost
everytime I leave the house and it
prevents me from a more active social life
and from choosing colleges that are too
far away. It's completely irrational
and illogical and it doesn't matter how
many times I argue with myself all the
reasons why it won't happen, because
everytime I am going to go out it
surfaces. I can't reason with myself.
I'm convinced that i'm going to vomit
even though I know that that's never been
a problem for me.
I tend to worry about certain things for
an hour or two, pacing around the room,
talking to myself, pulling my hair,
writing stuff down, checking things way
more than once, and screaming at myself in
my head to stop it.
I feel less emotions than I used to and
don't share the same emotions with people
around me. I have an inability to cry.
I sometimes have minor confused speech
patterns. Minor trouble making
decisions and with memory. Lately i've
been having a loss of motivation.
I am very nervous most of the time. I
have a slight indifference to others'
opinions. I have a tendency to argue.
This may be unrelated, but whenever
someone physically hurts me in fun I have
an uncontrollable desire to hurt them back
harder and many times, which I do.
I have an involuntary spasm and I have
thoughts about certain harmful dangerous
things that I know I shouldn't have
thoughts about because they are physically
hurtful towards others.
Sometimes I hear my mom calling my name
when she is not home, and if she is home,
she won't know what i'm talking about.
I used to be able to hear a sharp shout in
my ear. I vaguely remember talking,
although that may not be true.
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Wesleyg
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Posted: 05-12-05 23:24pm
You sound a lot like me. Where are you
from? Are you adopted? Haha, just
curious if I found a twin or something.
Anyways, 17 is pretty young but it happens
(i am 17 as well). As for me, I had
problems from childhood, and sometimes I
end up with depression and other times
with anxiety but most of the time just
plain psychosis. Get it checked out, I
wouldnt be suprised, but dont leave
anything out, no matter how hard it can be
to remember. Also, you're kinda low on
the hallucinations, which is perfectly
normal, just sounds like a summer birth a
bit more if it is schizophrenia. You
might be depressed, have anxiety, or it
could be you're just damn tired! Thats
what they told me mine could be, though I
have more hallucinations (the opposite
would be having more problems with
though).
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-14-05 13:03pm
Ha, I live in virginia. I'm trying to get
the courage to tell my parents. The
situation has to be right. I don't think
they'll believe me. I keep convincing
myself nothing is wrong even though
countless people have told me I definitely
need help, including people with
schizophrenia and a doctor.
A lot has happened since I posted,
although the hallucinations have passed.
I'm still nervous constantly, except now I
get furious over little things. I just
remembered the other day about my
blackouts that a lot of people get but
when they happened to me twice I started
shaking violently and collapsed to the
ground. I'm also creative and intelligent
and have had very stressful obsessive
compulsive tendencies for years.
I don't feel depressed. And i'm not
tired, because i've had the same sleep
pattern for years.
Thanks for replying,
andrew
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-14-05 13:03pm
Ha, I live in virginia. I'm trying to get
the courage to tell my parents. The
situation has to be right. I don't think
they'll believe me. I keep convincing
myself nothing is wrong even though
countless people have told me I definitely
need help, including people with
schizophrenia and a doctor.
A lot has happened since I posted,
although the hallucinations have passed.
I'm still nervous constantly, except now I
get furious over little things. I just
remembered the other day about my
blackouts that a lot of people get but
when they happened to me twice I started
shaking violently and collapsed to the
ground. I'm also creative and intelligent
and have had very stressful obsessive
compulsive tendencies for years.
I don't feel depressed. And i'm not
tired, because i've had the same sleep
pattern for years.
Thanks for replying,
andrew
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Wesleyg
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Posted: 05-15-05 00:25am
Sounds like it could be a far progressed
anxiety disorder, as in you have anxiety
and then got stressed with the real thing.
Then you get psychosis symptoms from it.
I too have ocd, isnt that funny! What
ever you have, its gotta be the same as
me.
Maybe I have did. Lol
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-15-05 12:57pm
Maybe you have did?? What's that? Ha,
it's nice knowing that i'm not the only
one. Whenever I explain what i'm going
through to my friends they say, "you're so
weird." thanks for your replies!
Yesterday after I awoke I heard in my head
someone say, "why is he awake?" and then
"is he...?" and I found myself nodding my
head a couple times. Then I heard michael
jackson confess to the molestation
charges! I was like, "well, that's big
news!" then I realized that it wasn't
real.
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Wesleyg
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why dont you do yourself some research on
hypochondriasis (dosent sound like you
have this though) and check out this link
(http://ehealthforum.Com/health/topic32190
.Html) on the same forum here for some
good examples of anxiety disorder
symptoms. But like I said I dont think
you have that. Probably just a bit
schizophrenic! :d for some reason
though, the sleep thing seems to get me
too. I always have most problems before
bed and after I wake. Like any disease,
eh? You say you hear it inside your
head. Do people ever sound like they're
talking to you from the outside, or maybe
you cant tell if it is?
Btw: im just curious, I dont think I can
help you, you gotta see someone for that
:)
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-15-05 19:12pm
Is hypchondria the same as anxiety
disorder? I share some of those symptoms
but I don't think I have it, although I am
nervous all the time.
Sometimes it's in my head, other times
it's outside of my head. Outside of my
head has only happened 3 times, it was
someone calling my name when no one did (i
asked everyone). The 2 events I heard
voices speaking was in my head.
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Wesleyg
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Posted: 05-15-05 21:45pm
H
ttp://serendip.Brynmawr.Edu/biology/b103/f
01/web3/aryani.Html heres a link to
check out. I dont want to say that you're
making it all up, but I know someone that
got other disorders this way, and was even
put in the hospital because of mental
illness. You dont make it up, not
consciously, but you might hear some stuff
about it and then it might become real.
