Email Me At Priincesz190@hotmail.com Posted: 05-02-05 21:42pm
Im 14 years old. Ive been a cutter
ever since I was in 6th grade. My life
has been a living hell. I know you
people might think im crazy.And so do i.I
do believe in god and I have faith in him.
But where is he when I need him?
My mother also suffers from depression and
so do i. I got it from her basically.
I see her cry every day and it makes me
worse. She found out I cut my self on
my stomach with a sharp razor, she flipped
on me! She thought I stopped.
Everything is getting from bad to worse.
I have to hide my emotions and wait for
my tears to fall in the night when shes
not looking but sometimes I cant help it!!
I dont know y I cry. I dont know
why I feel like this. My father left
us, like about 3 years ago now.Y brother
and sister moved so its only me and my
mother. I have to pretend that
everything is good and do good in school
at the same time. My mom got me a
therapist but that doesnt work at all!!
I cant trust any of my friends cause
nobody would understand me...So I looked
up mutalation on the web and found this.
No one expect this from me, im like the
goody girl, the "popular" one, the one
that all guys "like"...I seem reely happy
in the outside but in the inside im
dieying.Please if you think u know what I
should do please write back as soon as you
can before I can make a mistake in my
life.... I also joined in a gang ...I
dont know why was the reason for it ...Im
also having sex alot..And im just 14. I
got rapped when I was 13 by some stupid
guy there...I have so much pain in my
heart..I dont know what to dooooooooooooo
please help me..:cry:
*well now wow a couple of months has past
ever since I wrote that up there ...Things
are going better,but I still feel
depressed..I stopped cuttin myself even
though im going threw soo much pain.I know
I just have to let go of the past and
focus on the future...My friend died on
june16,2005..I miss him soo much.A 14 year
old shot him 5times..And I dont know what
to do now....R.I.P phoenix -age 15-
2/14/89-5/16/05
one advice to all of you who feel like
this..I know its not easy, but look how
people are dieyin.Plz..Life u kan onli
live it once..Try to have fun,u never know
when its your last day.Live everyday as if
it was ur last!!!!!!!!
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LisaJ
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 May 2005 Posts: 3
Posted: 05-02-05 22:00pm
I just joined this site today for a very
silly question about a finger twitch, and
I came across your post. I wanted to let
you know that I recently saw a show on
oprah about a young girl who was a cutter.
She was older than you ...Maybe in her
20's. I only saw a portion of the show,
but she was on it and I think she has
gotten better. I would suggest going on
oprah's website and seeing if you can
order a tape from that show, maybe there
might be some advice that can help you.
Also, if your therapist isn't working, I
would suggest finding a new one. I don't
think you should do this alone. Good
luck and i'm so sorry you are going
through this.
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thunder_bunny
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 May 2005 Posts: 41 Location: Wisconsin
Posted: 05-03-05 11:20am
Hey,
i used to hurt myself quite a bit
throughout high school. I am now 25 and
don't cut or burn myself anymore.
Occasionally i'll still pinch or hit
myself. But I am not nearly as bad as I
once was.
Are you and your mother seeking
professional help? I don't think you can
expect things to get better unless you're
both seeking treatment of some kind.
For the time being you can try other
things to help you get through those
moments where you want to cut. Try
snapping a rubberband on your wrist,
holding ice or punching up a pillow.
It's not going to be the same, you're not
going to get the same satisfaction from
it. But it will be enough to help you
get through those rough patches.
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amy_j
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Apr 2005 Posts: 53 Location: england
U Can Talk to Me Posted: 05-10-05 19:48pm
Aw I know how you feel and I was crying
while reading your post.
If you ever need to talk please email me
aja
y_2k_free@yahoo.Co.Uk
anytime I will talk to you.
Take care
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Beki05
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 May 2005 Posts: 2 Location: Michigan
Cutting Posted: 05-11-05 12:43pm
I used to also cut and I have been dealing
with it for about 2 months I still do once
in awhile and it does not help. :evil:
:arrow:
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pierre_iz_gawjuz15
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 May 2005 Posts: 1 Location: Australia
Posted: 05-30-05 06:53am
I am 14 years old and I suffer from
depression and an obsessive compulsive
disorder, in which I lie all the time.
My friends at school are beutiful, but
they have no idea how I feel.
I have been depressed for about a year and
a half now, which mostly involved me
crying a lot and spacing out, but a couple
of days ago I grabbed a pair of scissors
and cut my arm to shreads.
I did it again the next day, and again
this morning.
At school my teacher noticed but I ignored
her, and I have tied a bandage around my
arm in hope of stopping myself cutting.
Your post made me fel sad, hopeless and
inadiquet, meaning that, a lot of caca has
happened to you, a lot of bad stuff that I
can't compete with. You have a reason to
be depressed. I just don't see my
reason.
If you would like to email me, or anyone
else, my email is pierre_iz_gawjuz15@hotmail.Com
love nicole
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Baby200920022000
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jun 2005 Posts: 7 Location: Mississippi
Maybe We Can Talk Posted: 06-13-05 18:26pm
Im almost 16 and i've been cutting for
almost a year and if you need some one to
talk to i'll be happy. Maybe we can both
help each other.
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 06-13-05 21:53pm
You people, please stop, please get some
help, what well you tell your kids when
they see your scars,think of the future,
please get some help with your depression
and all, I am a nurse, a social service
worker, along with other jobs that I have.
There is help for you people, 1st, try
the dr, or mental health, be positive.
You have a problem that most of the time
cannot be fixed by yourself, please,
please get help, I cannot say this
enough!
Sincerely,
sandy
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Jemini
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2005 Posts: 58 Location: Australia
Posted: 06-14-05 06:13am
I agree with sandy
there are times when you need to just
reach out and seek help because thats the
most successful way to get cured - so to
speak, with cutting.
I use to be a cutter myself, but now when
I look at the scars I have deep regrett
and had wished I never did it. At the
time, it was only a temporary relief, I
had almost died once, and that that was
wrong and way to close, not only are you
hurting yourself, but your hurting your
loved ones!!
So do stop before you seriously seriously
hurt yourself! Remember there are friends
and family that care.