Lots of people on this forum have it. :)
I dont think you do though, but just make
sure so you dont get medication that could
hurt you when you dont need it. Being
afraid of irrational things, hearing your
name being called, those types of things
mean anxiety and your brain says it dosent
want to handle it anymore so it gives in
to something that will let some of the
pressure out. You can only tell by seeing
a professional and letting them know that
you think that could be it. If I were you
I wouldnt say anything, once things start
taking control of your head. My guess is
you got lots and lots of anxiety, and
maybe you have schizotypal tendancies and
the anxiety makes them come out. :)
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-15-05 21:55pm
The link didn't work... :(
what do you mean if you were me you
wouldn't say anything, once things start
taking control of my head?
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Wesleyg
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Posted: 05-16-05 17:33pm
I meant about hypochondriasis, dont say
anything about that, because its not you.
:)
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-16-05 18:33pm
Okay, I won't. I didn't think it was me
either, since I was feeling strange and
feeling the symptoms before I even looked
it up and read the symptoms. :)
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Wesleyg
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Posted: 05-16-05 21:17pm
Something funny that happens to me is I
can take some simple medicine and it
screws me up big time. Like I can take a
pill just to help me fall asleep (not some
powerful drug though) and I get unnormal
side effects like getting abducted by
aliens.
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 05-17-05 14:52pm
Ha, that's never happened to me. I bet
that's fun, though.
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kiim
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Can Someone Help Me? Posted: 06-06-05 15:29pm
I havn't really researched about it and
found out all the facts but one of my
mates think I may have schizophrenia.
Basically I can be fine one minute all
happy and cheery, having a laugh with my
mates and everything then I can just
suddenly for no reason at all turn around
and snap at them and have ago taking
things out on them.
The other night my boyfriend was over and
we were watching t.V. In my room we were
fine together chatting and hugging you
know. Then he accidently pulled my hair,
I know he didn't mean to do it, it was a
complete accident but I just got really
stressy I started shouting at him and I
ended out hitting him and pushing him
round. Know when i'm the slightest bit
stressed or something he is scared to come
near me. I'm scared that this is going to
push him and my mates away, I can't
control it and wish I could.
I don't know if it is schizophrenia but I
told a mate about this and they sugested
that I may have it. Can anyone help me?
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 06-06-05 19:49pm
I do that, too
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kiim
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Posted: 06-07-05 04:32am
So does that mean I do have it? I'm just
scared im gonna hurt my boyfriend, ive
tried to kill him and I dont wanna do
anythin to hurt him
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yfguitarist
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Posted: 06-07-05 14:20pm
I don't know. I don't think I have it.
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Staylor
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Hello---kim Posted: 06-14-05 15:13pm
Hello
kim I want to know more of your symptoms
to me it sounds as if you have bipolar--
but it does not sound as if you have
schizophrenia-- this illneses includes
seeing things that are not there or
hearing things that are not there.
Delusions - false beliefs strongly held in
spite of invalidating evidence, especially
as a symptom of mental illness: for
example,
paranoid delusions, or delusions of
persecution, for example believing that
people are "out to get" you, or the
thought that people are doing things when
there is no external evidence that such
things are taking place.
Delusions of reference - when things in
the environment seem to be directly
related to you even though they are not.
For example it may seem as if people are
talking about you or special personal
messages are being communicated to you
through the tv, radio, or other media.
Somatic delusions are false beliefs about
your body - for example that a terrible
physical illness exists or that something
foreign is inside or passing through your
body.
Delusions of grandeur - for example when
you believe that you are very special or
have special powers or abilities. An
example of a grandiouse delusion is
thinking you are a famous rock star.
Hallucinations - hallucinations can take a
number of different forms - they can be:
visual (seeing things that are not there
or that other people cannot see),
auditory (hearing voices that other people
can't hear,
tactile (feeling things that other people
don't feel or something touching your skin
that isn't there.)
olfactory (smelling things that other
people cannot smell, or not smelling the
same thing that other people do smell)
gustatory experiences (tasting things that
isn't there)
disorganized speech (e.G., frequent
derailment or incoherence) - these are
also called "word salads".
Grossly disorganized or catatonic behavior
(an abnormal condition variously
characterized by stupor/innactivity,
mania, and either rigidity or extreme
flexibility of the limbs).
Negative symptoms, these are the lack of
important abilities. Some of these
include:
lack of emotion - the inability to enjoy
acitivities as much as before
low energy - the person sits around and
sleeps much more than normal
lack of interest in life, low motivation
affective flattening - a blank, blunted
facial experession or less lively facial
movements or physical movements.
Alogia (difficulty or inability to speak)
inappropriate social skills or lack of
interest or ability to socialize with
other people
inability to make friends or keep friends,
or not caring to have friends
social isolation - person spends most of
the day alone or only with close family
http://www.Schizophrenia.Com/
this is a good website if you want to look
at it....
Hope that helped....
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Ileanne
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...doubts... Posted: 06-14-05 15:58pm
A teacher told me that I could have
schizofrenia , after I talked to her about
what I was feeling and going through.
I hear two voices inside my head, they
always fight, beause one tells me
somethings right and the other tells me it
is wrong and tells me to do something
instead, that is worst.
Sometimes I have violent episodes, in
which I come to hurt myself , by hitting
myself or cutting myself. Sometimes I
hurt mysself because a voice tells me to,
it tells me im worthless and that cutting
myself is the best way of dealing,
(instantly, the other voice, tells me not
to, but I always end up doing it)
i get panicked whenever I get into a place
with a lot of people, like a restaurant,
or something, I just feel that when im
there, everybody's looking at me, and
critizyzing the way I look.
I dont know, but if I continue hurting
myself or doing things, ill end up in the
hospital, now, I just want to know if I
have schizophrenia...